IMAGINING DEFEAT

"She woke me up at dawn,
her suitcase like a little brown dog at her heels.

I sat up and looked out the window
at the snow falling in the stand of blackjack trees.

A bus ticket in her hand.

Then she brought something black up to her mouth,
a plum I thought, but it was an asthma inhaler.

I reached under the bed for my menthols
and she asked if I ever thought of cancer.

Yes, I said, but always as a tree way up ahead
in the distance where it doesn't matter

And I suppose a dead soul must look back at that tree,
so far behind his wagon where it also doesn't matter.

except as a memory of rest or water.

Though to believe any of that, I thought,
you have to accept the premise

that she woke me up at all."
 —  David Berman, "Imagining Defeat"

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"I tried to forget but you grew roots around my ribcage and sprouted flowers just below my collarbones  all day i pluck their petals  but i have not yet ascertained  whether you love me or not"

Update: Work and work and lots of going back to Swiss

I've been going back to Swiss a lot lately because I've been rather free this holiday without any chalets to attend nor did I go overseas.

And how can my favorite Fish beehoon be missed out when I go back to Swiss! So I've been going back every Tuesday since 2 weeks ago for my fish beehoon ^^ Talking about it now makes me wanna have it.

Last Thursday, Friday, Saturday and Sunday were all spent at FEP in my shop from afternoon to night because Chloe went overseas for her sourcing trip.

And on Friday before work, I took on another job for a campaign with Shaun and Fiona and had fun working ^^ I think it's the best job I've gotten so far because my job makes people happy.

Then we headed to FEP for chicken rice for lunch and I opened my shop early and both of them stayed in my shop for an hour or so before leaving for their individual business for the rest of the day.

People from the other shops told me that Chloe has sold her shop which actually means I'm gonna lose my job in a month's time but I've got no idea why Chloe isn't telling me anything at all :/ 

Not that I won't be able to find another job because the boss of the shop beside my shop (shall not mention shop name here) has asked me to work for her a month ago and gave me her number to contact her once Chloe closes the shop.

Still, I don't know about working in another shop which is on the same level and same corridor as this current shop I'm working in.

I'll miss the counter and my shop, I'll miss taking my shoe off whenever I go to work in slippers and I'll miss blasting the music when I'm bored. I'll miss everything about working at The Only Place :/ 

On Friday, the boss of Charmax decided to order 10 bowls of green bean soup and gave us each a bowl! This is one of the main reason why I want to stay and work at FEP at the same level/corridor as long as I can till I graduate. Everyone is just so nice and fun to be with even though we're from different shops.

In a blink of an eye, it's Friday again. I've got no idea what I did this week man. All I know is a huge part of it consist of going to band and on Tuesday was with Joshua and we spent almost the whole day together and ended our day chatting with our juniors at mac from 6pm+ all the way till almost 11pm.


Argh, gotta sleep. Don't know if I should go back to band tmr. My 2nd bank account is now left a single digit. WTF.

I will update this space, I promise. Last week was crazy and I sold my weekends to earn myself extra money. This week might be the same too. Oh wellz. I have driving lesson tomorrow. Good night.

Heaven's trying to help me forget your name.

Back here to say I haven't forgotten about my blog yet. I've got tones of things to blog about but not this week... MY SCHEDULE IS JAMMED PACK THIS WEEK! No kidding.

Since Monday, I've been leaving home in the afternoon like 12pm and reaching home like 10pm or later in the night. Then I'll be just lying on bed, chatting up with people or randomly tweeting till I manage to fall asleep like 3/4am in the morning. And the cycle goes on.

Just on Monday, I made an effort to wake up early to prepare and get ready before Saiful and Shaun came and pick me up. Went to IMM and settled some stuffs, then bought lunch and headed over to Saiful's new apartment for the lighting man to come and fix the lights.
After that, we went Sembawang then to Vivo and had a session of skype in the car with Theo while on our way there. Shopped a little then left for Juntion10 and Saiful treated Shaun and I to Porn's. Then Saiful drove us home after.

HAHAHAHHAHA.
Anyway, so last night, slept at 4am, then woke up early this morning and got ready to head back to Swiss! Met Shaun and had my fav fish beehoon ^^ then headed to the bandroom for awhile before going to Yanting's place for Steamboat dinner with my girls!!

Tomorrow is gonna be another day spent out.
Going to Queensway and Ikea...
Thursday would be taken up for work at FEP
Friday would be surprise celebration for my mum
Sat and Sun would be work at Fair.

Gawd, next week I shall only go out on 2 days and leave the rest for me to catch up with my sleep, pack my room and just have some self reflecting/"myself" time alone at home.

Need to try to sleep.
GOOD NIGHT!

WORRY KEPT ME AWAKE

The past one week I've been in a daze.
The thoughts and worries kept me awake.
If you've eaten, if you've rested. If you needed someone, if you're tired.

Check the time, it was 3am, I had papers the next day I wanted sleep, I wished my countless worries would end.

Woke up the next day early in the morn, I headed to school though I'm tired I know still, I must move on.

It was torture, it was such a chore. Why does my mind choose to worry about someone who doesn't care at all.

I wanted sleep I wanted not to bother. Then on Monday, I finally stopped worrying I thought I could sleep better; but I was wrong my night didn't get easier.

I woke up every one hour later. The nightmares that woke me up wasn't even scary at all. You were in it and I could guess why it woke me up after all. Seems like I didn't let go at all. But that's not the truth, I know it's not. You're not the one I want after I sorted out my thoughts.

I guess I was just missing my good friend. The one I knew before he became another man.

Scared I'll be torn apart by a wolf in mask of a name I know so well that has been kept in my heart.

I just want to sleep.
I just need my sleep.

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A MONTH ALL IN ONE

ALOHA PEOPLE!!

My exams ended just this Tuesday and now I'm as free as a flying bird!!!!!!!!!!!!!~

Or not.

Time to re-cap!

Starting from First day of CNY!

CNY DAY 1 

My brother's DM, My JC litas, my youngest brother's sperry.

As usual, first day of CNY was "dedicated" to all my relatives. Just like every year, we visited our relatives and went by the same route. Nothing changed.

Oh. And this is prolly my worst CNY ever in terms of outfit. I only had like an hr to choose my CNY clothes so I ended up agreeing to whatever my mum buys me -.-
Really disliked what I was wearing for both days. Mainly because the dresses were neither long nor short.

And I cracked by bb housing again ):

CNY DAY 2

And just like usual, second day of CNY was for friend's relatives

Oh. And my brother fractured his wrist/arm during training on CNY eve -_-

Max cutie ^^

CNY DAY 3

Open house cum celebration of my brother's birthday

Last day of Year 1 Sem 2 

headed to town with Sam, Mel, Willie, Isabel and Steff for ABTM 2. lol. My 6th/7th time going to the cinema?

And then after that it was the start of my final exams.

And floor party on Sunday.

Fast forward a little, on Thursday, which was Fiona's birthday, we woke up early to head down to her place to give her a little surprise before going for our exams.

 

Really tired me from not being able to sleep well for the whole week. 

Friday after screwing up my paper (technically, and frankly speaking, wasn't my fault) but anyways,

headed to Jalan Keyu with some of my classmates for beancurd and prata -_- 

Nothing better to do right... 

Then headed over to Minjiang/Bojiang's place at night for steamboat dinner!

Back to Band on Saturday and after that, went off for Fiona's birthday celebration.

and at night, my cousin's 21st.

On Tuesday after my exams finally ended, I headed to town with Jas, Willie, Mel, Steff and Isabel and then got myself a little gift ^^

A NEW WALLET! YAY!

Met my girls on Wednesday to sign up for my driving and then we headed to Shakery for lunch.

Then headed to holland in the evening to meet Evan for dinner!

Pretty much sums up everything that I haven't blogged about. WHAO. I covered the whole of Feb in a post. A new post up soon!!

Giving up this weekend and next's for money.

Don't know if I should head back to band tmr. I want to but I'm so lazy ):

Shall see.

GOOD NIGHT!