It’s scary how people leave scars on you; how certain people will never really vanish from the thoughts in your mind.

Heyloooooooo.
I've been really busy... (just realized my past few posts always start's with "I've been really busy" so I shall skip it) OK.

My Test 2 are finally coming to an end on Monday and 
I AM SO DAMN EXCITED
FOR
CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!!!!!
*throws confetti*

Can't wait to collect all my red packets and increase the digits in my new bank account.

I've been trying to save up my new bank account to go on a trip to bkk this March/April but it doesn't seem like it's happening anytime soon ):
Just this week I spent $70 to purchase a pair of shorts from Nastygal and also another $100 on food. I don't know what I've been eating lah! GOLD!!?!?!

Anyway, I surfing the net yesterday when I decided to visit some of my friend's blog which i haven't visited in a longgggg time (cause I forgot the url) and which got me to remember my wordpress.

There was this period of time when I got kinda sick of blogger and decided that I wanted to move to wordpress which I didn't in the end because there were too many limitations and I preferred blogger way more... I eventually ended up using that space to pour out my feelings in 2009 because I couldn't spill them all out here.

NO ONE knew about the wordpress except Clarence who I think had nothing to do and decided to type "chharmanchh" with different blog domains which lead him to find my wordpress. NOT ONLY THAT, HE MANAGED TO CRACK ONE OF THE PASSWORD AND VIEWED ONE OF MY POSTS.

Anyhowz,
I decided to go and take a look there and re read my posts. I must say ALL of them were quite silly and stupid. HAHAH. However, that doesn't take away the fact that I was really depressed at that point of time when I wrote those posts.
While I was re reading them, it sorta reminded me of how depressed I was and I think it's probably because I was too depressed that time that those post were so silly and didn't really make a lot of sense?!?!!?

Still, re reading that post made realized how happy I am now and that I would NEVER, NEVER EVER want to feel the same way again. I LITERALLY FELT LIKE SHIT. I FELT FOOLISH AND STUPID.  And never would I forget how I felt at the point of time and how shitty people made me feel.

Things may change but it still doesn't cancel out all that have happened in the past and how you would still be affected even for the slightest bit when you think about them again. And what we can do is just to carry those scars along with us for the rest of our lives, trying not to think about them and accepting the fact that it can never be removed. That doesn't mean we will be less happy though. I think we can all still be happy but just less perfect.

But since these were things from the past and as I mentioned, we should all accept our scars, I decided that my wordpress shouldn't be kept a secret anymore. Not as if I'm still using it anyway. And before you can even view the posts, you have to know the password for it and that's what I'm gonna do. I'm gonna tell you the password. NO I'M JUST JOKING.

I shall give hints on the password and people who are close to me would probably be able to guess it if they try hard enough. heheh.

There are 2 different password as the posts are about 2 different people. The people who hurt me the most in 2009 that was in sec 3 *hint hint*
Only one post is about friendship and it's the name of a person *hint hint*
And those on my feelings (okay lah actually all on my feelings but I just feel grossed out to say "love")
And those on my relationship would be a short form of a sentence.
The short form is kinda like a secret code (Not really secret though) But the letters are really easy to guess. *hintttt max*


OKAY, GO FIGURE HERE! :P
Tell me if you've successfully unlocked it okay!