August 22, 2012

The people whom I will never forget



The past few months in a completely new environment wasn't easy for me. Luckily for nice classmates, or I probably wouldn't make it through.

For days and months, I struggled to cope and get used to a completely new environment. People who know me well would know that I ain't someone who likes changes. Especially having to cope with them alone.

As yesterday marks the end of a Semester, except that I have yet to take my exams, I silently congratulated myself for being able to get through it.

I can't recall the number of times when I had to leave the class especially on Fridays to force back the urge to cry. I remember the times when I would suddenly text my girls to tell them that I miss Swiss and how upset I am that they weren't with me.

I can clearly remember how I was back in sec1 when I was also new to the school. I didn't like my class at that point of time and refused to open up to them because I was afraid of getting hurt. I will never forget how I was so surprised to know that Wanhei had actually been in the same class with me all along when we were promoted to sec2.

And how I only started to open up to L and decided to meet him outside school for the first time in 2 years.

These people were the ones who grew up with me, heard me laugh and watched me cry.
They saw how I was a bitch, got betrayed and grew up trying to learn to be someone nice.
They were the ones who were willing to forgive me for mistakes that I have made and gave me a second or even a third try.

They know how I am brutally honest, how I rant but still cares inside.
They know so much about me because of my past I can't hide.

Sometimes I really don't know if I'm lucky to have so many of you dote on me in your ways.
And how most of you would always give in to me every step of the way.

I miss how Huimin, Wanhei and Katty used to collect rolls of toilet papers for me when I had flu and passed me packets of tissue when I cry. I miss how Aiksoon used to the "hello girl" act to entertain me. I miss how the class would somehow know whenever I got into fights. I miss how Theo or Jingyin would know the corners in school I would be hiding in whenever I cry. How many of you like gave me nicknames like cheerful and short skirts. I miss how some would go down to the canteen to buy food for me when I was depressed in sec3. I miss how some of them would came and hug me whenever they know I'm about to cry. Or how John Lim would sing to me whenever I cry. I miss how Clarence would always join me to disturb and prank people in class. I miss the random water fights I started and how people joined in and called me "fire fighter". I miss how we would help each other with the uniforms each time before a performance or parade. I miss how we would fall out and shout "Swiss Winds" at the end of each tiring CCA day. I miss how we would cry together and comfort each other when we didn't do well to make the seniors proud. I miss how we would run up to the stage during National or Teachers Day. I miss how some of my juniors would tease me whenever they know I'm pretending to be angry. I miss how I Cheekiat would call me "dajie" when he sees me in school because he knows it would make me happy. I miss how I could run inside the Library to talk to Evan whenever I'm feeling down. I miss how I used to share everything with Joshua, Zhiming and Zhengyong and how Zhengyong would always fight with me over the Swiss bear. How Jingci will be randomly shouting my name when she sees me in school. I miss how you guys would constantly nag, scold and encourage me to study. I miss how Azura and Neethya would always be patient and listen to my nonsense. I miss how many of you tried to help me with my Maths and Chemistry.
I miss how things used to be.

There's just so many things that people who know we now, would never know about me.
How I am slow to open up to people, how I was hurt by people and how I almost went into depression because I lost a few who were dear.

It's just intimidating and so weird now that I wouldn't see many familiar faces when I go to the canteen. The food I used to eat and how I would just stop randomly at places in Swiss to talk to people I know. It's just so different now in a new environment that I would rather stay in class during lunch instead to eat.

It's so different now that I can no longer run and jump around the school so randomly. How people used to tell me that my voice is so loud, they can hear me from different parts of the school.


"There comes a point in your life when you realize who really matters, who never did, and who always will."


There's so many to name out, so many that I remember. My girls, the whole of 5N, my batch mates (which includes some from NT and express) and band (seniors and juniors). It's you guys who have made a difference in my life that I would NEVER forget.





Here's to you for accepting my good and my bad(s), for embracing me even after I've done things to you which I regret, for watching me grow up and being there every step of the way and hopefully, still be with me for the rest of the days.
Thanks for loving me when I'm not lovable at all.

me: "Y U NO MAKE FRIENDS?"  : "CAUSE I LOVE YOU GUYS TOO MUCH IDIOT!" words can't express this feeling I have now LOL

August 18, 2012

7th Month

The "scariest" period of the year is here again.

WHICH
IS
THE 
7TH MONTH!




I remember having to do a presentation in sec1 for CME on festivals and my team was chosen to the 7th month. 
After my presentation, Mr Seow (my sec1 form teacher) asked me "so what is 7th month"
and my reply was "a vacation for the ghost..." before I finished what I wanted to say, my whole class busted out laughing.

Initially, I thought my classmates had a reason for laughing because what I've said is really stupid.

But as this year's 7th Month approaches, I started questioning myself and my doubts.
Very funny meh?
Isn't that so? 
The 7th month is when all the ghost are being "set-free" to come out and roam about what. 
Am I wrong to say that? If you're being "set-free" for a period of time, it would be called a break and since it's a break, it means it's holiday!!


Which comes to my next question.
Why are they locked up then?

Let's say if they are being locked up in hell or wherever for the rest of the year because they are dangerous and would do harm, why would they even be let out for a month?

Because the "guards" or whatever the term you call the people who are in charge of them wanted to give them some chance to break free and take revenge?
(And if that's so, why would people have the black and white people catch them back? Since they were given a chance to break free, why they break free already you still catch them? Must well don't give chance?)
So can I come to a conclusion that as long as they are allowed to come out for a month means they are already no longer harmless?


Don't get me wrong here, I do believe in the existence of spirits.
What I don't get and find it ridiculous is how people believe that they only come out at certain period of the year?!?!

Who told you that ghost only come out at night and aren't around in the day.
Who told you that they only come out during the 7th month?

Even when it isn't 7th month I see people calling those taoist dresses in the black and white to do rituals. So it only proves that they don't only come out in the 7th month.


As said, during the 7th month, hungry ghosts from hell roam the world freely as wandering spirits.

But can I question the fact that ghost from hell are being punished? So if they are being punished, why is it that they have the privilege to take a vacation up here in the living world?



Take a chill pill people.
Unless you do not respect them and create elaborate honoring celebration to look for them, they wouldn't do anything to you. After all, they would probably be busy looking for pieces of notes on the ground instead of using their limited time here trying to scare people -.-

Since hell notes are needed, I'm sure money is needed to survive there as well. So they would probably rather spend time up here opening business than play around ok.

And if the 18 level of hell thing is true, they probably would be up looking for food as they have been starving for the rest of the year.

As the name goes, HUNGRY GHOST FESTIVAL.
It means they are hungry! They come out to look for food! Not human beings.

But if hell is a place for intense suffering, I supposed cars, houses etc would not be needed?
And the truth is, if they have to suffer in hell, I don't get how they have the ability and energy to play tricks on human beings.

Btw, if you didn't notice, it's like almost even year that the chinese priest would say "this year's 7th month is going to be very fierce" I heard that many times already. How to take it seriously.

You can take a look at my other post about 7th month as well. lol
http://chharmanchh.blogspot.sg/search?q=7th+month

Anyway, to chinese who are strong believer in this, good luck and I wish you safety!

August 15, 2012

Updates: School, National Museum, Dinner with Relatives, Hermes Exhibition

*Sings in 2PM (I'll be back tune)*
I am back~
After all this while I am finally back~
I'm gonna update my blog again~
Since I got time, I cannot let it die~
I am back~



At last, my long awaited holiday is here!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
This is the last week of school, I'm so excited!!
(Except that I still have to come back 2 weeks later for exams..)

I have yet to plan anything else except for 5N's Combined Chalet but just that alone is enough to keep me excited!

Here's what I've been doing in school!!









This was still back in July. lol.
Okay, I know my drawing sucks.

And my girls and I finally had another of our usual Kbox session.
This time, we ordered cheese sausages and got cheated by them again. I really dislike ordering food in Kbox because you have to pay a lot more for a smaller portion of the usual size, I can't resist not eating when someone mentions food.



Back home after that and mum cooked sausages for dinner....
I really shouldn't have ordered it from Kbox.
>:(



Then came August and we had a field trip to the National Museum!
Been so long since I went there!!















Except for Gold Rush, I have been to the rest of the museum so it was just like going there the second time to remind myself of my childhood when mu mum brought me there. lol.
I was only interested in Gold Rush and kept asking my team mates to go to Gold Rush with me.








OHYA! I have to show you guys my bb after being in my hands for 6 months......

):
I didn't mean to do this to you.............................................................................
Have to get it fix asap.





Pictures of my boyf :P
If still do not know, http://chharmanchh.blogspot.sg/2012/08/who-is-charmans-boyfriend.html?spref=tw

























Above was Wednesday and on Fri, the 3 fighters in my class at it again -_-




Saturday was supposed to be chilling day for my family and I so while waiting for my brother who was at NUS Guild House,



And we had a last minute change of plans to have dinner with a relative who flew over to Singapore.





My aunt booked a room at a restaurant and we had dinner there.

Unlike normal Chinese restaurant, this chinese restaurant serves individual portions and the food was relatively good!!
I am not a fan of chinese food, unless you're talking about home cook food because I don't know why but whenever I go to a chinese restaurant, they seem to always serve the same dishes?!??!!? Not only that, I do not feel full after eating like 10 courses.

However, this restaurant serves individual portion of 10 course and the food was really good!! Not to mention, I was bloated and couldn't finish my dessert.











Sunday, service as usual and this time was EMERGE!










My favorite biscuit at the moment, caramelised biscuit! 






On National Day, headed out in the afternoon for famous duo tei, sweet sour spicy soup for lunch.






And went over to Keppel to visit the Hermes exhibition there after!!!!!!






















This pixelated cat is actually made by pieces of leather!!
The artist wanted us to touch the leather and change the look of it while the exhibition travel all around the world.



Though this exhibition was rather boring,
I loved the idea behind the works and the whole exhibition.





Out later and saw this that caught my eye.
I had to try the ice cream not matter what...









So here's what I got with $4!!













Rushed from school to meet some 5N peeps after school.
Filming on Monday over @ NP







And here's what I've been doing!!

YAY! Holidays are comingggggg
Holidays are cominggggggggg