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What If I decided to leave tday.

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TAG REPLIES!
smallest in ur badge: HELLOO haha ppl say u model leh... lol tt would be a joke in the end as i think of u walking on the
smallest in ur badge: platform??? HAH ;0 MJ was here anw...
reply: SHUT UP! zzz. Model doesn't mean have to walk on platform. you narrow minded freak! :D


Klr0sHI: rest more n drink more water=) get well soon! tht was a nice pic taken of john cambodia gift=) tc
reply: good camera skills! hahahha! tyty! Take care too!
Celiaaaa!: #1 Idol!!!!!!! I wont cut anymore... Cos my penknife was thrown away!
Celiaaaa!: Hahs. By my mom.. Lols. Take cares alrights! Loveeees!:D
reply: slit = dumb! You want, I help you draw. My drawing like so real, professional! hahah! remember?!


passer: you smoke?????????
passer to ---: why do i have to be jealus =.='''
reply: lol, hahahahha!

Nick: Tagged =D

Estherrr: Chuang Charmannnn ! Loveeeees , and tagggggged alrdy lah ! ><
reply: :D

ziyong: Jokes, I clicked on my own plurk.
reply: lol! it's ok, i've got tags from you for that! hahha! your advertising sucks ttmx!

M18: Guess who.
M18: :3
M18: GamerzHack!
M18: Lolz.
reply: who else. zzz!

Shift6^: i lol @ model :3
reply: ty lah! :p

Junkiat: hey hi model! wish weekiat nv wish me? and dont be such a kid alr okay
reply: I'm not a kid ok! lol! hihi! All th best for Os too lah k!


---: ur jus jealous of her
reply: lol?

So much to say but no words to convey

I decided to reduce everything I wanted to post into two pictures,

BUT..

Questions are on my mind.

Why did you retain? Where do I go now? How do i start? so much more.

CMI

I decided to stop blogging for th time being,

I'll run away.

I believe this farewell may not be forever

Charman says: BIRDS SHOULD BE TOILET TRAINED!
Agree????
*nods*
 ^^


Tday,

John Lim! Thanks alot! :D
I'll miss you singing for me when I cry!

What is there, might not always be there

Anyway, I received lollipops again! :D

And I have only one bigbig lollipop left because Nais took mine awayyy! hahah!

*pause*

ok lah, actually, I gave mine to him willingly cause he kept asking me for it.

Wait, I gave him two!

So nice right!

Have quite alot of photos, but I shouldn't post them up!

4Na is super power. Less then 10 went to school and then at th end of the day only left 3! SCSS DIE LIAO! Then th sec3 are like, 50% attendence?!


I want to do alot of things the list goes on and on......

x cut my effing frindge.. !!!
x get a new ear piece.. before i get electrocuted by my current one.
x thought of getting another ear hole..
x shop with Youtube, google, my space and yahoo.
x go out with baby
x basketball
x go haji lane! O:

aiya alot more.


I need time.
And next week, I'm gonna change and be guai!  (ok, I try)
As in studies.
I shall pay attention in class! I shall go haji lane, try out something and then, i'll promise not to break your heart anymore! ^^ promise! No more disappointments!

What th crap is this?! My mind is not working currently.

After school, Trained to yewtee, train back to gombak. Then trained to lot, and went to segar.

Felt stupid. I have no where to go, so I went alone. Disgraced myself in public.

Btw, if you wonder why am I posting like in points, It's because, you have to follow my twitter! hahahhaha!

My mind is currently down and my blog is "under construction" for inspirational posts.

ok, please. Laugh.

Aiya, I'm tired. Just got home and have to rush this post out.

okok, wan an! ^^

*goodnight kiss*

Don't know if you will see this or not but ,
WEI, THANKS FOR ACCOMPANYING ME TO "PHOTOCOPY" STUFFS

Loquacious

HHIHIHIHIHIHI BOOMXZXZ!

Have been receiving thousands of complains about my post not being inspirationl as th past.
Woots! I inspire! :D
hahahah, have been spamming my blog with quotes and more quotes.
"Quotes are for inspiring th uninspired."

ok, school was boring shittzzxz ttmx,
And morning assembly was a total joke.
"I would like to thank my mum, my dad, my brother, my sister, my dog, my cat..."
wtf?! She's trying to be funny but making a fool of herself. OMG. Why don't she thank th dead chickens and wheats to for giving her th energy to talk and act in that clip as well.
And thank th mic too uh! for allowing her to give th thankyou speech.

If you can't think of anything better to say in th public, then it's better to keep your mouth shut rather than making a fool of yourself

Activites were boring,
heyyou! thanks for immitating ris low to make me laugh and keep me entertained! :D

Yaya and human, thanks for being there to accompany me to wait for m.jiang^^
hahahah. while i was talking to yaya, there, near us stand a retard!
(human, you got to give me what you promised for me to thank you bigbig!)

went for band.
kept making fun of some love stuffs.
(insider joke with my sarcasm blog abt it next time)


Kenneth came! he super funny!
cc: how you expect me to sms you when i don't have your number!
kenneht: *says out his number* is kenneth neo lim peh's number.
rofl! made theo and me laugh like wtf.

then we talked about Ris low, funny shit.
So theo and I kept playing until kenneth got fed up. hahahah!

(theo to me)
*charman burps*
"you sounded/acted like you are a kid learning how to burp for th first time"
lol!

KENNETH IS FUN! :D

Charmanfighting. said:

wlll!
zzz
got other photos bo?
Xinying; said:
u very mafan leh
my phone charging
Charmanfighting. said:
zzz.
i want see lah!

XY IS MAKING ME SUPER JEALOUS ABOUT SOME PEOPLE! zzz!

No inspirationl post for tday, too late already. I need to sleep you know!!
SHINGX!

TAG REPLIES!
passer: ya. i saw you at the platform with your boyf. are you a model?
reply: lol. Yes, I was there. And nope, I'm not a model :)

weekiat: wait for my Os over then say la.
reply: then study lah! lol!

weiling: weekiat! don't teach her bad things alr la! GOAL! [s]seeshe[/s]
reply: GOAL! you tagged wrong person! hahah!

san.driyyya: YOH YOH YOH! :D
reply: hey you! :D

Evangeline,: talk to me if u need a listener!
Evangeline,: Thanks dearrrrrr for the lovely msg! haha. 'hurt ur lungs'? hmmm. i hope its not what i'm thinkin ah
reply: I WILL! :D

lynn: sian la k. sian
reply: sian!!!!

BF: you dunno how happy you can make me.
reply: ya, idk. so can you tell me wtf are you?

Hey love, I hope this message finds you well

-I want to be there for you in every way imaginable. I want to hold your hand and stand by your side through the trials and tribulations that are thrown in your way. I want to be there to help you celebrate your victories. I want to be there for you from beginning to end. I want to be the person you trust the most and confide in, I'd give anything to carry that responsibility. I don't want to betray you; I want the capability to be utterly honest and trustworthy to you.


I want to be the shoulder you go to when you need one for support. I want to be the small and frail set of arms you long for when you need a hug. I want to be the person you seek out when you need to be showered with affection. I want to be there waiting for you while you're gone. I want to be the one longing to come back to you when I'm gone. I want to give you everything I have. I want you to look past the fact that I'm broken or defective goods and love me anyway. I don't care about the demons you may have on your back or your little imperfections; to me they make you perfect. I don't care if you have a past or enough baggage to sink a nation…I do too and I want to carry it all with you.

I want to snuggle with you at night, smelling your T-shirt and hugging up as close to you as I can. I want to not want to let you go. I want to touch your face tenderly and cover it with feathery kisses. I want to run my thumb softly along your eyelashes while you're sleeping. I want to become irritated with your snoring and talking in your sleep until I hear you mumble my name. . I want to love every fiber of your being, because they make you who you are, and I want to love you. I want to go to you when I'm upset and hurt just to be engulfed in your arms. I think I'd feel safer there than anywhere else. I want that feeling of security I know you can give me. I want to break down crying, completely heartbroken only to have you mend me back together just by holding me close and whispering to me reassuringly. I want to give you peace.


I love you,

more than i could ever promise

<3

No relationship is perfect, ever.
There are always some ways you have to bend, to compromise, to give something up in order to gain something greater…
The love we have for each other is bigger than these small differences.
And that’s the key. It’s like a big pie chart, and the love in a relationship has to be the biggest piece.
Love can make up for a lot.”
— Sarah Dessen

I wanted to go with jkgh to his fjghdfgjk appt.
but i was jfdghdfjk that things will be gjkdfhgjkdf so I didn't.
*sighs*

Which way should I go now.
Are you i-don't-care on the outside and I-actually-care-alot on th inside?
I want th old you back! ):

O:
I'm hungry!
Mummum time! :D

I've got a feeling that you'll be seeing six different post tday. hahhah.
Know why! Cause there's so much I'm feeling and I'm bored.

And one thing i keep doing is to change my pm!
hahah, so you should be online right now, looking at my pm while I change it every few seconds.
WHOA! hahahaha.

I wanted to go out last night. But I kept th promise I made >(:
It was because, I remembered something that I said, I told him "trust me"
I'm so nice alright!

:D

I've uploaded th photos up. Unfortuantely, I didn't put everything up. But i posted quite alot already k! You can't expect me to post all 100 up right! So here you go, update post with photos.
Sleep over @ school, UPDATED WITH PHOTOS!

Had super bad nightmare yesterday. So long never have nightmare already. Think it's because I slept late and I was still having lots of energy. lol.
You know th nightmare is like
I don't want to tell you leh! :p
Plus you shouldn't know.
So I got up and texted staright away. I shoudn't have, i'm going back on th rollercoaster ride again..


That girl is insane, seriously. I hope one day, love really drive her crazy, down to hell.

Anyway, I've received another lollipop!

and again, it was just thrown into my bag!

who huh?!?!?!?

TYVM

As much as I'd like to say I don't care

I do.

“Sometimes, it is better to keep silent than to tell others what you feel because it will only hurt you when

you know they can hear you but they can’t understand.”

TAG REPLIES!
passer: were you at wm on fri? i saw you with your boyf and a girl! =D
reply: uh, ya. I was there in th evening ^^

weekiat: i never say anything liao hor. don't del my tags liao. zzz. and wtf to that tag below mine
reply: never delete lah k! hahahah! WTF?! all th best to your Os lah k!

BF: i love you alot baby
reply: who are you!!!

Keby: can link wo mah =/
Keby: O.O u also know evangeline? the evangeline is my sch de ar?
reply: no lah! hahah. but i see her before. but th one i know not from your school one! I happy then link you k! :p

Junkiat: stop deleting weekiat's tag lah. haha. AI GIRL! AI!
reply: ^^

Evangeline,: bu yao fang qi jian chi xia qu! evan loves ya! stay strong sweetheart! <3
reply: ^^ thanks!

The Somepeople: LOL , okok i am a failure..forget it..laugh at me all u wan D:
reply: who are youuuu!!!!

Zhen Yuan: God dam i am not noticed for ur progress dam it.....
reply: gald that you know

Francis: haha...gd 4 u...pass EL
reply: if i fail, I'll cry! hahha!

Shift6^: aiyahh lemme use ur tagboard advertise ;D won't die one.
reply: _|_

Nick: See im nice and i tag =)
reply: good lah k!  hahah!





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I feel like "camping" out. lol. Be security guard for another day.
But I promised someone yesterday that I won't.
                       found me.

I'm fading out, I won't go back in.
I refuse to let people think that I'll always be a punching bag for them and have them scold and throw their fustration at me. Because each time they do it, they hurt me and they don't know it, th pain they inflict.



You can't see my tomorrow. But that doesn't mean I've stop loving you.

going out now^^

bai x2!

Sleep over @ school

Alright, after sososoooo many days, as I promised, I'll blog about this.

19/10/09 -Monday.
(you know what?! starting like this with a date always makes me feel retardedly stupid)

I met section in th morning @ platform, then sat down and waited for trombone section for effing 2 hours?!?!?!
like so typical ok! Especailly when there's jered!
So while waiting,

And like finally, Jered came. Then my section like sian ttmx liao so we decided not to go ECP anymore.
Board th train, back to cck.

So sum up, cornets + wait for 2hours = Sianess 

Therefore, seperates from trombones and went our own way. 

Seperated with section for a while, took lrt.
Then saw amirul @ th "wtf-shopping centre" there.

Amirul: ahye! why you here? find boyf uh?
cc: *grins* Later then talk to you.

*went up, came down*

Amirul: woah! you go for what sial?
cc: pass something lah! Awhile only can do what...
-at night when he came back to school-
Amiul:you know there's something called hardcore, 3mins only.
cc: (OWNED)

Went bpp met section again, and saw amethyst! So made her go up to find th section with me.
oh, and I'm taller than her like finally! woots.
some photos taken are in her phone. so i can't post them up.

ate @ roof top garden. like pathetic shitzxz k! << it wasn't my idea.


yay! section photos! :D

ok, if you're thinking of asking me how come my section is like so pathetic, only have four people, I'll only have one thing to answer.

Cause these four and of us are good enough.

zzz. just ask th rest who are not in th photo. I'm also not them. ask me I also cannot answer you right!

After lunch, decided to go to lot.

Bpp + pathetic few = boring

yay! another maths problem answered! :D

bought this drink. and it taste like alcohol! hahah!

Next time drink beer with lemons! Nice nice nice!

Me like! ^^

Anyway, I went home to shower and get some things after that while I left them at lot.

reached home, showered and everything and was about to go out.

mummy: keep your things before going out.

cc: i don't want!

mummy: then don't go out. i'll take your phone.

*sntach my phone*

*after keeping my things, received text, phone lighted up*

*mummy looks at my phone*

mummy: whose those two people on your wallpaper?

cc: uh, my best friend. she look like me right! hahaha! :P

mummy: then why put th guy kissing her as your wallpaper.

cc: uh, cause th guy is her boyf, we are best friends! hahahahah! okok bye!

*runs out of house*

hahah.

then went cck park to meet section again

I've got like 111 photos here. shall post them next time, maybe tonight!

ok, continue.
after that, had dinner @ lot,
trained to gombak, went mac. I sang very loudly @ mac. like drunk!
hahahah!

Reported at school, parctised then lights out!

I couldn't sleep at all lo! >):
Called alfred^^ then after that, theo petted me to sleep!
ME LOVE THEO! hahahah.
but appearantly, it didn't really work. so she was like complaining to alfred that i'm not behaving etc and i kept disturbing her with ouy. hhahaha! and each time i almost sleep, footsteps of majors (zhexi kept coming over) and movements of huda will wake me up! hahah! sorry theo!

so decided to join th majors in th center of th hall.
zhexi, shihan, kenny, bojiang.
after that, daryl woke up and joined us.
hahah.Then daryl took out his food and both of us ate penut butter biscuits.
we stuffed it into ours mouths and talked. super funny k!
then got scolded by alfred because i was playing.
he told daryl not to play with me! hmph!

daryl: wl charman, ni bu yao gen alfred jiang dong xi leh! ta yi zhi send wo guaiguai dong xi.
(wl charman, stop telling alfred what we doing leh. he keep sending me weird weird stuffs and asked me not to play with you)

hahah! you know why alfred don't want daryl to play with me?!?!?!?
cause i was about to laugh.
and i did.
very loudly. hahahah! and everyone was already sleeping!!!

energy + food = more energy.

charman + energy = high!

charman + high = laugh and jump about

charman + laugh and jump about + everyone sleeping at night x Performance early in th mornign = total chaos!

and in th middle of th night, i disturbed everyone for a flash light camera phone. (my phone bo batt)
hahahah! funny ttmx.

woke up at 3AM, showered etc and parade!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D


woohooo, i finished my post.
thank you very much, thanks for your kind attention.
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. lame lah k charman!  

P/s I solved 3 maths equations!
*claps*
I'm practicing maths now k chingkit! :D