It ends tonight.

bear with me people.
this is gonna be a super long post(i think?)
and a little emo one..
it strucked me when i was looking at th sea.

cause -everyone is feeling th hurt.

have you
ever had that moment when you're so happy with something and den you take a closer look and it's not there anymore?
ever had someone tell you that your relationship is gonna last for forever yet it's gone?
ever had a happy moment with someone and next you found out that it was all a lie?
ever seen a beautiful butterfly grow up and die?
(P.s. of course it includes any animal)
lemme tell you people something.
whether it's perfect, beautiful, trustworthy or not,
it'll be gone.
had a brand new computer, phone or a bike which you loved a lot?
ever had it broken down and repaired but it'll still be gone?

i've seen many relationship come and go.
you may patch back but you won't move.
cry for it as hard as you could but it won't return.
tried to die for it from 53447635985 story high and it still won't budge.
wait for him/her for 100 of years but it won't return.
People are selfish you see,
they just say "i've lost th feeling go" and go.

i've seen family members come and go.
my great grandma for example.
she's good(:
she waited for me to come into this world and live till 14 before she go.
but some, they just go on because they didn't want to suffer.
whether it's because of financial issues or because they lost their love.
they just move on to heaven or hell.
leaving their kids behind as they cry.
some just walk out with some other people whom they have affairs with and leave their family to die.
they didn't think much.
they'll just say "i've tried. i'm tired. and i have found this new guy/girl which i like. so goodbye"

dead or alive, selfish or not, peple just come and go.
take my word of advice.
cherish what you have now because nothing last.

flames to dust,
lovers to friends.
living to non-living,
everything ends.

even th longest river on earth has an end.
life and death, it'll end.
why is it so?
blame th earth.
because it's a circle.
draw a circle and it'll end.
somewhere, somehow no matter how big th circle is,.
nothing last.

this is for my dear jieqi, timothy and leqi.
take your time.
step out and see.
th world is full of lies.
but don't see th dark side.
th sun comes up every morning to tell you it's a new day.
take time to love it.
why?
because it's a brand new day.
let nature heal.
you'll be a much stronger, sensitive person.
you be able to lose with pride and a smile on your face, not a grieve of a child.
you stand tall, look up because you know that there'll be a new start.
with every goodbye you learn.
i'll be there(:

recipes for you.
change your focus.
on something else.
not him/her nor yourself.
oppseh.
i meant, do it for yourself and bring joy to others.
work and studies solves everything(:
(i hope?)

i've been receving lots and loads of comment on my previous post in msn, in th phone and by th mouth!
(talking abt my intresting post! duh!) :0
heyyya!
thanks people.
i'm so much a happier person now.
(:
i loveeeeeeee to be happy!
happy memememememeeee.
but it didn't last for long.
like now >D:

anyway, batam seriously sucks! >*()@$^&*%^@*%&()^*#)^&&*$%&@
th standard seriously drop!
like 469072578235724 times okk!
i'm not kidding.
didn't take photos becuz i didn't want to stay there for long.
so went to city more often.
everyone got hurt thanks to th swimming pool.
we were playing happily in th pool when all of a sudden!..
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We found out that th pool was infested with lots of dead mosquitoes!
omgomg!
talking abt that.
there could be a large chance of us being bitten by dengue mosquitoes!!
goodness gracious me! = walau!(corrected by mr yoong)
but luckily, we survived from th mosquitoes sharp nose/mouth,
wherever they used to sting us.
but!
we were being cut all over!
they were cracks in th pool!
*points finger*

i seriously seriously miss clubmed and bintan more than this digusting *(^@#$&*%)_* OLD batam "resort"

need me to give you th defination of resort?!
it's a place to relax not a place to play catching with mosquitoes!

hi-heeeeeeeee-ho-haw!
lemme show you something that i got from my parents last night!
super shock like omg!
i have never ever complained to them abt my current darling because i love it and i didn't think it needs a change nor have i ever told them i wanted a new one but..
they bought it for me!!

*drops jaws*
*opens throats*

SAMSUNG S7330, touch screen!
okk.
i'm being sarcastic.
i'll still be using my darling precious at th same time.

tho th back keeps dropping off and i have to use th tape.
because i seriously hate samsung.
just shocked they they bought it for me.
and my bro!
sudden change of decision, like being possessed.
choosed th damn lousy sony phone w91oi not his dream phone htc diamond.
which was being complained by so many friends of mine.
DUMB choice..
dumb choiceee..
right Zhiying? :P
dumb!

going to dinner soon.
mummum(:

the littlest things that take me there;
i know it sounds lame but its so true;
i know its not right, but it seems unfair;
that the things are reminding me of you;
sometimes i wish we could just pretend;
even if for only one weekend;
so come on, tell me this isn't the end?