my heart is seriously breaking

Mr yap finally did something meaningful in class tday.
and EGG is so cute.
he says hes jio-ing me :b

took bus to westmall
den looked into school
-it's not what I see but more to how i feel.
i've been fooled.
but competing in sports has taught me that if i'm not willing to give in 101% others will.
so yep.
i shall let her give in 101%

went to westmall.
egg, clarance, esmund, eden tried to cheer me up.
THANKS ALOT.
I really appreciated it.

trained to lot.
went walking for awhile and walked home.


nick gave me something.. okay whatever.


if only i was blind.
bye.

sup yo.

i finally thought of a topic to talk about.
thanks to my dear faithful friend Egg!
HAHA
how's th batch of sec1'09?
i finally understood why some seniors don't like us.
cause we are like how we feel about th sec1s now.
but of course we're BETTER than them.


of course not all sec1s are like that lah.
but this sec1
(taken out from her post)

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like lmao?!
so i can say she copy me lah!
cause her posting styles are SAME as mine=.=
den nvm.
its a pathetic story that you are in this school too.
wahseh. act like she damn fucking big like that.
fuck here and there.
she must be desperate.
lols.
i'm just amazed that such people like you can be admired by my friend.
nvm, forget about her.

my mood is currently spoiled. was having fun chatting. but it made me look like a bloody idiot. so nvm. lost mood. luckily b3njamin and roy plus shawn is there to talk to:)
if not i'll really throw.
.
.
.
heh!
throw balls!.

its funny how people is. some just got sick and others don't treasure it. (sighs)
yeah.

& bacon just scare me.
he told me that ________________.

nic is so funny lah.
in th morning he came and complaint me. (it was last thurs)
NIC:"hafiz still got sms you?"
me:"urm.. yeah?"
nic:"ohhs"
me:"why?"
nic:"i receive his sms every once a week."
me:(sian look) "so?"
nic:"and all his sms-es are the same! -is charman still attached?"

heh.
nic and hafiz is funny lah.
but its not my fault.
who asked him t give hafiz my number.
as i say nic is dumb!

lalalas~
band was alright? i reported t band.
den asked kailing if i could go band lata so that i can find tim t play bb.
and nic gave me th you-can-play-bb-look?
i was like why not?
heh i am married to andy.
& when mr chew said that, alfred was like { "you may now kiss th bride" -.-
damn. and that almost got me into trouble.
cause i kept laughing and cannot play.
& mr chew wanna interview bacon..

ptm suckkkkks!
i was caught..THREE times.
first by prefect, susan lim den tang.
i walk into school and caught.
(i shld'nt have went out of school again for that stupid tim)
prefect ask abt my swiss socks.(cause i din't were them)
den my skirt.. den when susan lim came.. but i din't really get into trouble.
i told prefect i late for cca so they let me off.
den i promised i will change my socks and skirt.
(like i will ever change?) den went t band.
search for something.
cannot find so went hall.
suay mdm tang there.
so kenna caught.
den she asked abt swiss socks again.
and hair spiked and skirt. and she was bloody chewing a gum or something? and she wanna meet my parents.
(roll eyes)


went to westwind's concert yesterday. LOVE IT<3 p="">andy was so funny lah! proud that he is my seniorrrrrrrrrr!

i'm gonna get a cheewawa.
yay yay :] :]
but mummy asked my dad.
you sure?
later she'll cry like how many months like what happened to her hamsters.
& theo says that th cheewawa will die within a week under my care.
come 'on have faith in me!
my hamsters lasted VERY LONG ok.

and i miss my seniors.
audrey, you hug lasted very long.
derry, th last time i saw you was x-country.
jacob, always giving chocs.
kit, no more chocs. and etc.
kit is busy.
but i'm proud that i can post about him!
yay!
hes got someone to love alr!
congrats!
clap for him!

Chingkit BITE BITE BITE! says:
O.o
19:37:49Chingkit BITE BITE BITE! says:
relax...
19:38:55I say:
really lah!
19:38:58I say:
wooooooooo..
19:39:03I say:
kitkit got stead leh.
19:39:10Chingkit BITE BITE BITE! says:
u also have
19:39:30I say:
...
19:39:37I say:
you mah. diff leh.
19:39:41I say:
woohoooooo/
19:39:43Chingkit BITE BITE BITE! says:
you mah
19:39:45Chingkit BITE BITE BITE! says:
diff also
19:39:47I say:
wth?
19:39:55Chingkit BITE BITE BITE! says:
nth
19:39:57I say:
i talking about you!


>>there is always a reason why i enjoy talking to him and derry:)

bleh
whatever.
i'm sick of my blogskin.
xl hurry hurry!!
i'm a good girl tday(:

tadas.

heyo!

i was praised for my actings.
HAHA.

my poor blog is dying and no one is helping:/

ohoh.
& i just found out something abt one snr of mine.
ALERT!
girls! DO NOT go near him..
OHmyOHmy.


nice try.
but i dunno why.
for showing me like i'm not there and acting like you do not care.

lalalas!
BYE.

life is seriously unfair.

Eden Ong is so damn cute! x3
hehehe..
LITTLE MISS NICE(:
(grins)


ohhh ohh.
i'm starting t get afraid of chocs.
wanna know th reason?
ahhhahahah
thats because...


you have to ask Roy :b


ohya.
HAPPY EASTER PEOPLE!
had fun with tim, stanley, lingyu and jie qi tday.
yay!

toodles.

DAMN!
i have been BULLIED!
yes.
go and kill him!
i din't want to post okay..
just let my blog die(i'm lazy)
and i was FORCED to..
ok.
this time no guns were pointed at me.
i was...

i was..........

i was being.....

aiya. i was being forced lah!
HAHA.

anyway,
i ahhhhhhhhh!
i'm not happy with my position!
stoooooooooooooopid sec1s. only for some lah.
they are bloody guai manzxz
>!~##$*&&*(^&*%&()U*(
scolded us!
!#()@&$*(!@^$*($&*(
(rolls eyes)

i thought he was blind.
den i find myself going over th line.
den he did what his friends asked him to do.
but i was playing with another two.
he went back to his seat,
i tried not to freak.
but i somehow did.
after th run,
i wanted to go over and say nice one.
but i was disappointing like none.
he was suppose to be happy.
but i made him angry, upset.
i'm guilty i'm sorry.

lalalas.
and own our way to mrt,
stupid tiomthy went t take off his clothes.
(points finger up down)
hehe.

nothing much.
jec.
yeah.
now i owe panda biscuits.
=.=
and i was trying to go to him.
i din't dare to
BUT!
i saw him everywhere lah.
fiona told me it was fate
but i din't care much because i know it was too late.

nahs.
andy is talking to me now(:!
freestyle.
heh.

lalalas!~
BYE!

sometimes having to step out is diffcult

-useless.
i just can't be angry

sup.
heh(remain happy no matter what!)
yep.
thats my rule.
but i'm afraid i'm breaking down soon.
anyway,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY LOVELY XINLIN!
shes got chicken pox.
ohh ohh. get well soon.

anyway,
this MAY be th last time i'm posting.
i'll try.
so people who i gave permissions to,
please help me keep my blog alive yah?
i'm begging you people this time.
plessssse plessse.
i'll appreciate it very much.
advantage you know.
HAHA,
(faints)

so emotions are getting over me.
i wanna sleep 9442654618days and NEVER wake up.
ohh ohh doesn't that equals to DEAD?
lmao.
but i really want to.
so that my heart won't be broken again and again.
so that i'll know nothign and nothing will i know.

lalalas~
shall keep this a happy post.

toodles.

yay!
finally(:

hopeless =.=
opps?

if its nothing nice you can say, please don't say it.

so many things just happen in just one Friday.
i stepped into class and everything wasn't okay.
First my table and there were more to came.
den mr seng and to my results.
my table, nothing to say. Mr seng, so much to say. my results? well just a few thing to say.
i've tried my best but ms rina and ms tay just would'nt give us a rest.
its three months and they taught us MOSTLY nothing?
& thats why we ain't best.
so the WHOLE class just failed and yes.
they say th teachers failed.
CAUSE it was completely nothing that they taught.
how i wish i had a video and then
they would be caught.
(of cousre i can't fully blame th teachers, it ain't totally their fault)
(well, i just have t stop skipping classes and WORK HARDER)
den mr seng.
its three months since we know him.
as th from teacher of our class,
he shared our worries.
we promised mr seow but we din't keep it.
now mr seng is leaving and most of th girls are crying.
th guys are trying to fake.
who can't feel it?
so why cry when we didn't cherish it?
use this hol to pull up your socks and to think about it.
how much have we change.
from walking around to sparing around.
but mr seng wasn't about to give up.
he said how he wished he could be th from of our class last year.
beacuse he wanted to be close to us mouth to ear.
now everything is REALLY changing think about it.
what i was most upset about was because he said goodbye not seeya after th hols.
so many things happen on such a fine friday morning.
where th whole 2n2 goes mourning but of course no one is dead.
its just to fit in.

friday band was damn bad.
cause i found out.
truth really hurts.
SAT was th same to.
this time
i was sandwich in between.
i admit i was wrong but can't you just stop pretending you know cause you don't
and stop bringing derry in.
anything wrong you say derry.

i choose to listen to haziq's advice because it was all i need

AND! i wanna hear no more thank you very much.

went to school tday..
duh.
obvious!

den threw tantrums yesterday.
tim made public apology to me.
nothing much
after remedial went lot.
wanted to pierce but..

ohwell.
mum's bday tday.
bye

(blog someday else)

SIMPLE(:

honesty is the best policy

damn it.
i'm gonna blowwwww!
as long as the stupid computer won't lemme in msn,
i won't feel good using the com.

just a quick one.
went to class outing on monday.
den thurs to fishing.
shall not post photos abt these.

fuckups stop pissing me off and lagging my computer!

30$ for one strawberry hl milk.
believe it or not.
it has happened.
happened to me.
_l_

first band, den came my friends den now th computer.
fuck it fuck it!

in th midst of doing a video.

ahhhhhhhhhh.
everything is dragging me down.
whats wrong with poeple's brain.
get brain washed so easily?
den you people must be really DUMB
just a few things said and you believe.
ohhh well.
and some of you are even in band and express?
can bang your head on my table alr.
and i mean ASAP.
see you in my class tmr.
lining up t bang head.
oh god.
how dumb can they get?
(no offence, i'm stating th fact)

i'm fustrated.
anw, F.I.R came yesterday.
stanley likes his hair.
they sang well.
CHC-smiles.

hmmm.
should i post th video of me rolling on th road?
oppseh.
i guess
no.

i've been going to band and classes faithfully this few week.
so i guess its time to..
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
give a pat on my shoulder(:
ty!

-tell me you did it for th image of th band; i will understand.
and this quote is like sooooooooooooo obvious who i'm tlaking to.
yea you.
th one who visits my blog secretly and refuse t tag.
ohyea. you were ONCE so CLOSE to ME.
i dunno about NOW.
maybe because i dun see you alr.
:X you are dumb! if you try figuring out who it is.

lalalalas.
i've so much to say and scold.
and by th end of this post,
you'll find out who i'm disappointed in and angry or upset with.
but daddy says i gotta logout and have lunch.
nahs..
too bad.
like i dunno what you talk abt me.
like i dunno how some of you are disappointed in me..
duh! i know EVERYTHING.
thanks.
i'm so so sorryyyyy.(i mean it)
yuckyyy..

ohh.
i'm those go easy de people.
ohhh no wonder you are such a flirt!
_l_
can go die alr.

-i'm sorry andy.
(just remembered.)

this is one last chance i'm giving you.
but will you treasure it?
goodbye