Kissonyou

Least we forget

2012-02-15T14:43:00.000+08:00

Here's a vid done by the drama team from my church!

Don't forget that today is total defence day everyone. Don't forget the sacrifices the solders made to protect our country from the Japanese. And like yesterday was Valentines Day, don't forget to appreciate all the man who'd sacrifice 2 years of their life to serve the country.

Miss being in Swiss Winds, miss playing the last post, dead march of Saul and all during Total Defence Day and Remembrance Day.

Happy Valentines Day Everyone

2012-02-14T01:24:00.000+08:00

Choose Love this season :)

Updates: NYNY Birthday celebration, TCSFY outing and Jin Lei's birthday

2012-02-14T01:19:00.000+08:00

I have so much to update about!! Haven't been blogging lately, or rather, since forever because well, EVERYTHING IS UPDATED ON TWITTER IN JUST AN INSTANT!

Still, I would continue to update my blog (though I'm no longer updating it regularly) because this is the only place that holds memories. Like I would be able to look back and re read all my posts. And most probably go "oh, I was so stupid" or "Whao. Why am I such a genius" after reading my self created quotes and all.

Back to updating.

NOTE THAT EVERYTHING UPDATED IS ON LAST WEEK.

On 5th Feb which was last Sunday, I went for service in the morning over at Suntec. Headed to Gleneagles hospital then after to visit my poor cousin who was admitted to hospital a week ago after being diagnosed of kidney failure. Poor boy ):
Though I don't really like him for him being an annoying kid, I still felt sad and sorry when I saw him lying in the hospital.

Right after, I went home to charge my dying blackberry (so glad I had my batt changed!) and went down to Lot for New York New York for Daniel and Jun Kai's birthday celebration.

Theo and Minjiang left right after while the rest of them went down to bukit timah for pool and I went over to fajar to buy someone dinner and also, to charge my (again) dying blackberry.

-_-

had fun watching some filming vids done by his project mates. HAHAHHA. Was so funny I couldn't help but to laugh at it.

Fast forward to Wednesday, 8th Feb when I met Aiksoon, Shahid and Enze for pool at bukit timah. Home after that and was planning to sleep but went down to Fajar again.

On Friday, I finally met up with the girls again!

Miss them so much! We hardly meet up nowadays because we're all tied up with our own schedule. Really hope we can all make time for one another before our school starts and it'll most probably mean, no time for one another. Theo will be flying off to Perth in July and 2 will be going to NP and another 2 to RP.

Gotta have to admit that Kbox would not be as fun without this girl with me. She's the only one who's willing to get high and do stupid dances with me while the 3 of them just watches us and laugh along. URGHHHHHH ):

Sakae for dinner!! We laughed so much during dinner!! HAHHAAH. Really love laughing with the girls. It's like whenever we laughed about something, they would stop after awhile while I continue to laugh and then, they hear my laughter and starts laughing all over again.

So yup, our outing ended well with 2 of the girls getting bird shits on them.
It was so funny!! We were waiting at the traffic light waiting to cross over to 313 when something like a water droplet hit the ground. Next moment, I turned to my side and saw Theo and yanting's expression and realized they got lucky. HAHAH. I screamed in excitement (no idea why I had to do that) and everyone looked at us.

Headed to Suntec for service on Sunday as usual.

As usual, married couples were asked to renew their vows in church on Valentines weekend

And again, CHC arranged for free photo taking session for family, friends and cell groups.

Headed to Guild house after lunch and slacked around for an hr while waiting for my 2nd brother to have his swimming lesson.

To secret recipe after that for cake cutting.

Then we headed over to Vivo for some shopping.

And had Korean BBQ for dinner!!

Was missing the food I had in korea pretty badly.

So to all you out there who's interested to try Korean food, this is the place to go! It's at upper West Coast Road opposite Haw Par Villa.
But of course, you have to be ready for the high cost.

But for those of you who have already tried Korean food in Korea (like me) and are missing it badly, I would say no to this place because it kinda disappointed me.
Not that the food wasn't good but it was so much better in Korea. I really missed the BBQ beef with lettuce and chilli sauce. It tasted so good especially when it was in winter when I went. It just didn't taste the same here when I tried it. The beef wasn't hot enough and they didn't use the same kind of chilli :/

Oh wellz. but overall, the service was great! So yeap! To those of you who have always wanted to try some Korean dishes, you have to check it out. But you really have to be open and try because most of their dishes really isn't the same as those korean food where you eat in hawker centres and all. It's authentic korean dishes there. Not some made up one like those you buy from food court.

Before I end this post, allow me to wish you guys a very Happy Valentines Day! (though I have never celebrated it -.-)

Love is a choice and in this season, choose love.

:)

LOVE YOU GUYS!

Said nothing

2012-02-09T17:46:00.001+08:00

I spent my whole afternoon trying to put how I feel into words. I want to let it out so much but yet I can't express how I feel. I'm confused, I'm upset and depressed all at the same time. I feel used. You don't have a damn clue how much I feel. You don't even give a damn about how I feel. Having words you can't utter even though you really want to but you just can't describe how you feel. I don't know what to do.

This isn't love.

Oishii Fiv5

2012-02-07T21:49:00.001+08:00

I remember when I was still schooling (not that I've stop schooling but I mean when I was still in secondary school), my friends and I would always look out for new places to chill out after school. AND I AM PRETTY SURE, YOU GUYS WOULD TOO!!!!

Well, I am here to introduce this place to all you people out there!!!!!!!
*screams*

If you are looking for places to hang out after school, this is definitely the place to go!!

Blk 630 Bukit batok Central #01-154, Singapore

It is located right opposite Pastamania at westmall, along the shops where Frolick is.

And if you're my friend, you would probably know that I, Chuang Charman am really really picky with food. If I don't like it the first time I try it, I WILL NEVER EVER GO BACK THERE.

What I like about Oishii Five is that they serve their food fresh!!!! Especially their salmon!!

They have set menus with different varieties and it's really affordable!!

You can actually get a set meal and a sashimi around the price of a pastamania full meal!!!!

SASHIMI AT THAT KINDA PRICE?!?!?!

WHERE TO GET??????????????????!!?!?

EXACTLY!! No where but Oishii five!

Anyway, another must try is their ramen.

It's really good and it's not soggy even after being left in the soup for a long time.

Enough about food.

Let me talk about the environment there!

What I really like about the shop is that they really have a very good concept!

They have a projector screen which they use to play movies there.

You pay for food but get to watch movies for free?!?!? This is already a more than good enough reason for you to go there!!

Not only that, they also have a place for you to "show case" your talents. HAHAH!

Here are some reviews given by people who went over to Oishii Five

http://ureka.com.sg/index.php?option=com_content&view=article&catid=86:restaurant&id=152:oishii-five&Itemid=66

TOMORROW IS WEDNESDAY!! A SCHOOL DAY!!
Don't forget to check out Oishii Five alright!! :)

Like them on facebook!
Or Add them as friend to get the latest updates on their new food or promotions!

Don't forget to visit alright!!

SHE WAS BREAKING, BUT SHE HELD ON TIGHT. THAT’S HOW MUCH SHE THINKS OF YOU, NO MATTER HOW MUCH SHE’S BREAKING, NO MATTER HOW MUCH PAIN YOU’RE CAUSING HER, SHE’LL ALWAYS FIND SOMETHING GOOD ABOUT YOU. THAT’S HOW MUCH YOU MATTER TO HER.

2012-02-04T16:09:00.001+08:00

2012-02-04T00:56:00.000+08:00

Today my sales only 40

nvm

get scolded by class committee.

nvm

my life more fucked leh

12:52am

then smurf come and tell me our conver damn rubbish

WAIT FOR IT

i was sad and he told me his cousin died.

nvm

i sat at the interchange and was about to cry and an auntie burped in my face

nvm

i started crying and she told me to move away

wtf?!? nvm

worst of all, i realized i "fell in love" with a gay.

Finaly, I've gotten my blackberry

2012-02-03T02:00:00.001+08:00

Ask me why I got a blackberry and I'll tell you it's because I'm a hardcore BB fan.

I've gotten 2 covers for it even before getting the phone. Now that I've finally gotten it, I feel sooooooooooo good. Like I'm finally rewarded after a long wait.

Do not forget,

Patience is virtue

But more than just wanting a BB because it looks nice, I have some other reasons for it. People who follow me on Twitter can tell I actually ALMOST, had a change of heart and thought about getting an iPhone instead (not really counted though, it was just a mere thought)

Why not get an iPhone instead? After all, blackberry has so little apps and is kinda well known for its' lag.

I can't deny that iPhone is indeed a really good phone. But I didn't want any touch screen keypad because I have this "big thumb" habit. My friends would know, I shall not elaborate.

More than that, I really felt iPhone has lost its cool?

It used to be "up there" like a blackberry. But everywhere you go now, you see people using iPhones. Even aunties have iPhone now. Just today after getting my bb, Evan and I spotted a grandma using an iPhone -.-

Honestly, the goods of having an iPhone are undeniable but the "popularity" of it isn't something that can be denied now. iPhone is now, just like any other Nokia or Samsung phone, a phone. -No longer holding it's "prestigious" value.

Just take a look at this article.

http://www.washingtonpost.com/business/technology/has-the-iphone-lost-its-cool/2011/09/13/gIQAvWBHQK_story.html

Something like this was also being brought up on the news recently. Couldn't find it on the net though.

Anyways, I'm so glad I've finally gotten my bb. Not the model I wanted though, I wanted a older model so that I would be able to put my covers into good use.

Nice covers wasted just like that ):

Still, I'm thankful that my parents have gotten bb for me. Plus the fact that my mum decided to pay for an additional data plan for bb as I was unable to upgrade to a bb plan cause my plan hasn't ended yet.

^^

Note: This is just my thought. You might not agree with me but as I said, MY thought. No insults or whatsoever intended.

Updates: CNY, BBQ @ Tim's, Steamboat @ Yanting's, work

2012-02-03T01:28:00.000+08:00

Some updates from last week?

So I had "Open house" on both Saturday and Sunday of last week.
Saturday was for my relatives and then, Sunday was for my neighbours.

And if you were wondering wth do I only have 2 stupid photos of food instead of the gathering at my place, it's because I was only at home for awhile and headed out for both the 2 days.

On Saturday, due to extreme boredom and losing of money thanks to blackjack, I decided to head down to Fajar to visit the poor boy who was alone doing his drawings at home. HAHAHA.

Need I mention who he is? HAHAH. So I met Zhiying at Fajar mac, thank God I met him or I don't think he'll even have his dinner? Accompanied him while he did his drawings then walked around Fajar "shopping centre" for awhile (it happened so because I wanted to take a look at what was upstairs. LOL)

And thank God he was with me, he actually saved my life. (NO JOKE!) I was going down the stairs and I (almost) fell again. Yes, again. So glad he had his so called "tiger instincts" -_- and grabbed me before I fell. It was brick stairs ok! Worse than the one at Suntec. If I fall this time, confirm dieeeeeeeeeeeeee.

Headed to lot after that to deposit my check and we coincidentally met Jone Lum, Wenjie and Jess!!
I met Hester that night as well!! ^^

On to Saturday, I went for service, ON MY OWN. Good thing that I'm now in a cg or I'll be sitting alone.
Home thereafter for lunch, entertained the guests at my place a little and changed out to meet Aiksoon and Theo @ West mall to buy presents for John Teoh!!

The BBQ was initially supposed to be celebrating John Teoh's birthday but well, nothing goes right when with the guys. A birthday celebration became just a gathering.... and a pretty terrible night for me later because some assholes decided to start talking about ghosts.

Yeah, and I must thank sweetheart for actually wanting to send me home and Zhiying especially, for really coming down to send me home.

Though I wasn't really scared already but I can't say no or he will scold.

And this week!!

I've been working at level 3, FEP instead of Level 4!

For me, working at INC was sooooooooo boring. Because it was a closed shop, I actually didn't talk to any of my neighbouring shops except for the Lok Lok Yong Tau Foo cause I ate a lot. LOL

Not only was it boring, it was like some freaking North Pole or something. IT WAS SO DAMN EFFING COLD!!!!

I was feeling bored and cold at the same time and as usual, Charman who cannot take boredom, fell asleep several times :/

The only thing that I liked about that shop was that it's actually bigger than The Only Place at level 4 and that there were many seats. Nothing else.
It was hell of a boring time for me because I had no one to talk to. Well, except for myself?

So for the first day at INC, I knocked off at 6PM and headed down to Yanting's place for steamboat!!

Sorry, no photos of steamboat.

Had work again the next day till 9PM
then on the following day which was Wednesday (just 2 days ago) of this week.

Thanks for the cupcakes ^^

met Karhoe on that day as well!! :D

Dickson came over to the shop to find me and waited till my work ended and we walked around Orchard for awhile before deciding to head back home. (I didn't though)

Went to find Zhiying and Alfred at Lot 1 and slacked till 11pm before heading home.

Throughout our whole meeting, both the guys were actually nagging at me telling me that I have to grow up and be mature and all. LOL. Awkwarddddddddd.

But anyway, I really really appreciated it :)

Can't wait for work tomorrow (not so) but still, so glad I'll be back working at Level 4 instead! I'll have Brian, Mika and Ben to talk to!! Smaller shop to take care of and less boring time to get through!! YAY!

Are you sad you can't get into NP? After all, you've been mixing ard there since Sec 2 I am sure you already feel like you are part of it

2012-02-01T00:06:00.001+08:00

Finally someone gets how I am feeling. But I'm not sad? I've got no rights to be sad. It's not like I've worked hard for it. I just don't feel excited. I guess I'll work my way into NP? Something I wanna accomplish.

SAY WHATTTTTTT?

I hope you know

2012-01-28T15:25:00.006+08:00

I don't know you.
And I don't want to.
But I have something I'd like to say.
I hope you took a five-minute break from playing call of duty today just to tell her how much you love her.
I hope you picked up the least rotten flowers at the gas station that you work at just to surprise her for a change.
I hope that when she pours her heart out to you you're not just nodding your head and saying uhhuh.
I hope that you're everything I couldn't be.
I hope you see that even stumbling she has more grace and elegance than a boy like you could ever hope to comprehend.
I hope you treat her right.
I hope you know that she's always loved it when you bite her bottom lip.
The stupid say a girl is made in her hips but the truth is in her eyes.
I hope you know they're green.
I hope you know that she's not a morning person, drinks her coffee black, speaks art like her first language and took sailing lessons just to see the other two-thirds of the world.
She robbed every bar in the city with just her smile.
I don't claim to be an expert.
But I'd be a fool not to know that she squeezes her toothpaste from the bottom because she's always planning ahead.
She doesn't smoke or drink because she'd rather read in bed.
And I'd give anything if I could just be her man instead.
I hope you know that.
I hope you know that her favorite color is white.
She's captivated by firework light.
And you will nerve have an unnecessary fight because she
She is as patient as a flower in winter.
And when she springs
I hope you're ready.
Because she can set your soul on fire with just a touch.
Now this may be a bit much for you to manage.
But I guess those are the struggles of having the personality of a cabbage.
So let me break it down for you.
I thought I was having a heart attack the day I first saw her.
My heart was as rhythmic as a child banging on pots and pans.
Because she
She is dynamic.
Love at first sight is an understatement.
No, to me
She is all five senses.
Ground and blended, she is more potent than the most copious amounts of caffeine.
She will keep me up for days.
And I spend those nights thinking about how she came into my life, took my hand, drew me close and whispered something in my ear that I'll never forget.
She said
I love you.
I love you for the words you give me the strength to say and
The songs you give me the audacity to play.
I love you for the way you send my heart aflutter.
The way that no other can possibly make me feel because you
You make me want to dance.
And so I took that chance.
I leapt in as uncertain as I was about my dreams.
Only knowing that this
This was real.
So when I tell you that I hope you know what you're doing
I sincerely mean it.
Because I hope you know that if you play with her heart
You'll lose her.
I hope you know
Because I wish
I wish that I had.

by Chris King Wong (X)

Updates: Work, CNY, Steamboat @ Stanley's

2012-01-27T10:43:00.000+08:00

First thing first,
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERIIIIIIIIIIIIIIBORDIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!

So last Sunday, I was called back to work urgently because Chloe texted me telling me that she wasn't feeling well and wanted to go home and rest.
As usual, me being nice *fakes proud look* decided to go back to work even though it was my off day so that she could rest.
BUT
NOOOOOOOOOO. I reached the shop and she decided to INC to slack instead.

Thankfully, Sweetheart came to the shop to accompany me ^^
Keith was really sweet! He came from Ion, bought milk tea for me and sent it to me!! Thanks for the treat and coming all the way down!

Waited for me to end work and we went for dinner at Mac. I was having really really bad gastric for having dinner late and couldn't really eat anything. Slacked at Mac for awhile. -By "slacking" I meant I was watching both of them play their stupid iPhone game.

Stupid iPhone users. SO RUDE!!!!! >:@

Trained home after that and was talking to Keith about how he's remembered by my classmates cause he wanted to punch Stanley (or he did).

Next up, Chinese New Year!!
I didn't buy any new clothes for CNY this year so I decided to wear this maxi dress which I bought like 2 years ago but didn't wear at all.

OH BTW, HOW DO YOU GUYS FIND MY NEW HAIR COLOUR?????? :D

My cousin baked this cake on her own! She's in sec2 this year and can already bake a cake on her own! I feel like such a failure ):

And as usual, we can't do without tang yuans at my grandma house every CNY

And her so called "fa chai" noodles which is really gooooooooooood.

Can never miss this chocolates at my 4th stop. NEVER. I'll eat them every year.
I'm really not much of a person who likes CNY goodies. Normal food > CNY goodies any time.

Like every year, my last stop would be at my grandparents house from my paternal side. This year, no one really gambled and I was upstairs with all my female cousins and aunts chatting about anything and everything. Then my aunt started a topic about some slut and said people with thick lips can do better blowjobs. lol. true no??

2nd day of CNY

Added a new stop in this year! Which is at Jurong with the church mates (not from my cell).

Another thing I must have every year. This idk what teo chew noodles.

My CNY is pretty much the same every year.
First day of CNY was to visit all my relatives and 2nd day of CNY my friends and I visited our grandparents.

And I'm not sure if I'm the only one feeling this way? But I realized the atmosphere for all festive seasons is beginning to fade :/
In the season of giving, people rarely give. In the season of celebrating, people don't really celebrate :/

But anyway! HOW MUCH HAVE YOU COLLECTED????? :D

So I met up with Theo just this week on Wednesday.
Went to town for some shopping which I ended up only buying a dress -Which I like a lotttttt.

Headed back to CCK and met up with the guy gang + Clarence, Fiona and Shushia.

And me LRT-ed to fajar, Stanley's place for steamboat and some blackjack!

Stupid Issac playing the guitar while some of us were having our dinner. LOL

And the rest were.... just gambling outside waiting for us to get out of the kitchen after eating so that they could eat.

And stupid Ding en playing a guitar singing some stupid guailan song he created -.-

And my lucky star!

Gambler Chuang doing her thing.

Sorry for poor resolutions! I think I'm really in need of a new cam. Someone? Anyone???????

HAHAHA. So I went down to Clarke Quay yesterday for my last modelling session.
Then I rushed down to Swiss to meet Evan and went to her house.
Headed over to Sheena's place then after and met KBG's members (excluding Mr Samuel Lim and Nicholas) plus Kuozun.

I think Sheena's family is secretly rich man. Her dad arranged for 3 lion dance troupes to come!?!?
And as usual, Charman was hiding in the room when the lion dance came.

This weekend is gonna be pretty jam packed for me.
Have open house tomorrow (Sorry friends! For not inviting. My bros and I rarely invite people over.) then BBQ at Tim's place to celebrate John Teoh's birthday on Sunday.
Excited!!

^^
TIME FOR WORK. BYEBEYBEYEBEYB

Here's wishing all of you,

2012-01-22T22:21:00.001+08:00

GONG HEI FATT CHOY!!!!!

WISHING YOU PEOPLE HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR! WISH YOU GOOD HEALTH, GOOD LUCK, GOOD RESULTS AND MORE ANG BAOS!

This time, I'll finish.

2012-01-22T01:17:00.002+08:00

Decided to blog about what I want to achieve by this year. So here it is:

1) Clean up/Refurnish my room.
My room has been really messy. And I meant REALLY. What's more, I only tidy it up like once a year? Sometimes even once every two years. LOL. Yeah, I know. I'm a dirty person, now you know. HAHAH. When my friends came over to my place, they couldn't take it and told me to clean up my room. Plus I've been wanting to refurnish it and change my wardrobe because I've got 3 wardrobes in my room and I really think it's taking up spaces. Can't wait to clean it up hopefully everything will be done by the end of Feb!! Cleaning up my room will also play a huge role in helping me to learn to organise my life better.

2) Earn my first K!
We all know the importance of money and I guess getting into a poly also means the need for new clothes. Because I no longer have a uniform to put on #sadfact. OH, if you people didn't know, I'd really love my school uniform. Not only clothes, I want new bags, more shoes and the list goes on! Plus I really want to buy something for my mum and dad. Money is really important mannnnnn. With this, I hope I am able to change my "3 minutes on fire" attitude and learn to commit to things I've started and see it through.

3) Pray every night.
Here's where I get a little more spiritual. For those who do not believe in God, bear with me for a while yeah. But really, I can't tell you guys how much he has given to me. You can say "yeah yeah. the Christian mindset of thinking everything they get is from God" But no! You can ask my friends, I'm always very lucky and there's just too many times that I got lucky to be true. It's just too much of a coincidence. I must admit I'm not a really good Christian here. I use harsh words, I act like a bitch to certain people, I don't read the bible and the list goes on. So this year, I think I wanna take a step closer just by the simple step of praying every night :) I wanna learn to trust. It's been really hard for me since young because of the environment I grew up in. I have never really trusted anyone and I guess that's why most of my relationships tend to fail. I really want to learn how to trust in people so I guess, I'll start trusting in God.

4) Exercise
I haven't been running since the day school decided to stop ET lessons for the sec5s. I was really upset about it because that's the only time I exercise. Now that I'm officially out of Swiss, I can't count on them anymore and I just have to rely on myself. I need to keep fit and I need to make sure my heart continues to function properly in order for me to continue to be Charman -the cheerful, bubbly and hyperactive girl who's always jumping and running around. I need to learn to be disciplined.

5) Work hard.
Don't be surprised. Yes, you didn't see it wrongly. I'm saying I'll work hard this year. I really wasted my 5 years of education in Swiss. You know the feeling you get when you see your results and you go like "I can actually do better if........" And I was whining to Zhiying saying all the "IF I............" and he said "If if if. Everyone also if. If I work hard I also can. IF what" I don't want to carry on my life like that. So from this year, I'm gonne put my 101%. And really work hard at changing myself and my attitude towards things I do. I really need to learn to give my all. And learn to commit to stuffs I do and see it through. I really abhor my "3 mins on fire" kinda attitude and it's time I tackle it. I wanna work hard and achieve my 3 goals (not mentioning what) by this year. Basically, just improve myself.

These are the little things in life which actually makes a huge difference.

I'm turning 18 this year and it's time I really make some changes to my life. Major changes starts with little steps. Can't waste my life any further.
"The first step towards getting somewhere is to decide that you are not going to stay where you are."

"You have brains in your head. You have feet in your shoes. You can steer yourself any direction you choose.
You’re on your own. And you know what you know. And YOU are the one who’ll decide where to go…"
Dr. Seuss

I need to live my life.

Resolutions

2012-01-18T11:38:00.001+08:00

I have never in my life set resolutions before because I didn't see any purpose in setting some goals to reach (Make sense right). -After all, by setting it doesn't mean we will do anything to accomplish it.

But this year, I decided to try it out.

I only realized 2 months before O levels (which was last year), the importance of having goals.

I think having some kinda goals you wanna reach is really important. TRUST ME ON THAT.

Even for the most basic thing like putting your goals down is already an important step.

By doing that, it at least shows you that you have something you wanna do in life, that you wanna accomplish and yeah, you're not actually being useless.
*(Whether you do it or not is another question. At least it just proves that you have things you wanna do in life)

I don't know about you guys but this little step tells me something pretty big.

That I am actually living my life.

Looking back at how I spent 17th years of my life, 5 years of my life in Swiss without any aim, I feel really dead. It's like I'm actually alive but not living.

I really didn't have any goals AT ALL. I was only going through the cycle of life, aimlessly.

Benefits from it? -I didn't have to go through the disappointments of not reaching my goals I guess. Since there was nothing to reach anyway. So whatever results I get etc I really felt happy. Like "OH! I just passed? OK LAH! NOT BAD!! ^^"

And my reaction to my grades was always "我没有 fail 到很惨, 我还好而已!"
http://chharmanchh.blogspot.com/2009/10/penutbutterbiscuits.html

Which actually isn't "hai hao" only -_-
IS F9 FOR EVERYTHING EXCEPT ENGLISH "HAIHAO" ONLY?!?!?!?!?!?!
(Lol. Realized I was really retarded and funny)

2 months before O levels, I had a few things I wanna achieve. I finally worked hard towards something in my life. I wanted to pass science because I used to love science A LOT. Really A LOT. (I can prove it to you by showing you my report book! My teachers always say that I am attentive during science). And I also wanted to get into my dream course.

Well, when I received my results, I felt really happy yet sad at the same time. Happy because I've gotten from F9 to B4 for my sciences just by working real hard for 2 weeks. But sad because I couldn't get into the course I wanted. My result was basically crap. As usual, I wasn't upset about my results. "HAI HAO ER YI!!" I was just disappointed I couldn't achieve one of my goals.

There was really this ache in my heart. Sad but at least I felt alive for once. Like I am finally living for something.

Then again, setting goals is one thing. Accomplishing it is another.

By setting goals. Just that little action, you've actually taken a major big step out.
What's next is the accomplishing part. Which is a little more difficult.

But I guess if it's something we really want to achieve we will try?

So this year, I shall try.

No, there is no "try". I shall do.

"It isn’t what you did in the past that will affect the present. It’s what you do in the present that will redeem the past and thereby change the future."

Paulo Coelho

VHATTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT?

2012-01-16T01:32:00.000+08:00

Me: Getting uglier and uglier each day ):
Shawn: Cuz never make out
Me: no boyf wut
Shawn: that's when good friends like me come into place :)

Updates: X'mas, O level results, JAE, Work

2012-01-14T11:13:00.000+08:00

Hey guys!!

Sorry I kinda abandoned this blog again.
I was really caught up with many things and was really lazy to bring my camera out. (Getting pretty sick of my camera. Buy me a new one? HAHAH!)

Here's what I've been up to lately!
Except for all the dumb stuffs, I've been spending my time out with Lynn and co., planning Shushia's surprise party and working!

Let's go back to December last year. LOL

After coming back to Sg from my vacation on cruise, I met up with Shushia to collect my pay and went for some shopping.

YAY! MONEYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY $.$

But as usual, give me money and I'll spend it all in a day.

I was taking the photo of the pay I've received and Shushia was like "this is the start. later end already you take one more and show your readers... Or now you can also take already. Just take one shot without money."

But true enough, I spent most of it and was only left with a hundred bucks which I later also used up to pay for Shushia's birthday present when I met Theo and Fiona a few days later.

Had pontian again...................................................
WHY IS IT THAT WE'RE ALWAYS HAVING PONTIAN WHEN WE GO TO CINE?!?!??!

Separated after shopping while I went to church for Christmas service with my family then headed to Cycle and Carriage for our yearly X'mas celebration with relatives from my dad's side.

This year, my aunt decided to book another level because we were pretty sick of karaoke and pool every year.

So I met up with Fiona and Theo because Fiona said that she has got something for me given by a secret someone.

I was really surprised when I received it. I never expected it to be from........ SMURF!!
LOL. Thank you!!

Met Theo on some other day in Swiss and we headed to JP to meet Shushia after that.

And on the following Sunday, church again! Celebrated New Year

Went to NP's open house with Aiksoon and Enze.

and met Theo and the rest of the band members on the same day for lunch!

And this.... THANK YOU FOR THE CHARLIE BROWN!! :D

Went for service again!! And rushed off immediately after that because I was on a mission to carry out plans for Shushia's birthday.

Will blog about her birthday on a separate day. Most prob when I get a new laptop because my current laptop has got an error and I can no longer do vids ):

Just this Monday, results day!

Then headed to work on Tuesday!
Oh! If you're not following my twitter, I'm currently working at FEP!! Pretty boring job but fun at the same time. Contradicting I know.

And on the first day, Fiona and Shushia were being such a sweetheart. They saw my tweets about me craving for crispy pancake and decided to buy Ding tea and Crispy pancake and drop by my shop! HEHHE. HAPPY MAX! I feel so loved!

And the second day at work, Chloe wasn't around and Emaral came up to help out!
She's a reallllllllllllll good sales girl.

Basically, what I did on my second day at work was to eat and eat and eat and eat.
lol. I felt really accomplished because I made my first order.

DMHK!!!

Fosters to celebrate daddy's birthday on Thursday

And this basically sums up what I've been up to!

Gotta have to rush off now! I'm gonna be late for work!!

Gone.

2012-01-06T17:07:00.000+08:00

I spent days and nights thinking of how to start this post, how am I going to say this to you but last night, I realized that it doesn't matter any more.

I can say all I want, put them nicely into paragraphs and pour my heart out to you and you still wouldn't care.

You put me through emotional journeys and you were not even preparing to be there for me.

I look at my past posts about you and I feel so stupid. Me? Changing to be a better girlf for a guy? Something I said I'll never do but I actually did.

You broke my heart again and again and came back telling me you're sorry and you didn't mean to hurt me.

But it's ok. I didn't mean to fall in love with you either.

Guess we all make mistakes.

So this is it? I regretted not listening to my friends when they kept telling me "Charman, don't go back." After working so hard to put up all the walls you tore them down again. Back to square one. Back to working on being happy again. Not you to blame, it was my fault anyway. To think that I was strong enough to pull through being friends with you.

It was just a mistake I made. For letting you inside. I gave you my heart, I let you destroy who I was and take every little thing I had. I never should have let you get so close.

I should have kept my heart locked and just continued being friends with you. I should have just stayed as dummy to you and I should have never dared you to come down to find me, if I hadn't done that, you wouldn't move me like you do, and I wouldn't have loved you like I did. And my heart wouldn't have gotten as broken as it is.

I’m just not that strong. I love it when you’re here, but I’m better when you’re gone. What's more, you're a different person now.

2012-01-06T15:46:00.002+08:00

Back in 2010..
Zhengyong: "Those who annoy you the most are the ones who loves you"

2012-01-06T15:26:00.002+08:00

Pretty short week

2012-01-06T00:14:00.000+08:00

Woke up early this morning and went down to Clarke Quay to model for this examination thing for the beauticians. Though I wasn't paid, I've gotten free waxing treatment, facial, massage, make up and pedi/mani treatment.

Was my fast time doing facial, massage, pedi and madi and it was boring as helllllllllllllllllllllll.
WHY SO MANY GIRL LIKE TO DO ALL THESE HUH?!?!
Nevertheless, it was a pretty good experience and man, I'll never say no to doing waxing and I got it for free! YAY!! AHHAHA.

Chleo's aunt was really really nice. HAHAH. She kept praising me my height, my features and all. I'll never get enough of praises ^^ hehe. So both Irene (her aunt) and Jasmine treated us to lunch at this hainan chicken rice :)

Made our way home after that.

In a blink of an eye, it's Friday already!
The first week of the year! My schedule is pretty packed during the weekends and I'm collecting my results on Monday.

Time really flies man.
Good night!

All grown up

2012-01-03T07:00:00.001+08:00

Morning world.

Pretty surprising to see me up this early huh. After all, I've been waking up only at 12pm or later during the holidays (which is most probably until I get into a poly, hopefully!)

Today's the first day of school. And I guess my body clock has already been conditioned to wake up at 5.45am for school since 5 years ago, it didn't know that I no longer have to attend school and thus, woke me up.
So I decided to be a good blogger and do some updating since I can't get back to sleep.

5 years have flew past so quickly, now that I'm out of school, I really miss it.
Not that I wanted to be out of school when I was still attending though. I always knew I would miss school.

I guess this is all part and puzzle of growing up? That we have to let go and just move on with life.
"Cherish you time" this statement is really crap because you'll still miss it even if you cherish your time.

ARGH! I really miss going to school, being in school uniform, assembling in the hall by 0720, school, singing the national anthem (not like I always sing it though), going for PE and so much more.

And the only last time I'll really be required to be in my school uniform is like next week on results day? FML.

Speaking of which, that was the reason why I couldn't get to sleep and was spamming twitter all of last night.

Unlike the past, this time, I'm really really afraid of the results :/
But most of the time when I say that, no one usually seem like they care and give me that "since when are you care about your results man -.-" response.
BUT FUCK THAT, I REALLY AM!

I shall not elaborate more and just bury the fear I have for the moment till results day :X

Back to school. Yeah, I was lookiing though my screenshots and I found this. Which was taken last year after CNY.

I miss everything about school......

And just look at my classmates -.-
(this was just last night btw)

Ah, you guys get my point. I miss school.

I think the only way to get me back to sleep now is for me to go to school? It's what I always do.

Wake up early for school, go for morning assembly and fall asleep when I return to class.

They're most probably going to the hall for assembly now. And I should most probably try and get back to sleep eh? Which apparently is pretty impossible cause I'm wide awake now.

Guess I just have to move on in life. After all, this is growing up.
And growing up sure sucks.

2011

2011-12-31T23:32:00.006+08:00

Summing up my year in 2011, I have to say it was a pretty good one.
I made up with friends whom I once detest (not really, I just quarrelled with them) and I also went through a pretty major exam.

Life was pretty good, this is what I've conclude but I have to move on with life for my own good.
So before this year ends as I welcome 2012, here's a few things which I would like to share with you.

So yeap, I started a new year, a new life in sec 5

I made up with Jieqi, Judy and Jessy at the start of the year,
http://chharmanchh.blogspot.com/2011/01/god-answers-prayer.html

This was the start to my great year in 2011. I was really so happy I made up with them. I still remember I was at Shakery with my girls and they came in and said they wanted to speak to me. I was like "what? what you want now. want come quarrel again is it" and the first thing they said was "sorry." I immediately cried after that. They form such a huge part of my life in Swiss. It wouldn't be complete if I leave Swiss not making up with them just like this.

And of course, I made up with Huimin after that, before the start of O levels. Well... kinda?

I also lived through the royal wedding of Prince William!
http://chharmanchh.blogspot.com/2011/04/royal-wedding.html

City Harvest Church also moved to Suntec Convention! :D

Swiss winds also got filmed during SYF and we appeared in tv! I was in it too!! On okto!
http://chharmanchh.blogspot.com/2011/04/updates-filming-study.html
And yeah, I participated in SYF with Swiss Winds for the 2nd time
http://chharmanchh.blogspot.com/2011/04/to-some-of-adjudicators-out-there-suck.html

I also lived through another election in my life! This is the 2nd in my life.
http://chharmanchh.blogspot.com/2011/05/elections.html

Went to Mdm's Hafiza's wedding. First teacher's wedding I ever went to.
http://chharmanchh.blogspot.com/2011/06/rather-long-weekend.html

I went to get a tattoo
http://chharmanchh.blogspot.com/2011/06/ink-on-my-arms.html

nah, I was just joking.

Had my 17th birthday
http://chharmanchh.blogspot.com/2011/07/17th-birthday.html

My parents got me a pair of Dr. Martens
http://chharmanchh.blogspot.com/2011/08/goody-new-shoes.html

And my mum just promised me another one! :D

And I've also gotten a B3 for my O level MT. Which was actually a miracle to my teachers?
All thanks to GOD!
http://chharmanchh.blogspot.com/2011/08/i-got-b3-for-o-level-mt.html

I went through a major exam, O levels.
http://chharmanchh.blogspot.com/2011/11/grad-night.html

I made up with Cynthia!! :)

Joined a cell group, n488

I went for grad night and kinda graduated from Swiss. (not official yet until the day I've gotten my O level results!!)
http://chharmanchh.blogspot.com/2011/11/grad-night.html

And I made up with Denise (bombyourface).
YESSSSS, Shocking and surprising I know.

I had my first steamboat out with friends (yes, at 17 years old I know)
http://chharmanchh.blogspot.com/2011/12/my-first-steamboat-out-with-friends.html

And went on my first cruise trip!
http://chharmanchh.blogspot.com/2011/12/costa-classica.html

My life in 2011 probably would go so great without the people around me.
From my friends to my classmates, my bandmates and my school mates.

These people really helped me through my year. Very much thanks to them, I kinda found my happy self back, I cried wayyyyyyyyyy lesser than last year and than in 2009.

You people made my year so wonderful, I couldn't have made it though so happily without you guys.

TCSFY

Well, I'm not surprised that we're still together. We quarrel most of the time, everywhere and anywhere even in front of other friends. HAHAH. What can I say? It's funny whenever we quarrel esp with other friends in front of us, freaking them out like we're gonna just stop being friends any minute but know in our hearts it'll be over just in a moment. I must say, I would be more surprise if we aren't together anymore because it'll mean that we'll still childish and lameass immatured girls.

You girls were there to remind me to study, and also encouraged me whenever I wanna give up. I really had fun with you girls. And I really love the KBOX session we have so far. HAHAH! Up for another one?

eh, no need feature one by one. You girls know how much you mean to me.

5Ns

Hey awesome group of people here! HAHAHA! We've finally gotten through the 5 years!! And I know we'll surely miss each other. We're the most united 5N batch ever and we've gotten through soooo much together. We grew so close and were even almost inseperatable every morning during assembly. I will never, ever forget the fun moments we had together. And we're gonna do our favourite thing, which is reminiscing our life in Swiss during our chalet stay!

You guys really made my journey towards O level so much easier :)

Swiss Winds

No need for telling, you people out there should know you people do mean a lot to me. I really love you guys. You juniors are so awesome and thanks for helping me out with mathematics cause I really suck at it (except for the laughing part there).

Batchmates

I also wouldn't make it through this year being such a positive person without my batchmates. Thanks for coming back to Swiss to visit once in awhile and cheering on us, the sec5s.
People like Pesdy, Wanting, Cheekiat and many more. I really hope you guys are enjoying your time out there and please, don't forget Swiss and we'll meet back in school once in a while :)

Jingyin and Zhengyuan

This year has been a pretty hectic year for me and though we rarely contact each other, I'm still glad both of you are here for me. Well basically, you can see you up on my blog post because I'm here to tell you, you guys are still very important to me! Though you guys didn't contribute much to my life in 2011, by knowing I still have you guys was already a pretty huge comfort to me whenever I feel down and wanna give up.

Babe, you never gave up on me, you took time out to help me brush up on my chem. Basically, this year, you were the main person why I really decided to really study. (though I kinda failed at it) but hey, I finally completed a chem paper for the first time in my life. Sadly, the first one was also the last one, during O levels. HAHAH! Whatever it is, thank you!!

2 of you girls are one of the closest friends I had this year. You girls should probably know how much I love you. Stupid blacksheep for always telling me lies and laughing at me whenever I got shocked by Mr Hoon's voice and woke up by surprise. You made me love my seating arrangement in class so much!! Sorry for making you feel sleepy whenever I sleep in class though. HAHA. Didn't know I was so influential :P

And Ajoya! You really made a real big difference in my life. To think I would actually be so close to you when you didn't really like me for being so hyper active and noisy back in sec2. HAHA! I love talking to you so much! Thanks for taking care of me and protecting me when I'm in fights with people :)

Can I call you faithful friend again? HAHA. It's been long since I've done that. Well, look here. From the guy with only a few friends (like lingyu) and with low self esteem becoming a charming guy which so many girls who don't mind chasing you after. I think you're one of the best guy I've ever met in Swiss. Thanks for being such a sweetie, coming down to my house to give me a surprise on my birthday, cheering me up when you know I broke down during english O levels rthat day and so many to name. You're really one of the most faithful friend.

Hey babe. Sadly I only know you the start of this year thanks to Cassa but you've been a really good friend I must say. A true one. I'll miss your loud voice and you shouting my name so loudly whenever you see me in school. Have I told you that every time you did that it makes my day? Though you kinda embarrassed me -.- but really, thanks for making me feel wanted. And I really like how much we can talk whenever we see each other around. It's like we're not really that close at all and yet we're able to talk about so many things and all. HAHAH. Love you babe. I still remember you saving up for me and texting me saying you've saved up enough to lend me money for the heels I wanted to buy. Though I didn't borrow it from you, this little action of yours I will always remember. love you girl!

I'm so glad that you are still concern about me though we've moved on in life. You're one of the greatest senior I've ever met and I will never forget you. I'm glad you didn't forget me too!! See you on results day! Don't scold me if I disappoint you!!

AHAHAHAH! JOSH!!!!!!!!!!!! OH MY GOSH! I'm so glad we're still close. So glad you're still with me even though Zhengyong and Zhiming have moved on with their lives. Thanks for those random textes and thanks for always being so hilarious! I AM SERIOUSLY THANKFUL THAT YOU'RE STILL WITH ME EVEN THOUGH YOU'RE IN JC! We'll meet up soon, have pastamania and pespire like crazy again!!

Ah, you've moved on with life and there's nothing much I can say but really, I miss how close we were and how you, Josh and Zhiming will always be there to joke with me. Whenever I meet up with Josh, Evan or go back to the band, you're always being mentioned to me and yeap, I definitely hope you're having a great time in ACJC. I know and I've heard stories to know that you are :)

And yeah, here's something you've done to me last year so, back to you! The exact same message
"Zhengyong! Happy new year. Thanks for everything you ever did for me. Which is nothing :D"

So glad we found some time to catch up just a few weeks ago. I definitely hope you're doing well. Please do away with your busy schedule and make some time to come back to visit your juniors and also meet up with our batch. Cheng Zhi Ming! I got your name correctly this time unlike last year. I thank you for not forgetting me and also, not forgetting to make me feel guilty about forgetting your guitar on our last performance during affirmation last year! HAHAH! Have a great year ahead!

EVAN!!!!!!!! You're basically one of the best gift I ever got since I entered Swiss Winds and still one of the best gift I've gotten in 2011. I'm so glad we're still able to talk non stop whenever we meet up. Our endless topics to talk about and all. You should know how important you are to me and yes! See you back Ms Tan back on results day! And are we, you and I gonna help to clean up the library with our librarians together? HAHAH

Your random text, your reminders to ask me to work hard, your kiss on my finger cause I got a cut and your concern given to me since the they I've met you in 2009. Thank you so much John. You're a really great guy :) Be less vulgar when I meet you next time!!

Monster(!!) and Dings. I'm glad I've let both of you into my life in 2011. I didn't give you guys a chance to know me back in sec4 basically because I didn't like you chinese boys. I felt that you guys were really childish and annoying. But I guess I'm just as childish and as annoying as you guys are huh? So now I thank you for letting me into your circle of friends whom I've never thought I would ever talk to in my whole life spent in Swiss and thanks for spending so much of your time getting me to pass my chem. I've improved tremendously from knowing nothing (real 0% knowledge of chem) that actually shocked you guys to someone who could actually pass chem! I'm actually smart aren't I! HAHAH! but really, thanks for sacrificing your own study time for mine.

For you Chleo, I'm really glad you've helped me end my year well by making my day the other day and really, by taking a step to get to know me better and by allowing me to know you better.

Cute girl no.1! You this talkative girl! From the girl I didn't have a good impression of at the start because you're the first ever person to stare at me to this girl I love talking to so much. I remember talking to you on the phone for more than an hour earlier on this year. Man, that was my very first time talking to a girl (plus I wasn't really close to you) for more than an hour! And really, I don't even really talk on the phone with anyone at all except for leon?! HAHAH. Whatever it is, I'm really glad to have met you before I left the school.

HEY! You've got a photo of you, yourself! I will miss you singing and failing to throw pens into my shirt man. And I bet you'll miss me saying "ok" and nodding my head in response to you singing. HAHAH! I got to know you so much more and got to be a little closer to you this year. Well, nice to meet you sir. From some cool ice man, I've seen you change and become someone so retarded. yaya, you're being yourself. Ok, I know. Whatever it is, you've made a pretty huge impact in my life this year. I won't ever forget my first time having a buddy meal with an idiot like you. HAHA :)

BOO! So glad we're still as close as ever even though I've left you behind :P Thanks for always being there for me and also, taking care of me from time to time. EH, stop making new batch of friends every year leh! You lagging behind me already! Faster chase up lah uncle. Study hard, stop sleeping in class, I know it's hard but still.. Yeah. And stop trying to make new friends every year cause I'll always have more friends than you! HAHAH! :P

A few people I miss this year, Chingsoon and Zachary. I sure hope you guys have a great 2011 and a happy new year

And for the rest of you, sorry I can't mention all of you here! People like Sheena, Atiqah, Kenneth, Saiful, Leon, Dickson, Enze, Cheryl (Nic Young's girlf), Joey (yes babe, I'm glad I've come to know you in 2011) and all. I'm real glad to have you in 2011!

We shall look forward and receive the new year!
We'll move on to something greater :)

HAPPY NEW YEAR GUYS!!