THE TIME BEFORE YOU BROKE ME

I wanted to feel loved and be loved. But as soon as I felt it, I pulled away. 

Funny how my heart aches when I feel loved. 

Funny how my mind and my heart has gotten so used to the pain that I have experienced while I was loving the people I loved.

Funny that now when someone loves me and I feel loved, my mind quickly connects and links that to all the hurts and disappointments that I can't even put to words.

Funny how love now, hurts.

And all I ask for is to be able to love and feel loved again without aching.