Kissonyou: November 2012

November 27, 2012

THE TRICK TO GRACEFUL EXIT

I wish I had own a heart so big, so huge and I can keep embracing all of you over and over again without feeling unimportant but I can't. I can't do it when I don't feel like I'm being loved back.

“There’s a trick to the ‘graceful exit.’ It begins with the vision to recognize when a job, a life stage, or a relationship is over — and let it go. It means leaving what’s over without denying its validity or its past importance to our lives. It involves a sense of future, a belief that every exit line is an entry, that we are moving up, rather than out.” — Ellen Goodman

November 24, 2012

INCONSIDERATE SMOKERS

Oh, the irony of my post title because being a smoker is already a good enough reason to call them inconsiderate. And smokers ARE inconsiderate. Yet, why the need to add the word "inconsiderate" before the word "smoker" when they are generally known as inconsiderate and need no further adjective in front to describe them?

Simply because, some are really more inconsiderate than others.

I used to really dislike smokers in the past and abhor the smell of smoke.

I remember when I became friends with my (ex) boyfriend; the first thing Jingyin (Really close senior/friend) asked me was "I thought you really dislike people who smoke one?" Which was true.

In the past, I looked down on people who smoke simply because I felt that they are really low and shallow people. Not in the sense that they are literally shallow but I just felt like those who smoke have already "given up on life" and I felt they're just taking up space and wasting resources on Earth.

But I got to know Leon, Chingsoon, then my ex and many of the people around me started to become smokers too.
Eventually, I stopped to dislike/look down on smokers because I realized that they may smoke but that doesn't mean they're like those hooligans or low down people I thought smokers would be like.

Still, I do not encourage smoking and I still stick to my stand of smokers being inconsiderate people.

Inconsiderate because they didn't think about their loved ones and most importantly, because they "force" non smokers to become smokers too. -By that, I mean secondhand smokers.

Of course, I have smoker friends who are nice and considerate and they always go somewhere else to take a puff or make me stand at a corner while they go to a side to smoke so I wouldn't have to breathe in the smoke.

BUT I ABSOLUTELY CANNOT TAKE IT WHENEVER PEOPLE SMOKE WHILE WALKING, AT THE TRAFFIC LIGHT, AT THE TAXI STAND, basically, smoking at non designated smoking areas and have non smokers breath in the smoke as well.

Let me give you an idea of what I am talking about.

Just like in Secondary school, I have to walk a distance from the MRT to school every morning and like in many other polys, my school has a fair share of smokers.

Every morning without fail, I will have to breath in the smoke of these people who are smoking in front, behind, beside BASICALLY EVERYWHERE AROUND ME. Each time I recover from my cough during a school's vacation and have my mum thank God for my recovery, I get my cough back once school starts again -_-

IT IS SO DAMN INCONSIDERATE?

I mean, can't they stand aside to finish their stick before they walk to school? Would they die halfway through the journey to school just because they don't get their puff? IF YOU ARE A SMOKER HERE READING MY BLOG, WOULD YOU????????? NO!

Yet, they have to smoke while they walk and have all the non smokers like me who haven chosen not to smoke because of whatever reasons (like we want to live a healthier lifestyle, we do not want to pollute/destroy our lungs/heart, asthma, chronic bronchitis, acute bronchitis etc) who have to breath in the smoke.

SO WHAT'S DIFFERENCE DOES OUR DECISION OF CHOOSING NOT TO SMOKE MAKE?

NONE. BECAUSE WE WOULD STILL END UP AS SMOKERS BY BREATHING IN THE SMOKE, SMOKERS SMOKE.

NO!

NOT ONLY THAT, WE ARE BREATHING IN THE SMOKE WITHOUT FILTER WHICH IS DOUBLE THE TIME THE SMOKE IS HARMFUL TO A SMOKER.

What makes it worse is that no matter where non smokers like us try to escape/stay away from smokers so that we wouldn't have to breath in the smoke/take the smell of the smoke, we would still find smokers everywhere outdoor. Yet, we can't possible stay in door all the time if we want to get to places.

Be a little more considerate, smokers (though it's ironic).

Smoke at designated smoking areas, at corners, wherever and give non smokers a chance for a better, less polluted air.

It isn't fair that you increase the chances that we have to die when it's your own choice that you want to shorten your life.

November 21, 2012

Days in school are getting better with you guys around

This is the 6th Week since I got to know these people who are my new classmates and I got to say, you guys made my life in school a little/a lot more bearable.

I can clearly remember how it was like in Sem 1 for me. Not that my classmates in Sem 1 weren't nice, but it was just that I wasn't able to click with them. I am really thankful to have you guys as my classmates this sem. God knows where/what I would be now if I'm being placed in a class where I am still unable adapt, click with. I'd probably have given up school. Really.

And if some of you got pissed/irritated by me not replying to texts, answering calls etc. It's because my phone's battery never lasted more than half of the day ever since I was being added into this new group on whatsapp. (Though I know I usually also wouldn't reply smses halfway through or even answer phone calls. But this time, really. It was because my phone's batt down thanks to this group on whatsapp + I really dislike using whatsapp for those of you who didn't know!)

Nevertheless, I'm loving this group of people more and more each day :)

Almost more than half a year since I've started schooling in poly and this morning, I entered the wrong class YET AGAIN.
This ain't the first, second or third time but the fourth. Such a ding dong.

I immediately called Melyvn to ask him where's our class and the moment I entered our class, Melvyn looked at me smiling knowing I went to the wrong class which caused me to laugh at my own stupidity.

The fun started when I turned to see Jasmine combing the unicorn's hair in the middle of our lesson. WHAT THE HELL? LOL. My classmates do the most epic stuffs ever.

And if you were wondering why there's so many unicorns, they actually don't belong to Jasmine but this guy from my modules' class who's an unicorn lover. HE IS OBSESSED WITH UNICORN IT'S SO WEIRD. LOL.

His shirt is unicorn, he listens to unicorn music the whole time in class, he has a unicorn pencil case and owns all the unicorns in the photo you see below. LOL.

Break time came and a few of us started chit chatting till something else caught our attention.

We diverted our attention to somewhere else, outside our class.

FREE SHOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAY!

It has always been exciting and interesting for me to watch PDA together with my TSFY especially T but I was thrilled this time that my classmates were also all excited to see as well.

HAHAHAHAH.

We started screaming, shouting and taking pictures of them when we saw the couple outside our class. HAHHAH. Mad thrilling, no idea why. What's more, we were screaming so loudly, my other classmates told us he could hear us from my lift yet the couple outside still continued with their act. HAHAHAHHAHHA.

Hmmmmm, quite a position for making out :d

It continued all the way till Thev came back from break and took a photo of them excitedly WITH FLESH ON. CHAMPION THEV. DAMN STUPID. HAHAHH. It was so funny.

And here's a photo of me literally ROFL taken by Hasif. Never laughed so hard for a long long time.

Went to get lunch with Melvyn, Hasif, Jasmine and Sareeta after and that bitch Sareeta un buckled my bra in the canteen. ZZzZZzzzZZzzzZZZzz.

Though my issue here isn't the fact that she un buckled my bra but that I have to take the trouble to go to the toilet to hook it back. lol.

Really enjoyed class today though I kinda feel bad for not doing my work.

This is the first time ever in poly that I'm posting about my day in school. And woah, I never thought I would ever have so much fun in school ever again since I entered poly.

Shall end this post with a photo of Ryan which he took of himself and setted it as my phone's wallpaper.

November 14, 2012

I MISS HOW THINGS USED TO BE

I was at my pit and you girls came to save me and slowly brought me out of it.

Then came Shushia and we got together on this very day.

21/03/2010

I remember this very day when we went out together the very first time. And we were so excited about meeting then. We didn't have to plan things for very long and every time someone asked to meet up we would be so "on".

Our first Kbox session was at Jurong Safra. We weren't so crazy as the second or third time but I remember Theo and I being so excited we screamed and shouted into the mic and people outside actually looked in and wondered what we were doing inside.

We enjoyed each other's company so much, we hung out practically everyday after school and chose the venue to hang out by our self created multiple choice.

Monday is Theo's to choose, Tuesday is mine, Wednesday is Shushia's, Thursday is Fiona's and Friday is Yanting's.

We would always plan random surprises and pranks.

Remember the first time when Shushia was depressed and tweeted stuffs about her being upset. We were so worried about her we decided to surprise her by going up to her place. It was so funny, within 30mins, we met each other at CCK and went down to her estate NOT KNOWING EXACTLY WHERE she's staying. We looked for Marcus's contact and many other people we could think of to ask about her address and finally, we managed to get to her house and found out she was actually alright and eating an apple in her room.
-_-

That was us then, we didn't care about our convenience, we didn't care about how stupid we would be or how our plan might not work out. We cared about one another more than anything else and made that effort, free up our time to be there for each other.

The same year during lantern festival, you girls planned a surprise for me at CCK to cheer me up. You girls didn't care about being able to enjoy yourselves or if you had to spend money for my gift. You girls just went all the way out and put in that effort to see me smile again. I miss that.

And how random we would be like once Theo and I pranked Fiona about Theo falling down and being upset. Fiona was about to rush out of her house when she found the 2 of us just at the staircase outside her corridor.

The first time we caught a movie together was such a interesting experience for the 4 of you. I finally gave in to watching a movie especially a horror movie because we wanted to spend time together.

We caught Insidious and the first thing I did was to put my ear piece on when we got into the cinema. You girls made such a big fuss out of that and it was so funny. And I was so bored in the movie, I threw pop corns at other people. I remember Fiona squeaking like a pig and I couldn't take it and told her to shut up. LOL. And at the most thrilling part of the movie, I was so bored I kept asking you girls if any of you wanted pop corns. HAHAH. You girls rejected me so many times and used your jackets to cover your faces. DAMN FUNNY. Totally ruined the mood of the scary movie and we ended up laughing in the cinema together. When I laughed a couple at the back even asked if I was laughing or crying. LOL

Remember then, and now. How have things changed. I think the only difference only difference is that there were more of "us" and less of "me".

I miss how important each and everyone in the clique meant to us and how we would try and try to make sure things are alright. How we cared for one another more than ourselves.

We loved each other's company so much then. We were able to give up and free our time. We didn't care about our pride and we would always care for one another even though it's just a sad tweet we would show our concern and ask "why? what happened?".

Things are just so different now.
I miss how it used to be, those random textes to make sure we knew we were there for one another, those random pranks and surprises, those outings and time we would find to free ourselves to hang out together and those pride we put down because we loved each other.

Now we're tweeting but no one's listening, we are sometimes hurt, tweet about it but others are rarely caring.
How have things come to this stage?
And if I said "please" could we all make an effort to start all over again?

I searched up our blogs and looked at the post about us. And kept repeating in my mind was "What about now? What about now?"
I'm down on my knees. Tell me it's still worth it.

November 10, 2012

THE BLIND

A few bus stops later, a blind man boarded the bus. I wasn't paying attention to what was happening on the bus or what was happening beside me. I was doing my usual day dreaming. Next thing I knew, he was seated next to me.

I started to pay attention to him and what he was doing. He couldn't stop fidgeting, I could tell he was insecure. I looked around me, everyone had their eyes stucked to their tiny screen.

I turned to look out of the bus and thought about my problems. But at the same time, I couldn't help wondering how the blind man is feeling. Is he blaming the world or God that he's born like that? Is he feeling sorry for himself? Has he ever gotten angry with the world and felt disappointed in humanity?

Then I started to feel a tinge of sadness and guilt. Who am I to feel sorry for myself when there's someone just beside me who isn't as privileged as I am? Why do I always live feeling so insecure when I am able to see and he isn't? And why are we always using our opportunity to see the world to look at our tiny screens?

The next stop is Far East, he quickly got up and then I heard his scream which woke me up from my thoughts because the bus uncle closed the door before he could get off.

I stood up a few stops later, ready to go to work.

Sent via BlackBerry from SingTel!

November 9, 2012

UPDATES: 2 weeks ago

Hey guys, this is gonna be a really late update from about 2 weeks ago.

Decided to head over to IKEA after Service at Expo on a Saturday night for dinner.

I told my mummy that I'm having a real big appetite and asked her to order whatever that she can for me so she did.

So apart from the mee robus (I can't spell the name cause I've never eaten it), the salmons and chicken wings, the rest was mine. YES MINE.

Meatballs, pastas, mushroom soup, apple crumble and cheese cake. MMMMMM

While walking out of IKEA, I came upon this!

no, it's not a missing photo here that couldn't be load.

LOL. OKAY.
I feel a total anti climax from you guys -.-

So the past few weekends I've been busy with drawings...

Drawing lines and shading -.-

Then Monday was media production class!

Headed to town with mummy after class and went Isetan, Wheelock and Ion.
Had tea before going back to pick my brother up from his school after his paper.

And then the next day, my mum finally went down and got me my shoes.

Unfortunately, it's a size too big again :X
But whatever man, I've got my eyes on other shoes already.

On Friday I went to The Trizon and if you've been following me on twitter, I'm crazy about the condo because it's so damn pretty?!?!!? The condo is just a-m-a-zing. If the penthouses were still available, my parents would have bought it for sure (anyway my mum was contemplating if we should move to a penthouse just at the start of the year).

So, I've finally brought my camera there to snap some pictures!

We went over for BBQ and Bryan booked a pit.
Here's what special about this condo... WHEN YOU BOOK A PIT, YOU GET A PRIVATE POOL AS WELL!!

Not only that, that condo probably has the best BBQ pits ever. Nice marbled basin and tables.

And yeap! Sofas plus tables and a marbled bench and table. Totally awesome! Don't have to worry about not enough seats or tables.

That condo also has an olympic length swimming pool.

Those top levels are the penthouses.
I didn't have a chance take a photo of the penthouses from Bryan's place's balcony but trust me, it's really nice and the area for the penthouse is HUGE. PLUS, they have a private swimming pool on their level too.