TWO OH ONE FOUR

2014 has been quite a good year for me.

If there's anything in which I've learnt this year, I think it would be learning how to let things go. 

(Finally)

Because this is one thing in which I've been struggling with for years and years.

But this year, I realised that it isn't as hard for me to let things go and I think I can handle letting go of things now especially in the area of friendships.

Maybe this has all got to do with me finally getting sick of being disappointed and hurt that I finally had to force a foot forward or maybe it's just because I've grown older and I tend not to take it too hard on myself when I lose a friend. I don't know. 

Btw, is it just me but I seriously think this year flew past damn freaking fast?! Like wayyy wayyyy WAYYYY faster than the previous years.

Anyway, as 2014 comes to an end, here are the things in which I am extremely grateful for/which made me especially happy this year. (According to what I wrote in my planner -because I write everything done and on days when I'm happy, I have it written down too).

1. 23/02: When I got accepted by *SCAPE for my internship right after the day of my interview. Despite the OTs, and never ending workload, I enjoyed my internship so much and had lots of fun when I was there. And I guess it speaks for why I would go back and help out once in awhile, as and when I can. And following that, on 21/03, my very first work being put up for an event. I don't think I'll ever forget how it feels like to have my work being printed up and put up in real life that is like x100 times the size I see it when I was designing it on the com. I really did felt so good I felt all teary inside lol. (x)

2. 11/04: Wasn't exactly a happy day for me because I didn't do well for my test but was extremely thankful for John Lim for asking me out and he even wanted to treat me for dinner to cheer me up :') following that, we met Minjiang and was stuck at the causeway for freaking 3-4hrs because Minjiang didn't want to listen to me when I told him to exit highway and would rather trust his GPS which lead us to join the massive jam to Malaysia. What's more it was a freaking Friday -.- HAHHA. It's so weird that this day kinda sucked but I still put it on my list. But that's cause I really am thankful that John Lim wanted to buy me dinner to comfort me. Though I didn't allow him to pay for me in the end! 

3. 17/04: This day was also nothing special but then I met Josh for dinner and we had out first heart to heart talk at some bpp semi circle which lasted for 2hrs PLUS, he sent me home after?!?!? Imagine how shock I was LOL. Not exactly a super happy day but it's definitely a memorable one. 

4. 11/05: I wrote "OH HAPPY DAY!!" on my planner and I don't know why I felt so happy that day. LOL but I remember I was really happy. It was mothers' day and Josh came and meet me for lunch after which, he accompanied me to go get presents for my mum and Yanting. Then we headed to PlazaSg for me to surprise Yanting before going to the museum together and later at night, I got my iPhone. I think what made me really happy was the fact that I almost spat water at him!?! Kidding. I think it was because I went to surprise Yanting with her presents, got a present for my mum, got accompanied to the museum (which I never thought I'll ever be at with a friend) and my parents got me an iPhone that's why I was happy. Am I starting to sound naggy? (x) 

5. 30/06 – 06/07: WHAO. THIS IS DEFINITELY THE HIGHLIGHT OF MY YEAR. MY 20TH BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!! ♥ So much to say about this one because so many things happened. I was truly truly happy and if you wanna know why, I blogged it all out so go ahead to read this one cause I can't possibly type everything out. It's long enough to turn into another blogpost. (x)

6. 19/07: Drinking at Cuppage, this I won't say happy but it was memorable. Walking around town at 3am is definitely something I wanna do again.... that is if I can't sleep lol (x)

7. 02/08: Nerf gun! Need I say more!?!?!? I think I would e equally happy if my friends were to play block catching or something with me. lol. And omg I'm starting to get quite annoyed that almost every freaking single thing listed is somehow related to Josh. (x)

8. 25/08: Not that I was super happy or anything but hello, new milestone for Charman. Just be happy for me. Passed my driving

9. 31/08 – 05/09: Boracay trip with friends. Another highlight of this year for me. Everyday single day in Boracay, I was happy. I also felt that it was very dirty. But irrelevant. lol. I think that was one of the best days in my 2014, including my birthday. I laughed so hard every single day in Boracay, adding on the beach, the sun, the waterspouts which is my fav hobby. I wouldn't wished for it any other way. I also met 2 new friends there and we've been hanging out ever since we're back in Sg like going to zouk together and stuffs. (x)

10. 02/10: Went to have Kbbq with friends and then we played pool before I had dinner with my brother. I got no idea why I felt happy this day either. But I was laughing a lot and I was just happy me. (x)

So many things that I'm thankful for this year.

The big ones, the small ones.

I'm thankful for the people who've stayed in my life and I'm glad to meet some really nice and fun people this year.

They say you meet many temporary people in your life from age 17 to 21. I'm glad I only have a year more to go. 

But right now, it's pretty clear who the true ones are. 

This year has been nothing short of amazing. Here's to new adventures, new goals, new perspective and new friendships and more accomplisements for the next year. 

I seriously can't wait to graduate. And not to forget I'm turning 21 next year (sadly). 

For now, HAPPY 2015 people!!

Can't wait to be back on the 4th and reunited with Theo who will be back in SG!

Till then, 

Xoxo 

IN JUST A FEW HOURS MORE

Heyho, it's just a few hours more before I have to head to the airport to catch my flight to Taiwan/Hongkong so I decided I might as well blog. 

Before that, let me just wish ya all MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So my holidays started last Thursday and at the same time, the Saturday of the same week was also my last day working at Outpost. I've been working there for around 2 years now. But I think I'm just really sick from working and I wanna live my life while I can? lol. Furthermore, I wanna focus more on my studies and do well for my last semester. WHICH I AM CURRENTLY DOING/TRYING TO DO.

Spent my Monday and Tuesday filming this week and half of my Wednesday at home trying to get some work done and ended my Christmas Eve at my dad's family party. Was supposed to have lunch today (by this I meant 25th Dec, Christmas) with my mum's family but I had plans long time ago with my loud girls and I kinda mixed up the time and so I ended up skipping family lunch... which is kinda bothering me quite a lot cause I know I'll miss my grandparents while I'm overseas ):

Still, I can't wait to finally leave Sg and have my well deserved holiday, far, farrrr away from school. I'm also not very fond of cold countries because I always feel like I'm dying when I'm in a country during their winter season (especially in Beijing) so when I heard my mum booked Taiwan and Hongkong, I wasn't that thrilled but I was quite relieved cause according to my bandmates and friends who went to Hongkong, they said it isn't really that cold but like air con temperature??

BUT LO AND BEHOLD, THE WEATHER DECIDED TO GO FOR A SUDDEN DEEP AND SO FAR, THE NEWS I'VE GOTTEN FROM MY FRIENDS AND FAMILY MEMBERS WHO ARE ALREADY IN TAIWAN/HONGKONG ARE THAT THE WEATHER IN BOTH COUNTRIES THIS YEAR IS COLDER THAN USUAL??!?!!

URGH.

Nevertheless, I'm still happy to leave and go for my holiday. Just crossing my fingers and hoping that the weather there isn't as bad as what my friends/extended families are telling me. But then again, if it isn' that cold it'll mean that I brought my down jacket for nothing which also means that it's a waste of my luggage space.

URGH x2

But okay. I shall just wait and see.

Honestly can't wait to go and I also can't wait to be back to be reunited with Theo.
For now, I'm gonna go draft up a post for the new year.

Sayonaraaaa and see you people next yearrrrrrr!

HOLA KOALA

Met Josh early in the morning yesterday and went back to visit the band!

Slept at 3am the night before and got woken up by text messages from the idiot at 6am that went a lil like this...

Josh: Charman

Josh: 8 like too early la (he was the one who suggested to meet at 8am -.-)

Josh: HAHAAHAH

Josh: Meet 9am lah

(I had the exact same thought in mind)

Me: kk

Me: But band going off at 10am leh

Josh: ok then wake up

-.-

AND OMG I RECEIVED A GIFT FROM HIM!!!!!!!!

He must have reflected a lot about how great a friend I actually am this year 😂

Visited the band for a little while before both of us decided to head down to bpp to meet Lynette for breakfast. 

And so, Josh told Lynette that he found out that I've got a problem with personal space. lol.

Like I really don't like it when people come to close to me or have unnecessary physical contact with me? ––Unless you're my really really close friend and I'm comfortable with you.

But it still kinda depends on the situation and my mood. 

Anyway, after that they decided to try touching me etc to annoy/disturb me. urgh

Hung out for a bit in the library for chit chat and helped Lynette with sticking on the screen protector for her phone before we all decided to go home.

Hehe. Still can't get over my surprise from Josh in the morning.

Went home and took a nap before I headed out again at 3pm with Saiful to Amoy Qwee Camp to see the band. Saiful came and picked me up and omg. HE WAS IN BERMS.

I thought "SHIT. JOSH LAST TIME LIKE THAT. NOW SAIFUL ALSO LIKE THAT"

And true enough, we couldn't enter camp so we cabbed down to amk hub to get Saiful a pair of pants and bought ourselves dinner.

I also found the nutella I've been looking all over Sg for!!

(Tried it and it's quite a disappointment)

Cabbed back to Amoy Qwee and as usual, the guards gave us attitude and lots of bullshit talk and because my main purpose of going down was to take photos for the band and the band needed my camera, I had to bring my camera in. –The guards didn't allow that and we argued a bit.

Even so, they decided to let me put my name on the nominal roll and I didn't have to exchange pass cause, I GIRL 👍

Got into camp but I was still pretty upset about not being able to get my camera in so I kept thinking of different ways. Say perseverance and determination? HHAHAHAHAHA.

I decided to get help from 6 NCC boys to help me smuggle my camera in and we succeeded!!!!!!

Seriously, thank God for them because they know the camp better than I do.

Tried to re enter camp after going out and because this time Saiful wasn't with me, I received a different treatment from the guards.

Me: I want to re enter. I'm from the band.

Guard 1: band one ah?

Guard 2: Haiyo! Why you still standing outside faster go in!!

*Opens gate*

Guard 1: You're from band?

Me: *nods*

Guard 1: Okok, you don't need to check with us lah. Faster go in!!

LOLLOL. Talking about double standard.

Gotta love being a girl.

The juniors were so sweet after performance, they kept taking food and drinks for me :') omg I ever had my juniors "serve" me before.

Back to Swiss after performance and had late dinner/supper with Kenneth, Elizabeth and Saiful before heading home.