Dragged me onNow I'm tired, lost and cold. Lost my soul

Am really tired and didn't bother to care much about what people say..

I guess I'm just too tired of commenting and arguing. I've lost my faith. So what else am I supposed to say?

Dinish: you talk like one kid....

Farezed: my baby sister can talk better.. 2 years old only. 

Anyway, I always have fun playing with Azura, Fatin, Hani, Ilyas, Afiq, Zakir. (k, random)

Mac for lunch, miss it so much. Didn't have mac for like the past 4 months?!?!?!

Theo: you behave like one kid.

Stayed back for night study today.

Wanqing: you very active at night. but you don't sleep. You go out every night is it.

Me: LOL. no!! I sleep in the morning and i'm active at night. LOL! That's why never study.

And thanks to Wanqing for teaching me chem.

He practically taught me all the basics from the start. What is an element, compound and so on.

Within 40mins. And he was more worried than I was. K, I am really very super grateful.

Cool huh? I don't even know what is a compound till he taught me. GREAT.

And BIO/CHEM are both on Monday.

SO WHAT AM I GONNA DO?!?!?

AM always hoping that I would get the chance to have you teach me and help me with my subjects. But each time I needed help, it was others who help me instead. No I'm not angry nor am I upset. I am just disappointed that I didn't have a chance to have you do that. This is how I am reminded of you each time.

Lost my last inch of faith...

"And I know karma's gonna get me back for being so cold Like a big bad wolf I'm born to be bad and bad to the bone If you fall for me I'm only gonna tear you apart Told ya from the start. 
I'm only gonna break break ya break break ya heart."

http://twitter.com/kissonyou

I don’t know why I’m so upset about it. Maybe it's because you were the one thing I wanted to hold on to... but the second you did something wrong I pushed you away because I thought you didn’t want me anymore. That wasn’t true then,





but it is now

Went out early in the morning today to Toa Payoh for breakfasttttt then headed to Hougang for check up and lunch. Seng kang then after and rushed back to Jurong to meet Theo.

Studied pretty much today. Except the part when I started crying all of a sudden again. Went home then after.

HEHEHE. Wanna thank theo and PI for cheering me upppppppp!!

k, my life is boring..............................................................................................




BUT YOU LIKE IT ISN'T IT???????? HAHHAH

Lantern Festival 2

So yesterday, I celebrated lantern festival with my dearest girls.

It wasn't really celebrating though. They were cheering me up.. with games..............and GIFTS!

So here goes!

I was suppose to meet them at cck park, but because theo called me and told me that everyone will be late, so I went to a provision shop nearby then later, walk to lot to buy some other stuffs.

Was suppose to meet theo later at lot. But she called and told me saiful sent her to cck already. 

SO PRO WORHXZX!

So wasted trip to lot, went back to cck.

And they were already there.

Don't know what happened, how they got everything planned out when all of them said they were late.

So I'll just let the next few pictures do the talking

 Seems like they were already there eh? AND LIED TO ME ABOUT BEING LATE.

I guess they had dinner there?

Must be entertaining my call while doing the game for me.

 5 bottles of purple yakult for me!

First hidden Yakult

 

second hidden one

fourth hidden yakult!

(the third was hidden in near the toilet)

fifth yakult!!

the 6th gift!

 

Digging hard.

my gift!!!

Which I have to dig out after that! -.-

Fiona was suppose to be the last to come. But I don't know why they can take photo when she's the last eh?

HAHAHHAH!

the stupid jerry which caught kicked by me several times! 

heheheheh!

So I reached and they told me that I have to play a game......

first yakult found. yeahyeah, you can enlarge it to see what happened to my face thanks to the pimples.

 

second one found!!

digdigdig.

digging for my last gift.

Which I actually stepped on.

Got it outttt!! :D

2 packets of cookies baked by Fiona and cards/photos from them

And right after that, they started throwing water bombs at me.

KISS MY ASS PEOPLEEEEEEEEEEE!!!

Thanks babes!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I had loads of fun and realized how much you girls care for me even when I'm always being bullied by you! 

This week hasn't been good.

I've learnt how sensitive one can be when he/she don't know the truth. I've learnt how we can be easily fooled by things we see/hear. I've learnt how vulnerable a friendship/relationship is.   

But also, I realized that there are many people who are willing to go the extra mild just to see me smile.

I've seen how unhappy my friends are because they don't know how to help. I realized how much I mean to them, and also that they are important to me.

I've cried enough and it's time to put things behind me. 

I CAN CHANGE WHATS GONNA HAPPEN IN THE FUTURE!

HEHEHHEH!

Had a fun time last night.

Met Theo, Shia, Fiona and Yanting @cck park after yesterday.
And they made me play a game. Was another thing/surprise(?) to cheer me up. So I've got presents again! HAHAH!

But I shall blog it some other time when the photos are uploaded.
AHAH! Anyway, I had fun.

I realized that I have many friends who are willing to go the extra mild just to cheer me up and see me happy. I realized that my happiness means more to them than to you.

Theo: We're sad not because we know how you feel. But we're sad because we don't know what to do to help you.


gonna go out again!
BAIBAI!

"Sometimes we can fall in love with someone for all the wrong reasons,
and still love them even after all the heartache because most of the
time, we can’t pick who we love. And even though we know we shouldn’t
love them, we do and always will, because there are just some people in
our lives who will get to us for reasons we can’t explain, even when
they shouldn’t. "

-runawaytrain.

Why won't you hold me and say, 'Please come back'?

GO PENUT!!!! ♥♥

Theo gave me hello panda and a mug today.

And Fiona gave me a card.

Thank you :)

Anyhow, lessons were boring as usual. Or rather, there was no lesson at all.

I feel like I've been wasting my time in school recently. Like doing nothing at all. Wtf.

Maybe I should do some self study at home or go for tuition and then take my N levels and go  back to school only after N is over.

Because time in school for me, for the past few days, is not productive at all.

PE lesson was fun and I was being cheered up again!

Especially love today's Pe lesson. Not that the past pe lessons were boring but I enjoyed today because we played as a class.

I love pe lesson!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(SERIOUS!!)

I felt protected today. HEHE! Thank you Arab Street peoplexzx. HAHAH!

ok lah, you guys have been caring for me and cheering me up whenever I am feeling down since last year.

Cheering me up and doing stupid stuffs whenever I cry. So I thank you all ok!

Terimakasae??????

Lunch with Theo @Pastamania, waited for train to go home and got pretty pissed because of some retarded ass.

Skipped dinner because I didn't have the mood to eat. 

Then received a text from Sherry and she asked me I wanted to take a walk. She like super sure that I would say yes.

HAHAHHAHA! BUTTTTTT, (yeah, I did) -.-

So she told me to meet her at the back, Railway tracks and decided to walk all the way to Panjang!! WTF!

And when I reached there, the run down basketball court was lighted up! HAHAH!

brandon, yangyi, steph, junqi, cordi, yan an, lynn, joel, qi yang, wanxian, xuanlin, edroi, vera, jia yong, tsz kai, and shawn then started going "run charman run, don't ever look backkk, you took long enough, for you to see that (then points to something behind them*"

GUESSS WHATTTTTTTT!!!!

they used the candles and made "CHEER UP CC! <3" 

Though it was quite fail because I took to long to walk and Sherry signaled them too early! HAHAH!

thanks guys!

And they bought me god diva hot chocolate plus MOS burger for me because they know I didn't have my dinner.

HAHAH! Though I didn't finish the burger, but don't worry, I'll finish the God Diva Hot Chocolate ok! hehehe!

Can't wait for Firday!!!

And I miss you.

YOU :) I :)

♥

♥ to see you smile

 

Just got home from dinner and walk. Took some photos today but forgot that I left my phone cable the other night at Nicole's place, I am not able to upload anything.

School was pretty boring for me.

And people kept waking me up while I was sleeping. Why today you all so bad??! ):

Anyway, Thank you Enze for the chocolate today and Clarence for treating me to yogurt!

And Theo, Shia, Fiona and Yanting for trying to cheer me up at from the walk to Shakery all the way home.

:)

Went home, showered and went out for a walk, met up with Sherry and friends.
Thanks for sticky and ice cream treat.
Met family for dinner and meet company again for awhile before heading home.

Thanks
Good night.

Note: will not be replying to most formspring question for the time being. Picking out only a random few to reply as there are too many.

Today, is strategy day.

2 nice people waited for me when I came out of school, accompanied me to lot and when I reached yewtee, sherry accompanied me to void. cheeeeeee, so nice leh. WHY?
Cause she wanna borrow money. Knn.

And all of a sudden, wenbin's dad is my god dad. (insider joke)

k, time to waste my life away.

I'm over at Pasir Ris again! HEHEHE! Long time since the last time we slacked here.

I am currently slacking over at Brenda's place right now.

re

Super miss my chubby face!

):

Baby fats, why did you run awayyyy???

I know I am super weird like people always say you'll be prettier when you're skinner. But it's different from me. HAHAHHA! My friends should know whyyyy! [._.]

I used to want to lose my baby fats. But now it's gone, I realize that it actually played a very important part.

NOW IT'S GONE, MY FACE IS SUPER SQUARISH! >):

Awww, can you come back to me please?

ok, I've crapped enough and I'll crap next time.

Cause it's cake cutting time!

This is love.

She was running away
He caught up, grabbed her arm and said, 
“You’re out of breath
Where do you want to go
Up ahead?
I’ll run for you”
He carried her and continued running for her.

OUT TO PARTY! BYE!

Infatuation is when you find somebody who is absolutely perfect. Love is when you realize that they aren’t and it doesn’t matter.

And I just continue loving. Mine is love. Yours, infatuation.

Guess I am feeling better right now :)

Confused

Hugged Theo and cried when I reached school this morning.

Got a litttle cheered up during PE and recess thanks to Theo announcing some stuffs to everyone -.-

I don't know what to say or what to do.

As much as I want to, I got no him to turn to. 

I want you to be there for me, all the time. But you were never here, not even near.

I've got no guts to tell you not to leave when you asked me if you should.

I held back my tears when you asked me if you should leave.

I don't have an answer. 

And you were the start of why I can't trust people around me.

Each time you came back and when you start to gain my trust, you have to go again.

Whatever the decision, I shall not interfere.

Here’s to all the girls who used to be his number one. The ones who waited all night for his texts, only to check the messages sent the next morning and be disappointed. The ones who made it through that bitter break up, dried your own tears, and moved on with your life, only to have him walk back in months later like nothing ever happened. Those of you who cried on the first day you talked again because you missed him but know you can't have him back. The ones who listened to him say, “I only want to be your friend” one day, and the next, listened to him say how much he loves and misses you. We all deserve something, and this is our tribute.