MY FACEBOOK IS A WHORE

Right now, I'm feeling sick to the core.

It's been 1-2 years since I fell really sick (my immune system is pretty good frankly speaking) and I've got a feeling I'll be starting to be really sick if I do not take a good rest for the next few days.

I can't figure how and what got me sick though. But I'm pretty sure it has got to do with my dusty room (been cleaning up my room to put stuffs into my new wardrobe and I started coughing again because of the dusts), eating disgusting best fries which was deep fried in spoiled oil and also, shouting and screaming at the top of my lungs today. -Something which I haven't done in a really longgggggg time.

School was defiantly fun today. And I managed to laugh so much today. Especially when Matthew called me "Dajie" because of Sam. HAHAHA. Got me feeling real shy.

Then, Matthew was chatting with me on Facebook about school work and suddenly, my laptop got "raped" by my classmates with them, using my account to talk to Matthew. ESP SAM! HAHAH. And Matthew said something really funny after that. "WTF. Your Facebook like whore like that. Got used by everyone. Talk to 1 person machiam talk to whole class" No idea why but I found it really funny. HAHAHAH.

But it wasn't all fun cause now I have a massive sore throat which hurts damn bad. Still going back and fourth about making a decision of skipping school tomorrow.

I didn't even bother to do my RJ for today and touch on my drawing homework which is due tomorrow.

Whatever it is, I wanna sleep.

GOOD NIGHT!

HOT PINK SLIPPERS AND MOTIVATION

Looking at the amount of pictures I've taken of my hot pink cotton on slippers, it's not hard to guess that  it is my favorite slippers of all time.

I've been taking pictures of it whenever I go out and I honestly love it so so much. It's been with me for 2-3yrs now and even though I loved it, this pair of slippers were the main cause of the many times I fell. (Not that I don't fall even when I'm in other shoes. But still, most of the times I fell were when I was in this pair of slippers)

My slippers were already very used and dirty but I didn't mind it at all till the day my mum decided to take things into her own hands and threw my slippers out of the house thinking that I would be totally fine with it. My slippers became realllll dirty and gross (God knows what happened to it when it was left outside my house) and I finally decided to stop wearing it. (Mum's victory)

My mum never liked the fact that the slippers weren't made of rubber. Especially because it doesn't give a better friction than a rubber slippers and being me who doesn't seem to have very good balancing skills, I worry my parents esp my mum most of the time because the many times I fell, almost cost me my life. YES, MY LIFE.

NOT ONLY THAT, my mum doesn't own any slippers because she believes that slippers should only be worn to the beach and she stands firm that attire is always important and slippers should NEVER be part of an attire even if I'm just going to a neighborhood mall. (Whatever, heck it! I'm in Singapore)

This week, she finally decided to get me my slippers because I've been complaining the past 3 weeks that I do not have any slippers to put on and I would not leave home to my grandma's place, void decks, near by food courts till she gets me my slippers. 

She first got me Neckermann then decided to get me IPanemma just so I would be contented and not run back to get the hot pink slippers from Cotton On again.

My mum used to get my brothers and I birks and Neckermann when we were really young. And I remember how much I abhor putting it on because the edge of the slippers were so damn hard and when my feet touches the edge of the slippers, it hurts so much and I would always kick the slippers off my feet because I really disliked them so much,

No idea why she still got me for them this time round knowing that I really dislike them. Anyway, knowing that I would probably ditch the Neckermann slippers to get my Cotton On because I honestly would prefer flip flops more than Birks, Neckermann because I never liked them and also because I preferred flip flops where I can just use my two toes to "grip" the slippers, she decided to get me Ipanemma to make sure I was satisfied. Hell, they are the ugliest pair of slippers ever. Though I won't deny they have more friction, I don't like the color and rubber slippers are so damn heavy!?!?!? Mum said I'm just not used to it yet. So we'll see how it goes.

Couldn't she get Hiavannas for me instead. She's been asking me to ditch Cotton On for Hiavannas for such a long time because Hiavannas are obviously from a better quality but she didn't. URGHJKSFKH. PLUS, Hiavannas have more variety of colors!!!

Guess I'll just make do and see how things go.


Just on Saturday night I was chatting with Zy and got so motivated to start on building my portfolio! But I realized, somehow no matter how motivated I am, I wouldn't be able to pull through with actions when I'm faced with challenges.

I was so exited to start doing my portfolio and started researching on stuffs about PR and advertising and how the portfolios should look like. Didn't find anything so I gave up.

WHY AM I LIKE THAT!! WHY WHY WHY!! ):






I'm still not defeated yet. I just need time to figure things out.
BYE! :)


P/s. I honestly think the flip flops are too big for me and my mum got the wrong size. But she keeps insisting that I'm thinking too much!?!? THE FLIP FLOPS ARE SO HEAVY!! I now would rather be in Neckermann than flip flops!!

P/s/s. After finishing the above statement, I suddenly have an enlightenment that maybe she purposely bought be rubber flip flops and knew I wouldn't like them so I would ditch them for Neckermann which is the slippers she's been trying to get my brothers and I to put on since young. SOUNDS LEDGIT RIGHT!?!?

It’s scary how people leave scars on you; how certain people will never really vanish from the thoughts in your mind.

Heyloooooooo.
I've been really busy... (just realized my past few posts always start's with "I've been really busy" so I shall skip it) OK.

My Test 2 are finally coming to an end on Monday and 
I AM SO DAMN EXCITED
FOR
CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!!!!!
*throws confetti*

Can't wait to collect all my red packets and increase the digits in my new bank account.

I've been trying to save up my new bank account to go on a trip to bkk this March/April but it doesn't seem like it's happening anytime soon ):
Just this week I spent $70 to purchase a pair of shorts from Nastygal and also another $100 on food. I don't know what I've been eating lah! GOLD!!?!?!

Anyway, I surfing the net yesterday when I decided to visit some of my friend's blog which i haven't visited in a longgggg time (cause I forgot the url) and which got me to remember my wordpress.

There was this period of time when I got kinda sick of blogger and decided that I wanted to move to wordpress which I didn't in the end because there were too many limitations and I preferred blogger way more... I eventually ended up using that space to pour out my feelings in 2009 because I couldn't spill them all out here.

NO ONE knew about the wordpress except Clarence who I think had nothing to do and decided to type "chharmanchh" with different blog domains which lead him to find my wordpress. NOT ONLY THAT, HE MANAGED TO CRACK ONE OF THE PASSWORD AND VIEWED ONE OF MY POSTS.

Anyhowz,
I decided to go and take a look there and re read my posts. I must say ALL of them were quite silly and stupid. HAHAH. However, that doesn't take away the fact that I was really depressed at that point of time when I wrote those posts.
While I was re reading them, it sorta reminded me of how depressed I was and I think it's probably because I was too depressed that time that those post were so silly and didn't really make a lot of sense?!?!!?

Still, re reading that post made realized how happy I am now and that I would NEVER, NEVER EVER want to feel the same way again. I LITERALLY FELT LIKE SHIT. I FELT FOOLISH AND STUPID.  And never would I forget how I felt at the point of time and how shitty people made me feel.

Things may change but it still doesn't cancel out all that have happened in the past and how you would still be affected even for the slightest bit when you think about them again. And what we can do is just to carry those scars along with us for the rest of our lives, trying not to think about them and accepting the fact that it can never be removed. That doesn't mean we will be less happy though. I think we can all still be happy but just less perfect.

But since these were things from the past and as I mentioned, we should all accept our scars, I decided that my wordpress shouldn't be kept a secret anymore. Not as if I'm still using it anyway. And before you can even view the posts, you have to know the password for it and that's what I'm gonna do. I'm gonna tell you the password. NO I'M JUST JOKING.

I shall give hints on the password and people who are close to me would probably be able to guess it if they try hard enough. heheh.

There are 2 different password as the posts are about 2 different people. The people who hurt me the most in 2009 that was in sec 3 *hint hint*
Only one post is about friendship and it's the name of a person *hint hint*
And those on my feelings (okay lah actually all on my feelings but I just feel grossed out to say "love")
And those on my relationship would be a short form of a sentence.
The short form is kinda like a secret code (Not really secret though) But the letters are really easy to guess. *hintttt max*


OKAY, GO FIGURE HERE! :P
Tell me if you've successfully unlocked it okay!

IN REMEMBRANCE OF THE FIRST TIME IN 18 YEARS OF MY LIFE...

Me staying up late to finish school work

I've been so stressed up and busy and tired and stress up and depressed yet tired and stress and tired at the same time. 

Not forgetting throwing tantrums once in a while because I'm tired and frustrated.

Tonight, I must finish my drawing assignments.

Good luck to me.

In the meantime, I have my banana nut crunch cereals with milk and oreo to accompany me.

OH DAMN, I'M REALLLLLY TIRED.
NAW, BACK TO DRAWINGS.

MONEY TREE

AHOYYYYY I'M BACK.

I've been really busy since the New Year.
Other than going to school and having to head down to FEP right after service for work, I have to pack everything in my room into boxes and containers for the 2 upcoming renovation/ construction/ installation whatever you call it for my room. Also, to rush my school's UT assignments..

It's probably a good news that I'm busy assuming the main reason is because of my studies.


Just yesterday was the release of O level results and though this year's O level results has got no direct impact on me, I felt really loser-ish and sad yet happy. Happy because most of my juniors did well and my brother even scored 8 As and a score of 4 points for his Os. At the same time, it bothers me to see my juniors graduating and moving on with life which also means it's time for me to let go again.

It's sad that in future when I return to Swiss, I won't be able to see them anymore and they may probably forget about me. And I really had a hard time trying to cheer myself up from how loser-ish I feel.

Enough about those for now.

THE REASON WHY I DECIDED TO BLOG EVEN THOUGH I'M IN SCHOOL IS BECAUSEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

OMG. I'm going crazy about these. I've been wanting to own a balenciaga and celine for years!! And just a few seconds ago, I was online shopping and busy clicking away and this B baby had to appear right in front of my eyes. So I































No, I didn't purchase it. (WHERE GOT MONEY!!!!)
As I was saying, So I... decided to save the photos of these babies I've been wanting to get in my macbook and my phone to make sure I work very very hard so I'll have enough money to get ALL OF THEM and my cartier, louboutin, etc etc.

I'm getting there soon! My first one would be a new wallet! I like the design of the prada one right on top but I would very much prefer a balenciga for it's material and it's color. Hmmm, or maybe I should get both :X

Whatever it is, I'm glad just less than a month after opening a new bank account, I've managed to get almost a k into the new account.

I'm gonna start saving, save save save to get these.
*excited*

Ciao.