Kissonyou

I was viewing my blog just an hour ago and I see the drastic change in the number of posts I have this year compared to in the past.

I have like at least an average of 40+ posts every month in 2010. NO JOKE!! Go check if you wanna.
Then, an average of 17 posts every month in 2011 and this year it barely hit 12 posts a month.
Pretty much like a dying blog huh.

I guess I'm just not as motivated as I was in the past to blog.
I have been so busy with life, sleeping at home day in and day out or I would be away from home the whole day.
So when I'm at home, there's nothing really to blog about except for how I spent my whole day watching Dirty Soap, Scouted etc and laying in bed. When I'm out, I'm out for a whole day so I don't have time to blog when I get home.
SOMEONE GIVE ME A LIFE!

Not only am I not motivated to blog because of my daily routine lying in bed and all, I am more reluctant to blog because I've lost so sosososososo many readers since 1 year ago.
The only reason why I am still blogging is just for keepsake or I think it's actually as good as dead.

A "living" blog without readers is a dead blog.

Apart from lying in bed sleeping whatsoever, I've also been (still) trying to pack my room. I'm kinda wondering if my room would really ever be refurbished or not already.
Everything just seems so impossible to happen right now. Especially after my mum told me that she'll not be hiring anyone to paint my room and that I had to do it on my own.

Though discouraging but understandable. After all it's not even half way through the year and I've already burned a pretty big hole in my dad's pocket (I guess so but hope not).

I've gotten my blackberry in Feb, they have to pay for my enrollment fees for poly (school fees not included yet. WHO KNEW GOING TO JC IS ACTUALLY SO MUCH CHEAPER THAN POLY?!), they've gotten me my macbook and they still have to spend a huge sum of money for my room.
Guilty, yes, I definitely feel guilty but just a little. More than feeing guilty, I am really thankful for my parents.
Though they are both now very caught up in their work, dad has to go for business trip and he is more busy than ever and my mum has to continue doing her research while her business just started. Both my parents hardly have time for me now. BUT STILL, I thank them for sacrificing so much for us. -Both my brothers and I.

As I was saying, other than sleeping, packing my room, I've been eating, eating and eating.

One of my favorite gummy and carrot juice.

Still in the process of packing my room and I was going through my worksheets before throwing them away so I took a few pictures to share here. If there is even anyone reading or just take it as I'm talking to myself -.-

This is my name in korean!! And I used to write it on all my worksheets for a month in sec3. Too bored of writing my name I guess. After 3 years or rather, 9 years schooling and writing my name as Chuang Charman on all my worksheets I guess I decided to write something different so I wrote it in korean? hahah.

Then after a month of writing it, I got sick of it and decided to change the "template" of my name again. LOL.
If you go through my worksheets since sec1 all the way to the end of my life in secondary school, you'll see many different self-created template of my name.

Another one. This was my first "template" used in sec3. HAHAHHA. YUPYUP. I had a happy face at the side of my name for a reason. I had happy faces drawn on my table by someone so I decided to put it with my name cause thinking about it made me happy. Heh.

Some class chatroom thing. Do you anyone of you do that? Like create a "chatroom" on a piece of paper. HAHAH. Pretty much like passing notes/letters in class but this was different. My friends just snatched my paper and started writing on it.

Something random I drew on my paper to motivate myself. HAHAHA. I guess I lost touch with reality and thought it would really do some trick in motivating me.