I wannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

• Go sing KBOX!!! (I have never asked for this before. This is the very first time!) So hurry can?? I got feel nowwwwwww.
• Eat sakae (I will die without food!! And it's been like 2 moths since I last had it!!!!)
• Have mac breakfast
• Fly kite (Talked about this for sho longggg!!) We can go fly kite straight after mac breakfast??)
• Movie marathon!!! (this is to.. you know who) Imma go your house again on Thurs k! Cook maggie for me again can? Buy popcorns!!!
• Shop! (for one last time. I SWAERRR!)
• Get my blackberry asap!
• Get a cam

Interesting!

Someone viewed my blog so I went to take a look at who was it. Because it wasn't my usual readers and I saw this...........................
And I guess I should post it on my blog too. Her blog is pretty good. So yeap.
This girl will be sooooo happy to see this!!!

Interesting!

Okay, I just stumbled to this person called Sandriyya's blog. And I liked it cause she doesn't type in those annoying twit ways and her english is perfect. (Y) I read one of her recent(?) post and found it really meaningful so here goes...

She risks heartbreak and feelings for a guy she fell in love with. She thinks he's the one.
/The match then starts to burn. Her feeling's fueling the flame on the match.

Following her heart, she got together with him. He thinks she's cute.
She fell even deeper, loving him whole-heartedly.
/The flame got to the candle. Burning, lighting up a part of her life she has never seen before.

He thinks he could give it a shot loving her. And maybe he did.

Protecting her, caring for her, thinking of her. Missing her presence when she's not around.
/His efforts probably prevented the initial rain and wind from extinguishing the flame.
The flame continues dancing; their love persists.

Time passes. Out of a sudden, he pulls out. He's not as engaging as he seemed to be previously,. He doesn't care that much. "Does he still love me?"
/The winds start gushing in, raindrops pelt down. Heavier and heavier each time.

Fights occur more frequently. Even over the smallest things.
Hearts start breaking; people start shunning. Things get complicated.
/Winds and raindrops may not have hit all the time. But they definitely did. The flame turns weak, it starts to waver.

She starts giving in so much just to keep their relationship going. She doesn't wanna lose him.
/She burns the match even more, just to keep the flame alive.

He just won't budge.
/The flame's getting weaker. The candle's getting difficult to light.

He keeps digging up the past. Bringing more things into the fights.
/Raindrops left on the candle made it almost impossible for the candle to light up again.

Things get tough when they drift further and further apart.
She tries even harder, does her best to win him back again. All she wants is for him to love her as much as she loves him.
/She holds on to that burning match. Contributing her feelings, still.

But it feels that there were hundreds of miles between them. He's out of reach.
/She tries her best. But the flame never lit again.

In the end, the girl got burned by the match as she held on too long. Way too long for a dead candle that can never be lit up by the same match, ever again.

The match turned into ashes. Her feelings and heart along with it.

Yep, I copied it, totally right off her post. Even the font is the same, see! HA.
I mean, don't you find it meaningful?
She also mentioned that, "(The "he/she" thing is a generalization. Some guys may be experiencing the 'she' part and vice versa.)"


& I think she actually thought of it herself. (Y) Please please, do go read her blog. I really like that fact that her english is remarkable, and I personally think that she's quite matured for her age (15). Eh which is the same as mine HAHA. And her blogskin is simple yet nice! Her reasonings is really uhm, reasonable. Whenever I read her post, I will go like, "YEAH I TOTALLY AGREE". It's like she's posting things that I can't even describe properly but she can cause her english is damn good. (Envyenvy).

This is the post that I totally ripped the story from, to be more precise.
http://sandriyya.blogspot.com/2010/10/playing-with-fire.html
Read the original okay!
And yeah, read her other post too! Quite interesting and meaningful. :)

Source: X

HAPPY NOT SANDRA!
HAHAHAH! I helped you advertise too!!!
k, randommmmmmmmmmmm!

Don't ever put your hopes on things or people because they disappoint.

Instead, put your hopes on Jesus who will always remember his promises to you.

Went out for service this morning.
Then headed for lunch @JP with theo.

Last night was fun! Had dinner @Railmall and headed to meet Brandon, Sherry, Tsz Kai and company at Mandai after their Night Safari thingy.
I didn't go though >):
HAHAHAHAH! But I told them I would if my boyf goes with me.
(That is, if I have one lah!)

Anyway, met them and we took a cab down to Mandai camp area. Which was effing ulu lor! And told the driver to let us off deep inside near the camp. ZZZ.
The driver actually refused to. Saying it's dangerous, very quiet etc. Dangerous as in later we see weird stuffs lah! Not kenna rape or what because, NO ONE GOES THERE. And because I was begging the driver not to. SIAO! I scared leh!!!!!

But we end up getting down the cab. And walked all the way down while scaring one another.
Lucky for Shuwen, Xuanlin and Vera who have got their boyf(s) with them.
While I am only left with Brandon, Sherry and Qi yang and Tsz Kai. Which actually equals to no one.
Booo hooo.

And all the way inside was 28 degrees!!!!

But overall it was pretty fun lah. And the night was peaceful >:)

I wanna drink KOI and try gong cha lehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
byebye

The first time I talked to you,

I knew you wouldn't be just a friend to me.

And the second time I talked to you,
I confirmed it.

The more I miss you, the more you dislike me.

Desperate girls

I am super irritated when I see girls being all so despo for a guy.
Especially when they get all weak just because of a guy. (K, I don't deny. I do become pretty weak sometimes BUT I AM NOT AT ALL DESPO FOR A GUY OK!)

I mean, those kind like you get super paranoid and go "please, I really need you in my life" "don't go"
"I can't live without you" kind of thing.
YEAH, STFU. YOU CAN.

I see many girls who are very strong in the sense, those kind of fierce/stubborn girls become weakling with the guys they like.
Like the guys asks them to do stuffs and they go all "okok. yes sir. woof woof" (k, sorry. I added A liiiiiiittle exaggeration here)

But true what. I cannot stand it when girls go begging or going all so paranoid.
(I am sometimes paranoid but not to an extent!)
They will ask where the guy all sorts of questions.

Where are you?
Who you with?
Who is she?
What you all doing now?
Why you suddenly reply so slow. Is it you flirting with her and don't want me already?
How you know her?
Why I never hear you talking about her before?
and so on...

WHO IS HER MOTHER.
WHO DID HER MUM FUCK?
WHY YOU NEVER ASK ME ALONG?

Want to ask her what colour shirt she wearing not?
And if her boobies are bigger than yours??? So he can attract him more than you can?

-_-

Then he may ask for a break up. And worst part is, he asked it not because he doesn't love you anymore but because you are starting to freak him out.
Sooner or later, he's gonna think that you're a desperate irritating freak and run awayyyyy from you.

Not trying to scare you.
But if  I am irritated and other girls are, don't you think the guy himself will feel even more??

Or some may even go to an extend of begging guys to return to them. (Those guys usually broke up because they don't have feelings anymore. Not for all though. BUT MOST)

"today, I slit my hand" (go on, post it on facebook let whole world sees it and hopefully, he will come back to you) What if he does? You think he's coming back because he loves you? NO WAYYYY.
It was only out of pity or guilt.

If he likes you, he will come to you. If he doesn't, no point begging for him to stay. Girls should really stop being so despo for guys.

With all the "I can't live without you" 

OH PLEASEEEEEEEEEE

Can girls stop being so desperate??!!

YOU ARE SCARING GUYS AWAY AND MAKING EVERYONE AROUND YOU FEEL SO IRRITATED! AND I AM BOTHERED ABOUT IT BECAUSE YOU. ARE AFFECTING ME AS WELL!

:@

Don't go and beg guys please, I beg you.

Why are you so desperate for guys?

I really don't understand. It's like. We can live without sex. We can party, shop and all. WHAO! SO GOOOOD! But guys can't! THEY HAVE TO HAVE SEX!

So they need, us, girls!

Would ya stop being so desperate??!?!?!

“As we drifted apart, I was becoming more desperate to save what we once had shared; like a vicious circle, however, my desperation made us drift apart even further.”

—	Nicholas Sparks, Dear John

So you still cannot live without him????????

GO JUMP LAH!

ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

Slept till 1PM today. Bad bad bad!
Yesterday morning was pretty good for me.

A guest from Thailand told Theo that she was beautiful and asked both of us to take a picture with him.
Anyway, the thing that made my morning good was that I saw Leon!!!!! heheheheh.

Because I had my fringe pinned up so I looked different.
So he tilted his head and looked at me trying to recognize me and while he did that, I tilted my head to the same side as he did. (DK why I did that. Natural reaction.) Then he laughed and smiled to me.

Awwww prawnnyyyyyyyy.

Then saw Ah xiang during lunch. He super noob lah! And called for my help. HAHAHAHAH! Effing funny.
Then he called rabbit.
"Eh rabbit! what is the password!!! I beside your wife now!"

Leon: You very daring.
Ah Xiang: Ni hen da dan leh!! (you very daring leh!)

K, anyway, all of a sudden, I became rabbit's wife.
And ah xiang kept calling me "da sao.."
ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

Gonna go NP soon!!!!!
Sooooo long since I went there.

BYEBYE!

When C and C comes together

Clarence: u should publish a book u know ^^  u could get rich
Charman: I know ^^

(WOAH! I CAN'T STAND MYSELF SOMETIMES! HA HA HA!)

I needa rant somewhere. But not on twitter because I don't wanna spam people's homepage.

BUT WHY MUST GUYS BE SUCHA ASSHOLES!!! :@
ok, girls too but the culprits today are guys.

Why you all so annoyingggggg.
Those whom I am close to always make me frustrated and those whom I don't know well always gets me on my nerves!
WL! FUCK YOU ALL LAH!!!!!!

Aiya. I don't wanna elaborate! BUT GUYS ARE MAJOR ANNOYINGTARDS!!!! :@

Since I have said all these,
CAN SOMEONE BE MY GIRLF PLEASE?? >;)

ANNOYING GUYS! I DON'T WANNA REPLY/CONTACT ANYONE ALREADY!

We played hide and seek and scare each other in one of Orchard's office building

Last night was funnnnnnnnn!!!!
Though I didn't see Leon and Zeke but it's ok! (Anyway I kindof miss Zeke and I guess I owe him an apology for throwing all the shits to him after he helped me)

Was a pretty mean girl yesterday. HAHAHHA.
k, anyway, had fun in the night playing hide an seek in office building @Orchard and also scaring each other.
Did some flag raising with the curtains too. okok, I know I needa grow up.
BUT SOOOOOO WHAT! I AM HAVING FUN! 

We hid under the table at the the level where the GM office is.

Captain: Where the girls ah?

Helper: Maybe they go toilet lah...

Me (who is under the table) : BOO!

Captain: *jumps*

I saw him jump! And it kinda shocked me when he jumped. HAHAHHA!

Headed to ballroom after that and there was a wild party going on.

Scared the shit out of me.

So I witnessed Yanting doing some retarded dace. Effing funny.

Bus-ed back to cck and trained to yewtee to meet Nicholas for Supper. And I bought my cup noodle!! ^^

I tell you, go with eat one supper with him can cause me a lot of harassment!

Saw so many people he knew, we practically have to stop like every where for him to say "hai" to them.

And he ended up being pestered and I started have textes from unknown contacts in my inbox.

Irritating only. And I tell you, those messages received and questions asked very TYPICAL one.

"where you stay?" "what school?" "how old?" "single or attached"

ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

Reached home @1am sharp.

And enjoyed my maggie before going to bed. YUM YUMZZZZ!!

Have been seeing/making friends? with many people recently. Like last night @ Supper.

And god, thank you for Leon. If not for him, I wouldn't even know who I am mixing with.

I just found out those rabbit etc and all were from gangs and also, the one whom I met and ended up texting with was previously from gangs.

OH MAN!!!! WHY ALL FROM GANGS ONE! CAN'T I MAKE A SINGLE DECENT FRIEND WHO IS NICE, FUN TO BE WITH AND COOL?!?!

HUHHUHUHHUHUHHUHH!!

Ok, but Leon seems like my portable contact directory. HAHAH! I just have to ask him, you know who is (name)? and he'll tell me who are they and I will know who I am currently mixing with.

Not to bad huh! HAHAHA!

k. enough crapping.

I should stop hanging out with guys and stop being a mean bitch already!

But horrr, Nicolas is the only currently attached guy I meet leh! Plus I don't text him at all. 

okok, I know. Still, I should stand in his girlf's shoe. OKOK.

(Anyway, I think his current girlf is POWER (Y) Like she's the first girl who can really get hold of him. heheh! Don't tell you what I'm talking about!!)

RANDOMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM!

Smile

because things will always be ok. You can manage the pain. Didn't I proved to you what I've said? 

:)

Believe and have faith.

Today is my very first time getting angry and really scolding a junior without laughing.

>:@

Busy day tomorrow. Don't wanna go school! But really wanna see all of the people from my class leh! Grrrr!

Shall report to L tomorrow!!!!!!! 

cho eggxited for tomorrow!!!!

I will miss my class >):

Was talking to Minjiang and Theo about the Haze last Saturday while the band fall in and Minjiang told us this.
Minjiang: you know at the press conference, the indo said when they gave us fresh air we were not grateful. Then they there's haze we complain.

I totally LOL-ed. I didn't know Singapore had artificial trees which cannot photosynthesis. And I didn't know that they were the one who provides us air. So how much do we pay every year for the air huh????
And Malaysia, you buy air from Indonesia too??
ZZZ.

K peace please.
No war k!

Haikal is forever an ass.


OFF TO BAND AND TO GIVE FREE C.LUCKY HUGS!
BYEBYE!!!!!

Bad night

Last night wasn't fun for me.

Met 2 girls who were such sluts. Talk a lot only. 

Got so angry, I ended up shouting at them.

Don't wanna think about it already. Make me hot only.

Thank you Zeke for covering up for me, helping me and asking me to chill.

Zeke: must you stoop to that level?

And thanks for condoning me when I threw tantrums.

ha ha ha.

Zeke: Boss. She throwing tantrums uh

I remember him saying this a few days ago.

Zeke: Just now she ask me where is Leon leh.

Me: Nooooo! Because I wanted to ask him somethingggg.

Renjie: she is my friend's girlf lah.

Zeke: and you know what the question was?

Renjie: what.

Zeke: She told me she wanted to ask Leon "Leon.. you like me or not huh?"

Me: WTF! NO LOR!!!!!

Renjie: cannot. she is rabbit's girlf

Anyway, Zeke thinks that Rabbit is my boyf and I like Leon.

RAWRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.

Walked past the hall the past few days and noticed that the chairs and tables were all being positioned and placed properly for O levels.
Then thought to myself "things are gonna be different after Os"

I mean, I won't be seeing the Sec4 express batch anymore!
People like Zhengyong, Zhiming, Yingda, Daryl, Bojiang, Lynette, Zhexi, Shihan and so on.
So gonna miss them. Those random chats we have in school and Zhiming plus Zhengyong always asking
"you ok not?", "you still together with..?" "got study not" etc.

I will so surely miss them! Of course! We grew up together in this secondary school, joined band and overcame so many obstacles.

Not forgetting the sec5s like Jingyin, Zhengyuan, Wenbin, Leon and Recruit (he wanted me to add him in! So typical of him lor.)
And many others who helped me during my N level.

School will be so quiet without them.
Those familiar faces and all.

Grrrrrrrrrrr. WL! I cannot help thinking of all these!! They're gonna be out of school automatically after Os!
But I should stop.

And all the best for your O levels!!!!
Will miss you guys!

Gonna go out nowwwww.

Section breakfast today. So not used to waking up so early in the morning.
Plus the fact that now my body clock is spoiled?!?!?!?
I can only sleep at 4am and I have to wake up before 12 if not my parents will start nagging and all those stuffs again. THEN POOF!!!!! there goes my day. Ruined.

Kenneth came back to band today. Gotta let you know he is a totally changed person lor.
He uses vulgarities now like in almost every sentence. And he is so much nicer to the juniors. TSK.
People do change. Then, everything changes.

chatted with Yanting for awhile then shushia and rushed home.
Went for service while theo and shia went for Acts 1 bbq and yanting, idk.
So after service, met up with tina and friends for awhile. LIKE AFTER SO LONGGGGGGGGG.

Headed to Nicole's place with Brandon to meet Sherry and company after dinner.
Was super boliao, Watched some indian show which was super funny for a start but I don't like it.
LASTED FOR 3 HOURS!!!!! gawddddd.
So read my book instead while they watched.

Watched 1 other movie and now,
I am, blogging.

I FEEL SO HYPED UP NOW! IDK WHY BUT I FEEL SO ENERGIZED EVERY NIGHT! OHMAN! MY BODY CLOCK IS SCREWEDDDDDDDDD!

"When a guy is away from his girl, all he wants is his girl's trust. But on the girl's part, all she needs is his loyalty" 


So trueeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

Anyway, I have band tomorrow and I gotta go sleep!
But before that, gonna feed myself cereal with milk! I just picked up this habit of eating milk with cereal each night before I go to bad.
Why? It helps me sleep better without thinking too much.

I wonder why you wanna spoil the perfect impression I have of you. Why can't you just let me remember you as someone perfect. Why did you went to spoil it. Why can't you just let me think that it's me who have lost....
I don't mind. I just don't wanna remember you as someone so fugly.

Sometimes you have to distance yourself from certain people not because you don’t love them, its because you have to move forward with your life.

Last night

Good to be drunk once in a while. Where you have the guts to do things you don't. And have the courage to say things you have been wanting to..

Because at some point of time when you're really awake, you really wanted to do those.

Was being separated from Rabbit (No I do not like him!) and Leon yesterday.

And out of boredom, I went to drink.

Zeke caught me drinking :X

Then he was like you know how to drink? 

Yeah...of course I know how to drink.. (If you get what I mean)

HAHHAAH.

THEO!! Zeke is pronounced as ZEEK.

NOT ZI KE! LOL!!!!

K, so shortly after that, I was out of my mind.

Started crying and saying I miss someone. Did I shout????? I think I did? Idk.

Then Can't really remember but was told that I cried and laughed at the same time. ZZZ.

So reached lot and had Brandon, Sherry and Lynn waiting for me.

Idk why they know that I was drunk leh? I forgot.

So Lynn and sherry tried to wake me up??

Then Brandon called my dad to pick me a bus stop and they sent me home.

LOL. Thanks for covering up for me in front of my dad eh!

They told my dad that it was late and I was sleepy so they sent me home. HAHAHAHAH!

Thanks to Rabbit and Isabelle who kept asking me to cheer up.

Remembered the last time when I was drunk, you cared for me.

This time? ha ha ha....

Anyway, I shall go to school tomorrow for the interclass game!!!!! It's gonna cheer me up! YAY!

I know I’ve made a lot of stupid mistakes. But the worst one was 
thinking the person who hurt me the most, wouldn’t hurt me again.
“— Dawson’s Creek

Time for you to keep those panties of yours untwisted

you should know that when I feel hurt too much, I will stop and get up and fight

As much as I'd like to say I don't care
I do.
I do and I and I tuck the feelings away so that you don’t see.
So that you don’t see how much you really hurt me.

Went to school today as I have promised Fatin.
But no way I am gonna go tomorrow!!

My stomach is giving me problems again since Sunday. Maybe it's due to irregular eating hours?????
IDK! ):
Feel so sick the whole of today.

So went to school and managed to finish reading half of my book.
Stayed back for band. (YES, I FINALLY WENT BACK!!)
Been long since I've got my lips swollen.. and I really dislike my sound now >):

So today, was totally boring and tiring for me. Felt so uncomfortable. Idk what's wrong with my stomach.
It automatically rejects food. So like after eating a few spoonful of food, my stomach will hurt and I will feel nauseous.

But on a better note, I'll be seeing Leon, darren and a few others tomorrow!!!!! MUAHAHHAHAHAHA!

All of a sudden,

I wanna start all over again.

Have everyone forget about my past, who I was with and just create a whole new impression.

I wanna forget about who I was, what I did and who I was with.

I don't want someone to judge me from my past.

I don't wanna cling on to my past.

Let me restart?

BUSY ME, LIKE A BUSY BEE!

Finally decided to go to school tomorrow. Because I miss Fatin a lot! Not forgetting Azura, Hani, Ilyas, Frank, Fiq of course!!!!

Anyway, have been really busy recently thus, lack of updates.
Got to know some new friends(?) recently. Darren, Leon, Isabelle, Ren jie, and a few others, I forgot their name.
Home late for the past few days and I always have CID officers sitting just outside my door.

So yesterday, out of a sudden I became Rabbit's (darren) girlf??!?!?
ZZZ! Then everyone were teasing us. SIAO LIAO!

Reached home, showered and talked on th phone with L till 4am and couldn't get up for school.

met Evan in the afternoon and coincidentally saw many other people like Hester, Keby etc.
Chatted with Evan and went home.

Can't wait for Wenesdayyyyyyyyy! Gonna see some people again! heheheh :P

And I feel really blessed to have L, Brandon and PI to entertain me all th way till I reached every late night!
HEHEHHEHE!

The worst thing is loving someone when you know you shouldn’t anymore. It’s caring about someone, wondering how they are and what they’re up to when the truth is they’ve stopped wondering about you a long time ago. The worst thing is remembering every single detail of your relationship when he’s obviously long forgotten about you. The worst thing is missing him so much when he doesn’t even bother that you’re gone. It is feeling the same as you ever did, even though you know you shouldn’t, because

he doesn’t anymore.

Here’s to the ones that took him back, hoping that maybe this time, he was different, hoping that maybe things will change. We listened to our friends tell us that we were stupid for even thinking about giving him another chance, were told off by teachers and were warned and even snuck around to see him for while. 
We went through the great stage with no fights all over again. 
We started this out thinking we would be just friends, and ended up falling in love with him again. We wanted nothing more in the world than to hear him tell us he loved us too, that even though things were bad in the past, they would be different this time. And when we finally heard it, it was like we were dreaming. 

We believed what he said, sat around all over again waiting for a phone call that might come in a few hours, or a few days. Here’s for the tears cried and dried all over again. We wanted so desperately to believe that he was really busy, he couldn’t possibly call us at that moment, or even that he fell asleep early. We trained ourselves to believe the lies because we wanted to believe we had found the one for us. We wanted him so much but end up having our hearts broken and cried all over again

I will be fine.

Was at Palm Gardens for the whole day.
Talked about you and suddenly, tears flowed down my cheeks.

Because sometimes if you act like you’re okay, you start to believe it (even if for the slightest moment), too.

The higher you build walls around your heart, the harder you fall when someone tears them down.

In case you were wondering, you were everything to me

But I guess things were different for you. And letting go is the thing I have to do.
As....

Have been going to town like almost everyday.

So headed to town again yesterday and went home pretty late.
Took bus to panjang and lrt back to cck.
Then realized that train and bus service have already ended!!!!!
Waited for Brandon to come and Daniel came along. Brandon bought milk and sandwich for me because he knew that I haven't had  my dinner! >:D
XIEXIENI!

HAHAHAHAH. I wanted to get on his bike so I told him I am tired and showed him the blisters on my feet and he allowed me to sit on his bike and eat. HAHAHAHAHHA.
But we end up taking a cab to the busstop at my place while we left Daniel alone with the bikes.
I WANTED TO TRY RIDING LOR!!! BUT HE DIDN'T ALLOW!!!! >):

So anyway, I reached home safely and went to the public bin at my level to throw the empty milk package and sandwich package. To see two guys squatting there. Got so shocked and daddy came out to check what happened.......... CIDs in special operation.
Was 2AM, when people were supposed to be in bed. And there they were, squatting there.
*salutes*

Went to Fosters for lunch today then headed to town. (yes, again -.-)
home and showered, dinner at grandp's place and trained to yewtee to meet Brandon.
Weather was super hot and I was super bored.
So told him I was thirsty and I wanted to drink something.
Went back to yewtee and bought plain water. And while walking back to void,

Charman: the weather need chill!!!!!!
Brandon: haha, yeah.
Charman: *drinks a sip of water* woah. you know plain water is really good. very refreshing.
Brandon: Soft drink better..
Charman: NO LOR! I THINK PLAIN WATER BETTER. YOU KNOW PLAIN WATER CAN HELP YOU FEEL REFRESHED IN OTHER WAYS BUT SOFT DRINKS CANNOT?!?! You wanna know how???? *smiles*
Brandon: how?
Charman: *pours water on him*
Brandon: damn.

HAHAHHAHAAH! Then Sherry, Yang yi and Manpoh came.
Slacked for awhile and left to meet Edori and rest while I went home.

I am sorry I didn't appear in court today. But so what if I did? Would the results be different? 
In the end, I'll still be leaving the court with a heavy heart. If you don't know how I feel, just know, I still believe in you.

Can't want for tomorrowwww????

We'll both sing us each a new song

What I wanted to do, was believe in you.

Will blog later. Gonna have lunch at Fosters!

the reason people find it so hard to be happy is that they always see the past better than it was, the present worse than it is, and the future less resolved than it will be.

— marcel pagnol

My Recruit II

Gonna go out soon but I shall dedicate another post for my recruit again before going out! And if I am late, it's because of this!! SO RECRUIT! YOU! SHOULD FEEL VERYYYY GUILTY!!!

ok, If you don't know who is this recruit I am talking about here, it's the one I once blogged about
http://chharmanchh.blogspot.com/2010/09/my-recruit.html

And the day before I had my chem paper, He kept asking me if I needed help, kept sending me pointers for chemisty thorugh textes.

Recruit was super nice to go "dig" out all his chem books and notes so that he could lend them to me.
And he insisted that I should meet him so that he could teach me....
he didn't mind skipping school to meet me in th morning so that he could teach me chem as well...
k, I was really happy to have a recruit like him..

CAUSE HE IS SO NOBLE WORHXZXZXXZX.


BUT GUESS WHAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!






"I went to find all my books and took them out so I don't want to put them back! :@"

Set yourself free

You don't need anyone to set you free :)

YOU, can set yourself free.

Let go.

I'll be happy

Went out with Theo, Shushia and Yanting today.
Theo looks very feminine for the first time this year! MUAHAHAHAHH!

Guy: so you guys 13 or 14??
Theo, Shia and Ting looks at me: Your hair lah!
All: We're 16!!!

went home then after for dinner and headed out again.
Supposed to meet Sherry but she was late!! So waited for her with Brandon and 107 made me go home!! :@
FEEL SO CHEATED BECAUSE HE WAS NOT HOME WHEN I GOT HOME!!

So I didn't become a stay home girl today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! >:D
Which makes me a happy girl!!!!!!!!!

And I'll be a happy girl for the next few days too!!
So before I go and become busy girl, I give you some photos!! As a lot of you have been asking. But I do not have any new photos leh!

I GIVE YOU THESE!!!
WHEN MY BANGXZ GREWWW

hehehehehh, life has been getting better for me!

Life will get better, just believe :)

And last but not least, I present to you this

that theo showed me!

HAHAHAHHAHAHAH! 

Boy: I broke up with her.

His Best Friend: What happened?

Boy: She’s just too much for me.

His Best Friend: What makes you say that? What did she do wrong?

Boy: Well, for one.. She only cared about her appearance. Always had to look good, always took forever to get dressed!

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she wanted to keep your eyes locked on her? She wanted you to see that you have the prettiest girl under your sleeve and not think otherwise? I see..

Boy: Oh.. Well.. She’d often call me or text me asking where I am, who I’m with, telling me not to smoke, not to drink. She’s so clingy!

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she cares about your well being? Because she cares about you a lot? And her greatest fear is losing you. I see..

Boy: But.. Uhh.. Well, she’d always cry when I say something slightly mean. She can’t handle anything. She’s a crybaby!

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she has feelings? And because she just wanted to hear you say you love her? I see..

Boy: I.. Well! You know, she’d get jealous easily. I could barely talk to other girls! She’s so annoying! I had to hide it from her so she wouldn’t bitch about it.

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she just wanted you to commit to her? She thought you were faithful, but you lied so she could find out later and hurt even more? She just wanted the guy she loves the most to love only her. I see..

Boy: Well, she..

His Best Friend: You broke up with her because she’s good for you? She just wanted the best for you? She’s broken now because you were selfish. Are you proud?

Boy: I broke her heart.. Because I couldn’t see what was happening.. What happened to me?

His Best Friend: You lost the girl that loved you like no one else could. You see? You didn’t want her when all she ever wanted was you. THAT’S what happened.

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Think about it, when she’s too much for you.. She just wants the best for you. Because to her YOU’RE the best. If you don’t like something, talk to her about it. You mean so much to her. Don’t just give up. Don’t just leave because you want the easy way out.

BORING MONDAY

I am feeling so bored. My friends are out and I'm at home. I have nothing to do!!!! >):

Should I go and work with M? Flyer distribution? 8/hr.

Not bad for flyer distribution leh!!!!!

K, I am mad bored right now.

The thought of my friends enjoying themselves makes me more bored!!!

OH MAN, SOMEONE, ASK ME OUT!!!!!

Looks like I'm gonna be a stay home girl today.

Luckily, 107 found some streams so I can finish my GG.

BYEEEEE

Have been going out so much lately.
Was supposed to attend a private function by Lynn but I decided to head home because I have no money >):
It's ok! Money is not everything anyway.
I rather have no money but good friends and boyf around!

Met up with Sherry, Brandon and Edori and had a crazy time before they head to the function and went home.


Hello people!
Today is 101010!! And many people are getting "10 10 10 10" *wedding song melody*
MARRIED!!! Mummy had to choose between 3 weddings to go to and in there was 13 on going wedding in Church. LOL.
Get married today doesn't mean that you'll have a very blessed wedding whattttt.

GMH

Last year my daughter went up to my father and said "Grampy, when will you stop smoking?" 
He didn't know what to say. So he said "I'll stop when you stop drinking bottles." 
So she went to the kitchen and took all her bottles and put them in the garbage.
To this day my father hasn't touched a cigarette again. She GMH and saved my father.

Going Insane

I'M MIND FUCKED AND SOON I'LL BE GOING INSANE. I DO NOT WANT TO END UP LIKE THOSE CRAZY WOMAN ON THE STREETS OUT THERE. HOW TO STOP. I CAN'T STOP THINKING. MAKES ME SO ANGRYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY.

HUNGRY ME

I am like getting hungry every once in a while.
AND I DON'T KNOW WHY! I HAD MY DINNER AND I'M STILL HUNGRYYYYYYY!
Is there something wrong with me? ahahah.

It's not like the depression thing I had previously when I don't wanna eat and have no mood to and all.
Now I am feeling hungry every few minutes!!! Even after a very filling dinnerrrrrr.

OH MY GAWDDDDDDDDDDDDD!!!


SO, SOMEONE TAKE ME TO SUSHI, ITALIAN OR MEXICAN BUFFET PLEASEEE????

So much...

So much for saying "I don't like to text" and you end up texting someone else.

So much for saying how much I've hurt you when I am the one hurting while you're out enjoying yourself.

So much for saying you realized it's still me. When all along it was still she.

So much for everything you've told me.

So at the end of the day after saying those, who paid for th price?

Me.

Shopping keeps me sane

Went to FEP today.

OH YES, I WENT TO CUT MY HAIR AGAIN!

HAHAHHA!

And it looks super kuku, many people couldn't recognize me which is good!! 

Kinda looks like my sec2 hair style (with spikes) just that it's longer and fringe is much much muchhhh shorter.

HEY. THE TWO GUYS THERE, ARE MY FRIENDS. LOL

So I spent all my money and I'm officially BANKRUPT! 


Gonna wait for my allowance........................................................................................

Went home for dinner after that and went back to lot.
AND BORROWED BOOKS.

LOL. I think both theo and I are crazy lor.
N level over already then we start loving to read. HAHAHAHHAHAHA!

Before sin came, there was no such thing called shame

going out now and I blog later. I am feeling better right now :)

Because I found out......................................................................................
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that I don't want tell you lehhhhhh! :P

3 more days to gooooooooo!

HELLO PEOPLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

I am very very happy cause my N levels are going to be over in 3 days time!!!!!!

I'm not that excited though. Reason being that the school's exam will be ending on the same day.

Which means that I've got no chance to show off that my exams are over.

And that I have no $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$ which means no shopping, eating, playing!!

And thus, it'll be a boring time for me.

*sighs*

Alright, I should seriously stop thinking about it in case I make it worse.

I feel so.......................................................disheartened

>):

Anyway, went out on Saturday for service and headed to JP with Theo and studied at Burger king.

Was super productive and I really enjoyed studying on Saturday!!

Home at 9PM then saw Brandon who was waiting for me at MRT station. LIKE SO RANDOM -.-

So sat with him for awhile got very tired and ran away from himmmmmmm. HAHAHAH!

Reached home to realize that Bro ran away from home again. (SO GONNA BLOG ABOUT THIS!!)

Went to IMM on Sunday, studied at MOS burger. And I ate a lot. LIKE SERIOUSLY! AAHAHHA

Why are food so niceeeeeeee!

Then I got bored of eating fries and decided to assemble them like this....

Having this image in mind

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HAHAHAHAH! They are in the Jacuzzi of red seaaaaaaa.

Idk why but I just thought of that name. HEHEHHE

And so, for the past 2 weeks, I've been receiving lots of gifts..

Doggy phone chain and name stickers. With chipmunk printed on it. Which was suppose to cheer me up but WHY CHIPMUNK!!!! 

Wrong image!

And yogurt from Clarence, Chocolate from Enze.. 

Some other gifts.

This box was from my girls! HEHEH!

With yakult and cookies inside.

Our photos and letters behind each photo!

THANK YOU PEOPLE!!!!!
But I'm alright! >:D


So, everyone is talking about MM LKY's wife passing away..
And most of us know that MM Lee was holding on because of his wife.
Now she's gone,...
Is it still Onwards Singapore???