TAKING BACK GIVEN GIFTS

Imagine, 
someone asking back for a gift that they have given you.

I know, sucks right. And really "loser-ish".

But that was what the government wanted to do a few weeks ago…

It was reported on The Straits Times on 3rd Feb, "Funding cuts for top independent schools in Singapore" and this was called for to make all schools equal.

Well, may I interest you in something?

It was back in 2006 when the government initiated the GEP to encourage students to work hard to become better and get into good schools. And now, it seems like the government doesn't want students to work hard anymore… or that might seem to be the case. If not, why take away the privileges given to "good" schools?

I was really confused to why the government wanted to make ALL schools, GOOD schools and I thought it was a rather stupid move. So, I went on to find out why, and came a conclusion. Which is because many Singaporeans are complaining about schools not being equal -_-

I honestly see this "making ALL schools, good schools" as nothing more than a populist move.  
And a really stupid one.

I mean, if all schools are equal, then why would a student even work hard since at the end of the day, no matter however good his/her score is, he/she would end up in the same school just like everybody else?

And it was also stated along the line of schools would use fans instead of air cons due to the funding cut blahblah. So I jokingly said to my brother "lol. can you imagine people like you who worked so hard to get into the top schools won't be able to enjoy air con anymore while people who scored badly like me are 'rewarded' with air cons". 

Moreover, what's more stupid/retarded about this whole issue is that it isn't even the students themselves who are complaining but the parents -.-
I mean, IF MAJORITY OF THE STUDENTS, WE, ARE OKAY WITH THE DIFFERENT BANDING OF SCHOOLS, WHY YOU PARENTS, WHO ARE NO LONGER SCHOOLING, COMPLAINING?!!?

Because you want your child to have equal footing? 

But FUN FACT, the so called "equal footing" is earned through hard work so they can get into the top schools. NOT though whatever kind of measures you, weak Singaporeans, want the government to take.

 In the end, it only makes a large segment of the Singaporeans happy (but not for long because "weak" Singaporeans will never be happy), a small segment of the of them angry. And it contributes exactly nothing to the equal distribution of wealth and other underlying problems of inequity in Singapore.

Don't adults always teach us that 

"IF YOU WANT SOMETHING, WORK HARD FOR IT"

AND NOT COMPLAIN ABOUT IT.

P/s. I got so so sooooo much to say about this issue but I am so lazy now to put whatever I've told my parents/brothers into this post. (You should have heard me in person. I think I made a hell lot of sense)

P/s/s. I know there was another report that came out which says that the report on funding being cut for top schools have said to be inaccurate but honestly, both are stupid. Because on the new reported one, it says that the used of air cons should be cut down so to be "ecologically sustainable and cost-effective." Which is still, taking away the privileges that you get to enjoy being in a good school. And also, if the government wants to be cost-effective and ecologically sustainable, they should start with their offices first, don't you think so? ;)

MAD RUSH THANKS TO A WRONG MOVE

Hello guys.

This is the last week of school.

And instead of feeling free/a sense of relief,

I AM IN A MAD RUSH.

YES.

WHY?

Because today, 

I decided to book my driving test on impulse without actually calculating how long I need to take and how much I actually have, to finance myself all the way to my test date.

So...

I BASICALLY HAVE 40 DAYS TO RUSH THROUGH EVERYTHING

And I don't have enough time,

nor do I have enough money.

>:(

#FML

Oh, btw if you were wondering, I am only at stage 2.8 right now and I have to complete to stage 5.1 by the 39th day.

+ I can only clear max, 2 stages each lesson.

And if you're wondering why I am only at 2.8 right now, it's because you actually have to go through different procedures if you are learning driving from school. -Yeah, procedures for the school to earn your money and waste your time.

And I only go for driving lessons once every month and sometimes once in 2 months!!

OH MY GOD I NEED A MIRACLE!

Driving aside, it's 2 more days to the end of my school term and then it's exams and I'll be going for internship the next semester.

There are things in which I will miss,

things I won't.

And it'll also mean going to a new environment, yet again.

Trying to adapt, trying to move on and let go.

The past few months have been bearable without having Steffy, Isabel and Wenting because I've met this group of girls, some which I've known but have never really opened up/gotten close to.

I'm glad to be in the same class as certain people especially people from my year1sem1 class.

And I'm thankful to be given another chance to get to know them and have them get to know me better to make up for my "wasted time" in year1sem1 trying to adapt to a new environment and trying to open up to a new group of people.

Received lots of love the moment I reached school on Friday which was Valentine's.

And I was pretty much depressed after that for idk what reason. A sudden familiar pang of darkness just hit me and I kept crying for no reason.

Left my house for a walk at night and I was walking to nowhere.

Minjiang and John lim came to find me after. Thank God for good friends and we went over to Jurong Park to meet Eugene and they accompanied me to walk around till I was feeling okay.

And later at 12am, they drove to my estate wanting to chill and we ended up having a picnic at the void deck. LOL

On Sunday, my fan and I went to the Singapore Airshow 2014!!

Finally back to going to exhibitions, events etc with my family ever since I stopped working on Sundays. Also, really thankful that Joanne found a new part timer to cover me!

(more photos will be uploaded on Facebook)

And on Monday, which was yesterday,

Faeza and I decided to leave class halfway through to get our eggs benedict because we were looking at pictures of it and wanted to have it pretty badly.

Went all the way down to holland and realized that Hatched was close >:(

Settled for D'Good Cafe in the end

Also, received cupcakes form Faeza today!!

^^

GONNA SHOWER AND SLEEP BCUZ I NEED IT

GOOD NIGHT

And he said, “You’re really good at not letting people love you. But do you realize while doing that, you're hurting them too?”. 

The truth is, I just can't help it. One try, two try, it all failed. And each time I remind myself to open up and trust, I'm exposing myself to disappointments . And I get that, everyone goes through the same thing. But I take a longer time than most people do to get myself back up again and I can't help but shut everyone else out. Why can't people, instead of telling me to open up and trust, give me no reason to doubt?

Like I've said before,
maybe the reason why I push the people I love away is because I don't wanna be the one to be pushed away.