Are friendships really so worthless?

I really wonder.

So worthless,
you trade it for temporary fame,
you trade it for money.
you trade it for those with the added lies of yours.
you back stab, you cheat, you don't feel a single sense of guilt nor feel like shit.
when you see your friends cry, when you hear them say it hurts like hell and they said to die.
Do you ever feel a sense or remorse?
No, of course. You still want to trade it for friends who have the upper hand at all cost.

REALLY?
Are these friendships you once built up so worthless?

It's been a year eh?
At the most down period of my life, none of you came to save me.
Instead, it was her, the friend whom I pushed away, there for me. Where were you guys?
Standing right opposite me, trying to push me down, see me drown.

Was reminded of it today, talked about it and I was chocked up again.

SOMETIMES YOU PEOPLE HAVE TOTALLY NO IDEA HOW MUCH YOU CAN HURT A PERSON. AND NO MATTER HOW LONG ITS BEEN, IT STILL FUCKING HURTS. THOSE PAIN YOU INFLICTED. IT'S NOT A FREAKING INJURY ON THE HEART. ITS A SCAR.

Stay home day 2

I am bored, I am bored.


Updated @5:16pm.

Just went through some shit. I wonder why some people take friendships so likely.
Are your friendships and promises really so worthless? Why do people trade their friendship to get temporary fame and wealth.

And you don't know how important you guys are to me.
Even though you may be just my friend.

Kbox with my girls a few weeks ago.





But before that, I shall show you a super scary photo to scare you people!
WARNING!
DO NOT SCROLL IF YOU HAVE A WEAK HEART.


I am serious.
ok, if you wanna ignore me and just continue, later you all don't come my formspring kbkp!
I say already ok.

Here you go!!

MUAHAHHAHA! IS THIS LIKE SCARY OR WHAT!

Yanting took this photo of me. She placed the cam so close to my face!

But anyway, here goes. 

For those who said that my face is flawless, welcome to year 2010!

Charman is 16 years old now, she has pimples and scars on her face.

):

Starring Theo and I, the superstars of the day.
WHY?!

Because we were singing screaming and shouting the lyrics.
Didn't know we were so loud till Shushia went out to answer a call. Or was it Fiona?
But yeah. One of them went out to answer a call and could here us so loud and clear.

I bet the kbox people went "WHAT.THE.HELL?!?!?"

HAHAHHAHAHAH! WE SANG, WE DANCED AND BEST OF ALL, MANY PEOPLE WALKED PAST! PAISEH.
I shy shy!

So yesterday, I was supposed to meet Weekiat (haven't seen him for so long!) @Membina around 2am? And wait for Sherry and friends to come meet us from Rebel.

Went to take my clothes, sat on my bed............... AND I FELL ASLEEP STRAIGHT AWAY.
Weekiat was already spam calling me. Made him wait alone. And idiotic Sherry and friends didn't want to leave Rebel. Waited for effing 1hr plus. Lucky for him to have friends everywhere! So he went up to his friend's place to wait.
HAIHAIHAI!!!!!!!!!!!

I know I'm an ass. But I was really so tired!!!!!!
Besides, SHERRY AND CO. WAS A MUCH MUCH BIGGER ASS!!!!!!

Time to eat my bread!! I am free like a flying bird. Someone ask me out ):

The Command Band Swiss Winds is gonna go HK tomorrow and be the first band to be marching on the streets of Disney Land. 
ALL THE BEST DEAREST!!!!
And buy me presents k!
MAUAHHAHA!

BYEBYE!!

Why you keep hanging out with guys

Because they have something that I don't have :) I don't find a problem with it. After all, I am single and we are just FRIENDS. BTW, I hang out with GIRLS more than guys.

Ask me anything

You're very skinny! Whats your fav food! ><

I love sushiiiis! I love maggie mee, bbq sting ray, chicken rice, spicy chicken pasta, Italian food, Mexican food, Mexican salsa with bean chips, black pepper steak, spicy mee hoon kueh. I LOVE BREAD TOO!!!!!! MUAHAHAHHA!

Ask me anything

I would rather say "never mind" than repeat myself a hundred times.

Pretty retarded and wasted day today.

Was at town all the way till 5pm. (I don't like Darren today. SI RABBIT!!)
Then headed to Expo just to visit our dearest friends while trying to walk through the big crowd.
Went down to Westmall for dinner then after and I just got home.

BRANDON YOU ASS!!!!! WHAT HAPPENED TO YOUR PHONE!! OMG! WHY IS YOUR NUMBER NOT IN USE?!?!??!?!??!?!!

I think I needa stop meeting L. I don't even think I meet my boyf that much to do NOTHING at all lor. But of course it was because I wasn't free and had school, band, classes and all.
Whatever it is, I NEED TO STOP!!!!!

Next week is gonna be so boring for me.
Am free the whole of next week. SOMEONE ASK ME OUT PLEASE?!?!?!?!?!!

Didn't catch a wink last night. Was trying to sleep but failed. Thanks to my PI who kept me awake and he ended up falling asleep instead. So L called me a 1hr ago and we chatted. HE IS NOW ASLEEP WHILE I AM STILL AWAKE!!!!

*fowns*

I should just go and get ready for band..

Hey chopsticks, Hello :) My first visit. See you soon. 3 more weeks.. And i like how u reply peeps :D

UH? OMG! WHO ARE YOU?????? THEO?

Ask me anything

Sweet h2h talk

Woke up in the afternoon again, rushed out for lunch as Joshua was texting me asking me to go band already.
Was having my second spoon of rice when L called me and asked me to meet him.

PI: See lah, you meet him one time then forever need to meet him liao.
HAHAHAHA!

So left my lunch and went down to meet him. Slacked at mac for a few hours and headed to staircase and had h2h talk with him. Almost cried. But OMG! I actually told him certain stuffs which I have never told any guy before. AMAZING MANXZ.
L: I see...You really love him.
Of course I do/did?

Joshua started calling and so I rushed to band to find him asleep while waiting for me. HAHAH.
That poor boy. Waited for me the whole afternoon. Must be bored to death!
Switched on the lights and woke up him up. (He was sleeping like a pig!! Shirt went up and all.)
HAHAAH! Then he went "I SHOW YOU SOMETHING NICE! WAIT HERE!"
And he went out to bring his iPad in.
Played many dumb games and helped Mrs Chew with the packing of luggages for awhile.
Saw her rage for the first time too >O:
Scaryyyy.

Went off with Joshua and separated while I go to Yio Chu Kang.

Sushi for dinnerrrrr!! MUAHAHAHAHHA!!!!!!!!
Good night peopleeee!!

P/s. Zheng yong talked to me!

Sweetheart, sweet tart!

Last night.

Adrian: ni mei nao de (you no brain one)

Li Siang: Then ni jiu you hen duo nao meh (Then you got a lot of brains meh)

HAHAHAHAHA! Omg. Ah Xiang (Siang) is super cute lah! And he kept helping me yesterday!!

He was irritating me last night instead of th other way round.

Ronald/Rovin(?) I can't recognize which was helping me then when Li Siang saw him with me, he kept shouting "EH RABBIT! GOT SOMEONE WANT TO SNATCH YOUR WIFE" (in Chinese)

And he kept telling everyone that I was rabbit's wife, kept calling me "da sao" and all. ZZZ.

Trip home last night was a pretty pleasant and a slightly better one. Heh.

Not that my trips home previously was not. But I had someone to talk to me on the phone yesterday!!

Thanks L. Though he was super act cute lah! Chat chat chat and decided to meet up today.

Met Brandon at cck and bought sandwich.

Then started searching for my ear chain while Brandon was being super idiotic. He went to put his helmet on and started disturbing me. Don't know how to auto one.

Reached home at around 1am, showered and all and chatted with L on the phone again.

So today, I woke up in the afternoon again, had lunch and went down to meet L.

He accompanied me to JP to meet Theo and Shushia. Who were waiting for me for a very long time :X

On the way there, he super idiotic lor. Come and invade my privacy, look through all my stuffs and all!!!!! >:@
(and he found out some secrets) >):

ASS PIG.

Went to buy my ear chain, sent Shushia and Theo off and went back to meet L again.

(Brent's shirt very dirty. LOL! RANDOM)

Separated and I went off to meet Brandon, Edori and Sherry for awhile, Went for dinner and Brandon accompanied me to watch my bro's match at Toa Payoh.

That idiot tried to bribe my bro.

He bought sushis for me and bought some for my bros.

So when he brought it there, he didn't allow me to have all of the sushis.

I asked him why and he told me it was for my bro.

Mum: Why you buy for her. She got money can buy on her own.

*pouts*

BRIBERY!!! But too bad my bro didn't want to have any.

HAHAHHAHA!

ok, so my bro got into semi once again. Shall support him on Sat for his finals instead.

I wanna eat sushi, mee goreng, Spicy chicken pasta, chicken wingz again!!!!!!! >):

P/s. I have the best bestest Sweetheart everrrrrr!!! ♥
P/s/s. Wo du zi errrr

I think some people really damn busybody, since it's the past then why keep bringing up! Readers always see the same thing you reply also sian liao lor. -.- What exactly are they thinking?! :Z

hannorz hannorz. SAVE MEEEEEEE. HAHAHA

Ask me anything

I am out of your league

Can't believe that you used such a low down cheap trick on me.

What did you do to me that I could not see.

You could say that I was noble enough to ignore it.

Now I shall deny all of what happened actually.

No more judging me from my past, that was a mistake, a huge one indeed.

So now, 

I am out of your league.

Miss the guy we once knew, the guy in the photo up on the noticeboard

Had a great time in band today.

Sheena, Tiq, Haziq, Desmond and Evan came back! >:D
Helped Thomas with the hong kong trip schedule with Mrs Chew before that.

Josh came back after going out with Jeanette then we started chatting and he cheered me up. Of course, he made Evan laugh too. (UGLY TRUTH)
Headed to lot for LJS and on our way there, I took my first step away from the ugly truth! HAHAHAH!!!

ok, I bet this post is gonna make so many of you confused. It's not a secret actually. Because almost everyone have been telling me that. But I shall help keep it a secret so not to bring down some egoistic people. Or let my readers have a chance to give me some nasty comment.

Crushed photos and all. Joshua was being such a great friend. He was super determined and die die also must help me tear the photos. Super funny.

I miss Zheng yong, Joshua and Zhi ming!!!!

P/s. Should I go bali lane on Thursday? URGH!!!!

Brandon: What is rabbit.
Me: An animal.
Brandon: BUT IT LIKES YOU!!!

This Brandon nowadays damn act cute!!!! HAHAHAH!

Had a great night yesterday. HAHAHA! I kept asking ah xiang (li siang) questions.
Then he was fed up, he told rabbit. "Ahye, zhe ge song hui ge ni lah. ta hen chao!" (ahye, this one send back to you lah. she very noisy)

But still, I ended up finding out many things.....
>O:

Rabbit kept coming to talk to me and he called me his wife??!
Shocking.....

anyway, was great lah, had a fun time with them.

Kbox session today, sang like crazy even though I was coughing.

I wanna sleep. Photos next time. Just follow my twitter alright! baibai.

P/s. Can't wait to see Evangeline tomorrow!!!

you hang out with so many smoker and are so close to them you don't smoke? i don't believe. your ex also smoker but you accepted it. i don't believe you don't smoke

Don't believe then don't believe lor. I accepted because I loved him enough to overlook it. Your mother fuck your dad before means you also fuck your dad before lah?

Ask me anything

about the touchy touchy girl, do you feel really disgusted at that point? and do you still dislike her?

Nah, I don't dislike her. But I do feel disgusted. OF COURSE I FEEL DISGUSTED!!! So disgusted that I wanted to shove a cucumber up her pussy!

Ask me anything

you still like your ex after so long?! serious?

Ok, stop asking already k. Yes, I still do feel something for him. But not as much already because I've met many new people.

Ask me anything

Swiss never let us go prom night!!!!

Think my school is pretty an asshole when it comes down to things like this.

So Prom night is over, and the Sec4s NA that took their N level this year didn't get a chance to go. This was what happened to the previous batches too.

So this year, the whole class asked to be able to attend prom night together with our batch but still.... no actions.
And the 4NA ended up looking at photos of our batch mates at prom night instead.

WHY IS IT SO UNFAIR?!?!?!
Other schools allow the 4NA/Ts to attend prom night too. WHY NOT US!!!!!

Who wants to go prom night with the people who are not of the same batch as us??
We want to "graduate" with our batch! Not with some other batches!!!!!

So I assume this year's sec5 must be at their own corner, celebrating while the rest of the express students celebrate it together.

Maybe you could give us reasons like.... "the school wants you to work hard so that you can go to sec5 for prom night."
BUT SO?!?!?! WE WOULD WORK HARD TO GET TO SEC5 BUT NOT FOR PROM NIGHT. That's a dumb way to get us to work hard if you want us to go to sec5.
Who the hell would work hard so that you can go to some graduation dinner with.... uh, some people younger than you???
-.-

And what if some people wants to go to ITE instead of sec5. What if some people cannot make it. Then they won't have a graduation party?
AWWW, that's sad.

AIYA! SO WHY CAN'T WE GO FOR PROM NIGHT!!! >:@

I don't dislike my school. I just dislike the way they operate sometimes.

Like this year's open house. (which was much better than last year, but, still, it sucks.)
Not talking about me having fun etc. Of course last year was more fun. I am referring to the number of people who came.

WHY WOULD PEOPLE GO TO AN OPEN HOUSE EVEN BEFORE THEY GET THEIR PSLE RESULT?!?!?!
Unless they are super sure they can get into it. If not, why would they -.-

So dumb right. Why got open house before people get their results.

And open house ends at 2pm but the performances and all ends at 12pm.
So the 2hrs more = parents watch how Swiss students are responsible and efficient when they clean up??

Funneyyyyyy.

K, enough rant for now, I shall go out even though I am darn lazy to.
zajian. qing bu yao shen wo de qi ying wei this is just my opinion. But I am sure many of you would agree with me.

I miss having the feeling of happiness. But I believe I'll see it soon, just around the corner :)

How does she knows that he loves her.

*opens window and swing to side*
ahhh~ ahhh~

Can't stop thinking about this. HAHAHAH!

NO MORE BLACKBERRY FOR ME????

I am effing disappointed now.
EFFING DISAPPOINTED.

I wanted a blackberry for the longest time. But I wasn't really expecting my dad to get one for me lah.
So today, while I was in band, he went to get my youngest bro an iPhone4.

I got home to see my Pri6 bro with his new iPhone4. wtf! WHERES JUSTICE?!?!


But yeah, so surprisingly, my dad came to me and told me he subscribed for me 15G data plan.
And he said he asked about blackberry, he wanted to get it for me but thanks to some singtel fucker who said something to him like there's no student plan and he had to get a different plan for like $200 plus and $700+ for the blackberry itself. So, he decided not to.


And got another phone for my mum instead.


Which means I'm still gonna be stuck with this stupid Omnia 2. Have I told you how sucky it is?!?!?!
It lags, it gives me so much problem, I can't stand it!!!!!
Please don't get this phone... EVER!!!
Never get a Microsoft phone. That's the stupidest decision you can ever make.
Yeah, call me stupid.


To think I rejected my dad on the day when he told me to get a blackberry. I told him no, I wanted Samsung cause blackberry sucks.
And now, I am yearning for a blackberry so much.
(I felt that blackberry sucked because I tried using Nicholas's blackberry. And it really did suck)
Of course, I was ignorant about how good blackberry was. The bbm features, housing and all.
BUT NOW, I KNOW.


Can't explain how disappointed I was. I don't need a 15G data plan with this stupid Samsung because I can't even maximize the usage with it. SO WHAT FOR!!!
And it made me feel even more disappointed because my dad actually intended to get me a BB.
NOW, I AM STUCK WITH THIS DUMB SAMSUNG FOR IDK HOW LONG.

SOMEONE JUST KILL ME PLEASE.



▲ Charman says:
wo si diao suan le.
wei shen me ni men yao zhe yang dui wo!
wo shi keliangal ):
boyf bu yao wo,
leon bu yao wo.
mei you ren yao gen wo wan.
du zi mei tian er
xian zai blackberry ye bu yao gen wo zuo peng you.
wo hao shang xin.
zhen de
Recruit says:
wo yao ni!
  
(Of course I changed the name of this guy's name to recruit. So don't bother finding out.)


But on a happier note, I spent my day with my lovely sec4 batch today!
Without my 2 best friend, zhiming and zhengyong though. Shihan, kavya and lynette were not around too.
But had a great time.


We watched enchanted, and went facebook to look at prom photos, comment on people's dressing, including their own. And watched last year's band dinner. How I fell when zhengyong carried me. zzz
And they kept laughing at the vid!!
Wanna punch them so hard. (Especially bojiang) It's long over but yet they can still laugh about it.


Enchanted was nice! I shall watch it soon! HAHAHA! 
How does she know that he loves her~


Anyway, am glad that band is getting back in shape. But things are still a little messy though. Like library :/

Tomorrow is SWISS OPEN HOUSE!!!!
But I won't be performing. Will go back to help for awhile and leave to go to sengkang after that at 1?


Swiss is most probably the only school that holds open house before people get their PSLE result. Dumb or not? Post about this and prom night soon.


Good night!!

Theo came over to my place this evening. Then, we wanted to prank Fiona but that pig didn't answer our phone call. So Theo called Shushia instead.

Before that, I told her about me guessing what present Shushia got for me.

So Theo called.
(in the midst of the converstation)
Theo: So what you get for Charman?
Shushia: Hoodie.
(I made Theo laugh and coughed like crazy)
Theo: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAAHHAH!! *laughs like crazy*
Shushia: WL! Charman is with you right.

HAHAHHAHAHAHA. K, we failed.

Anyway, Theo is currently beside me nao and "no I'm not beside you. I'm behind you. Delete it and edit it" AIYA! SHUT UP LAH FAG.
(this is to theo ^^)

She asshole lah. "Ahye. It's kind of stupid for me to keep laughing while you just keep quiet and type away at the com you know"
THEO, YOU SHUT UP AND STOP READING WHAT I AM TYPING WHILE I BLOG OK! STOP CORRECTING ME!!!!!!! Fatty.

Ya, so she's gonna stay over today and we're gonna go for band tomorrow.
OMG!! That's super crazy right!!!! no-.-

I actually swept part of the floor and changed by bedsheet because she's staying over! WTF RIGHT!!!
I HAVE NEVER SWEPT MY ROOM FLOOR BEFORE NO MATTER HOW DIRTY IT IS!
h8her4lyfe!!!!!

So I went out with Nicholas yesterday. Nicholas literally slept almost throughout the trip!!
He's such a pig. And he kept irritating me by saying "jiahao"
IDIOT!!!!!!!!

Nicholas talks to monkey --

So we went to the beach, went to a mini farm, watched people fly kites and I watched him play with a kitten.

SO, I THINK I AM GONNA DIE SOON BECAUSE I CAN'T FALL ASLEEP AT NIGHT! I HAVEN'T SLEPT FOR LIKE 2 DAYS AND I DON'T FEEL TIRED!
BET IT'S GONNA BE THE SAME TODAY.

I'M GONNA DIE!!!!!!

Today is prom night and what are we doing at home??!?!?!?
Sorry, 4NAs were not invited. WHY?? Shall blog about it soon.

Ex boyfriend - Why are you crying?

Girl - It's none of your business anymore.

Ex- Alright, where's he at. I'm gonna beat his ass.

Girl - What're ya gonna do, punch a mirror?

Forget the times he walked by, Forget the times he made you cry,

Forget the times he spoke your name, Remember now your not the same.

Forget the times he held your hand, Forget the sweet things if you can,

Forget the times & Don't pretend, Remember now he's just your friend.

(source: x)

Take a deep breathe, know that things are gonna be alright.

Cinnamon melt ♥

SUP!!!!

I finally went back to band today! But I didn't touch any instrument because I was still coughing pretty badly.
Feels great to be back in the bandroom though! Especially when most of the sec4s are back.
I love my batch ♥


Had our usual lunch, chicken rice with bubble tea ♥ and I ended up coughing a lot after that. Slacked at canteen for awhile with Fiona and Theo.


Went back to bandroom and found sec4s slacking in the office!! >:@
Bojiang took my phone to play with Crayon physics! HAHAH! He is in love with it too!! While I played diner dash! 


Found my a new bear to love too!! HAHAHAH!
One of Mr Chew's teddy bear. It was so cute when I saw Lynette hold it in her hand, I wanted to try holding it too!! So I held on to it like for half a day.

Wonder why didn't I notice it before. Must be because I there's a larger bear in Library and I always have to fight with Zheng yong to get it. But this bear is so kuteeeee!! And am wondering why Evan loves the other weird looking one instead of this one -.-


Imma be positive from now on!!!!!!!

but this guy quite ugly and stupid looking. Shall draw a new one soon. Drew this because I kept thinking of this "~" symbol. 

I very lame horr? Went to cut them out -.-

You all confirm say I childish one lor. But I don't care. I'm a bitch.

Lynette: eeee! I don't want love this ugly guy!!! *took the weird looking monster(?) away*

Took the ugly thing back and took a photo with him.

HAHAHHAHA! Lynette damn funny. She said it was some guy.

Went back with Theo and Fiona after that.
Been long since we saw Fiona and chat with her. Now, she's trying to use her 6th sense to tell me who likes me-.-


P/s. Brandon tried to cheer me up because I was pretty unhappy then he started laughing at my face because he said I gave him some dumb look. And wanted me to show him the dumb face again and again. CB LOR THIS GUY!!!!

P/s/s. Will not be contactable in a few more hours!

So now, we start drifting apart, you don't have to say sorry, or tell me your stories. Because now, NOTHING touches my heart.




www.twitter.com/kissonyou

HAHAHHAHAHAH! YOU PEOPLE DAMN CUTE EH!
I DIDN'T UPDATE AT ALL AND YET YOU GUYS KEPT COMING TO MY BLOG!
CONFIRM COME TO SEE MY FORMSPRING ONLY LORRRRR!!!!

Anyway, I can't till I am well!
Made plans to go out with L, Tina and Shawn, Clarence and Theo.

Was told that Isabelle, Ah xiang and friends asked about me yesterday.
"Where is Rabbit's girlf? How come never come? When is she coming??"
I thought of them last night too!!! HAHHAHA! Though we just made friends, but I miss them alreadyyyy!!!

Have been doing nothing but sleeping and watching tv when I was sick.
Though I have yet to be fully recovered, it's time for me to start workinggggggg!

Anyway, I made a decision not to go to town till this Thursday. So yeah.

Shall go to band and clean up library tomorrow.
Can't wait for Wednesday to come. Will not be contactable for the whole day.
Then Thursday, I will be able to see Leon, Rabbit and friends.
Friday is gonna be band day for me again (I think?). Don't ask me why, but I just want to go back to band. Especially when Library is in a mess, I can't stand it!
Need to head down to geylang on Sat for P.U.S.H music meeting.
And Sunday back to town!!! Which means, Leon, Rabbit and friends!

Now, I shall eat!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

u should contact nuffnung to include formspring to pay u money lol. SO many QUESTIONS. -C2

HAHAHA! I LIKE THIS!!!!

Ask me anything

Sick

I had Fever, Cough, Flu, Sore throat and Ulcers for the past few days.

It sucks to be sick. Been so long since I fell sick, last time was in sec1? But I wasn't so sick to the extent that I couldn't go out.

So the past few days was total hell for me. (I am still sick lah. But feeling much much better)
First, my ulcers kept me from talking too much and eating. (It is very important for me to talk one lor)
I had two and one kept growing bigger!!! I dislike ulcers.
I bet nobody likes them (except for Roy, I won't forget. hahah).
Whenever I have ulcers, I can't play the cornet, I can't eat lots of stuffs and I can't speak properly!!

Then my cough.
Ok, cough is pretty normal because I have them most of the time and they would last for months! And every night I would wake up from my sleep all of a sudden because I would cough non stop. After coughing for a long time, my stomach would hurt each time I cough. Not the normal stomachache though. It's like tension. Weird to explain. I don't know why but it has been happening since sec 2.

Sore throat (Recovered from it!)
K, nothing much about this. Sore throat was like nothing compared to the rest lor.

Plus flu, (Recovering)
Which gave me backaches and headache. Dad said it is normal to have backache and headache when I have flu? So yeah. Having flu is ok. WHAT I TOTALLY DISLIKE WAS THE BACKACHE AND HEADACHE!!!!!! No matter how I toss and turn I felt uncomfortable!!

Lastly was fever, (Recovered)
Which made me feel damn sickkkkkk. My body kept rejecting food and I practically threw up everything I ate!! Must be God teaching me a lesson because I ate too much >):

So I could only consume this liquid from the plain porridge which my mama calls "um". Because other than that, my body rejected everything I ate. It really sucks to have your stomach feel so empty! DAMN EMPTY!!!!!

And I am finally on the road to recovery today!
So I had this super plain porridge for lunch and dinner.

Used to love eating this when I was young. Damn siao right!!! I could eat it everyday! Not now though.

And thanks to my secret weapon,

 Salty spicy toufu!!!!!!

k, don't know if this is the name or not but whatever! I like to call it this!

Ate porridge with this all the time when I was young.

Could live with it.

And drank this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HOT HONEY LEMON!!!!!!

Mum and dad made at least 2 cups for me each day. Really nice to drink it. Made my throat feel better.  But the honey added it made it taste a little weird. I bet they used the apple syrup instead lor. HAHAHAH! ok, maybe I am thinking too much.

Lastly, water. Plain water.

Was pretty upset with my mama on the first day because she refused to take me to the doctor when I told her to. BECAUSE IT WAS MY FIRST TIME ASKING HER LEH!

I HAVE NEVER ASK MY PARENTS TO BRING ME TO THE DOCTOR BEFORE LO!!!! NEVER! SWEAR! Only my brothers would request for it. 

I felt to sick that day, I wanted to go to the doctor but she refused??!?! Even my grandpa and dad said I needed to go lor!! >:@

But of course I know why lah. (I just remembered why though)

Because I will NEVER take my medicine after seeing the doctor. And my mum would have to nag at me to go to the kitchen to take my med.

Can't wait to be well again!!!!

I want to go for performance!! I want to go out!!!!!! I want to eat!! And I don't wanna fall sick again!!!!

This may not the only reason that caused me to fall sick but I don't care. (I ate a lot of brownies that day and I ran in the rain before that. BUT I DRANK LOTS OF WATER!!)  I started having sore throat and cough right after standing beside her. So yeah,

Smokers, I don't like you! >:@

I re read certain posts of yours and the one about change. I hope you could post more inspirational post though you have stopped. do it again!

AWWW, After reading your comment I went back to read my posts and I kind of miss how happy I was in the past. And those abilities to blog those posts. But now I like no more abilities leh ): I have been busy and I have been losing hopes and dreams. So I've stopped. Thanks for reminding me! I guess I should get back on my feet and start being positive again!! HAHAHAHHAHAHA! Thanks again!

Ask me anything

WOAH! TODAY I NEVER BLOG SO MANY OF YOU COME READ MY BLOG AH!!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAH!!!!!!

Slept my day away again.
Daddy said I lost weight after falling sick!!! Pray for me to get well soon eh! I got performance this Sunday and wanna go on holiday next week!!

Love you readers! Good night!!

you still like your ex right

uh, a little left leh. Not so right. Maybe middle?

Ask me anything

fuck you! never reply my sms. sleep whole day song bo! Sherry

OPPS! I WAS SLEEPING WHATTTTT!! I ALSO NEVER REPLY OTHER PEOPLE. ANYWAY, NOT LEY, BACKACHE, HEADACHE, VOMIT, COUGH, FLU, ULCER. SONG MEH?!?!?!

Ask me anything

you really got so sick meh. just want people to pity you only

TELLING PEOPLE I AM SICK MEANS THEY WILL PITY ME?? -.- IF I NOT SICK I WOULDN'T SLEEP FOR ONE WHOLE DAY BUT GO OUT WITH FRIENDS ALREADY. ANYWAY, YOU ALSO QUITE FUNNY LEH. YOU NOTHING TO TALK ABOUT COME MY FORMSPRING TO CRAP AND EXPECT ME TO ENTERTAIN YOU?

Ask me anything

I remember being sick and I told him I feel my fever rising

This was what he said.
"sit beside your lover tempreture of course will rise!"

AHAHHA! Not that I still like him but I suddenly thought of it and I thought it was pretty cute.

Gonna rest now,
fever, throat infection, cough, ulcer.
WALAU!!!!

Would you still do the same?

I miss you hugging me, asking if I'm alright when I am feeling sick. 

Was sleeping in my room and my mum and dad didn't know I was home after 3hrs. LOL
Then they had a shock when they saw me rushing out of my room to th toilet.

Was just told that it's some virus that causes my throat to be like that.
Smokers, _|_ you even more!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Just go kill yourselves. Don't wait to die

I feel so cheated. I reached th MRT station to find out that band is only half day today.
grrrrrr >:@

I shall go and take a rest now. I feel so sickkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk
I wanna dieeee

Make me honey lemon please?

Yesterday was fun. But it could have been more fun it not for my small but super pain ulcers.
@(*(#&*&^&%#$^&%(@$**&$

Been so long since I had ulcers.
I TOTALLY DISLIKE IT!!!! >:@
Plus the fact that Remembrance Day is this Sunday, I NEED TO PLAYYYYY!!!

Anyhow, yesterday was fun! HAHAHAH! Spent lots of time with Leon!!
I think we got a lot of fate lor. HAHAHAHAHAHAHH.
Then Theo and I went singing in th meeting room with mic.

Kept drinking water because I needed up ulcer to heal.
I drank about 5-6 bottles that day? And I needed to go to th toilet every 10 mins!!
NO JOKE!!!!
We practically have go and find the nearest place with toilet. AND THERE WAS NO TOILET IN THE BUS!!!!! *@$&@*$(




I did not pee in my pants fortunately >:)




Anyway, I hope all inconsiderate smokers die early.
Yesterday, one just blew smoke at me. I couldn't walk anywhere because the path was narrow and it irritates my throat! Straight after that, I kept coughing continuously just to have the irritating feeling get out of my throat. Ended up with super bad sore throat.

SMOKERS?!?!?!?
WHY YOU CANNOT BE MORE CONSIDERATE?!?!?
YOU WANT TO HAVE HEART DISEASES, DIE EARLY OR WHATSOEVER OTHER PEOPLE DON'T WANT LEH!!! >:@

_|_ YOU _|_ YOU _|_ YOU!!!!!!

When I was young,

I always wish the rain would be so heavy, it would flood, so high to my knee and I'll wear a raincoat with boots to play in it.

I always hope for this. Unfortunately, as I grew older and found out more, how dirty it would be. It wasn't that fun at all.

Went for a jog with Saiful, Theo and Shaun, in the rain.
But had much fun >:)

Sometimes I really dislike my mum and dad so much, I wish I could just die in front of them.
I ate PLAIN rice with nothing at all for dinner. GRRRR! Shall find food later

Will do whatever it takes

To get back the smile I used to have




Been going out everyday and have been feeling sleepy most of the time.
gonna go out again! BYE2

Another of your lies

LIAR LIAR.
You told me those lies I should have known better.

Don't you feel your conscious prick? Or do you just don't feel it?
Did you lie and deny just to make you feel better?
Do you not feel anything for telling those lies?
All you do when someone confronts you is to deny, deny and deny.


But really, deep inside of your heart do you think you're right?
I doubt you can feel anything. I doubt you will even think. 
Afterall, you think you're the high and all mighty and it's always me who will do you wrong.


You try to make me fall when I try to be strong.

It’s hard to watch things change when all you want is for them to stay the same. It’s funny but stupid how you want everything and nothing at the same time. It’s crazy when you want to let go, but you keep holding on, and when you want to move on but you’re stuck right where you started. 
When feelings come and go and you can’t decide what you want. When you have so many things to say but you don’t know where to start. When you want them in your life so bad, but all you can do is push them farther and farther apart. It’s so hard to think back to how things used to be and look at it now and realize that things are different and they may never be the same. You tell yourself it’s not worth it, but if it really didn’t matter, you wouldn’t spend so much time thinking about it. And you want to run. But you have no where to go. You decide to stay, but things just try to make you go away. And worst, the people you love, starts to dislike you. You don't know the reason, you feel so sad and confused.

So give me a reason, tell me why

Wanna get away from many things for a couple of days. I needed a reason. I wanted to know why. But I never had the answer and I had to jump to conclusions and always guess, infer or lie (to myself). 


Anyway, no one will bother me, I decided to stop using facebook for the time being, I've switched off my phone if you were wondering why you couldn't contact me. 




Contact me through Twitter 
Or... Idk, go find a way on your own.

Yum cha

Met the girls for yam cha buffet yesterday.

Wanted to get my mind off certain stuffs and ate soooo much that my stomach expanded and was super huge.
SCARYYYY.
It looked like it was about to explode!

Lets start off with my retarded face..

Greedy girls, ordered so much at a time.

Love the soup.

One of my favourite dish!!

Headed to Orchard then after to get something.

You broke my defences, now I have to build them up again.