Confused

Hugged Theo and cried when I reached school this morning.

Got a litttle cheered up during PE and recess thanks to Theo announcing some stuffs to everyone -.-

I don't know what to say or what to do.

As much as I want to, I got no him to turn to. 

I want you to be there for me, all the time. But you were never here, not even near.

I've got no guts to tell you not to leave when you asked me if you should.

I held back my tears when you asked me if you should leave.

I don't have an answer. 

And you were the start of why I can't trust people around me.

Each time you came back and when you start to gain my trust, you have to go again.

Whatever the decision, I shall not interfere.